HERE & ME
Lub dub, lub dub, lub dub – listening to this heart of mine
Through deflated lens these seeking eyes of mine
No nasty niff but a sickening stench through this nose of mine
Inward stream of humid air through this mouth of mine
And Then …?
I am here and I am me- living
I am here and I am me- looking
I am here and I am me- inhaling
I am here and I am me- breathing
I am here and I am me SCREEEAMMMINGGG!!!
What brought me here to this … this …?
Where the hell am I … did I get that right?
When and why this started I haven’t got a clue
And why the heck am I explaining it to you?
Let’s forget the fifth line huh? Phew!!!!
T
2020 Sep 7
Sep 7, 2020
Sep 7, 2020 at 8:26 AM UTC
Battleships floating on a lake
Four of them are mine
They have the white sterns,
The enemy has brown.
We are engaged in combat
But I haven’t told anyone
Raindrops reproduce salvo ripples
Many do not strike home.
Windblown now, they cluster
Against the shore, helpless
No engines, no steel
Just soggy floating ****
A giant tsunami approaches
The four by four, oblivious to
the havoc it will create
in my makeshift world,
cleaves the puddle in two.
I lose sight of the enemy ships
My proud navy is swept aside
to rest on cobbled shores
their task is finished now
but I refuse to accept defeat.
Another long pull towards the ****
flick of the thumb and another
ship is launched, the enemy
has just lit up.
T
24/11/07
Aug 16, 2020
Aug 16, 2020 at 9:07 AM UTC
I can but won’t
’cause it makes me cry
each time I try.
Gotta stop thinkin’
thoughts alinking
together … and here
I go again!
T
2020 Aug 12
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 6:16 AM UTC
Where did you take my day?
Why did you take it away?
When minutes and hours are all fey
I know “together” means being that way
… and I love it.
T
2020 Aug 8
Aug 8, 2020
Aug 8, 2020 at 6:52 AM UTC
You told me “Today” on Tuesday
So I didn’t go away
Wednesday came and passed me by, now
Thursday’s just another day
Friday too will come and go
But that’s a busy day
When Saturday gets here
You’ll be off and I’ll be thinking “Hey!
Will you remember me today”?
Tony
Aug 7, 2020
Aug 7, 2020 at 1:47 AM UTC
If feeling down is being blue,
Then I demand another hue,
Let’s try gray or even black,
Then all my woes I’ll gladly pack.
Blue to me is really great,
It’s a colour that I highly rate,
Let me give you reasons why,
My first one is a clear blue sky.
The second one to you from me,
A crystal clear deep blue sea,
The third would be a sapphire bright,
Sparkling blue as it catches the light.
Next on my list, but not of late,
Are the twinkling blue eyes of a brand new date,
Little Boy Blue is a nursery rhyme,
Sing it to the Grandkids all the time,
Blue is the colour of a forget-me-not,
Painted Easter eggs and God knows what,
So next time that you’re feeling blue,
Go pick yourself another hue!
Tony
ps:
there’s one thing I forgot to say, some folks talk blue in another way, videos, films, pics and all, some even like it against the wall, well let me tell you nothing new, I like the shower provided it’s blue!
Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 8:57 AM UTC
I thought I had graduated from the University of Life
But it seems to me sitting here I wasn’t right
We are never too old to learn, we should always look
There are lessons out there you can’t learn from a book
Some of the creatures on this earth are born to fight
There are others whose future looks so bright
I’d give my right arm to have all the right answers
But like those before me I will die still questioning.
Who is responsible for the way I feel?
Who is the person listening to my appeal?
Who is there to set me straight?
Who is going to miss me when I come home late?
Who is the one missing from my day?
Who is the one out there, so very far away?
Who is the one who can assess my faults?
And give me the answers that my heart wants?
What lies at the end of a rainbow?
What is it that makes love grow?
What are destiny and fate?
What is it that makes us wait?
What is the definition of a dream?
What is there in those places I’ve never seen?
What in the world makes time go so slow?
What are the answers that I’ll never know?
Where will I be a decade from now?
Where is the honesty implied by a vow?
Where do I fight these battles raging inside?
Where is there love that will abide?
Where are those that I hold so dear?
Where is the cure for all my ****** fear?
Where are my answers, the ones that I want?
I can’t seem to find them anywhere.
When will I stand on my own two feet?
When will my heart stop missing a beat?
When will the tears that I cry finally end?
When will my resolve irresistibly bend?
When will I know if I have what it takes?
When will I find an end to heartaches?
When will I stop questioning what I am doing?
Probably when I find my answers.
Why did you love me and take me to your heart?
Why do I choose to live here and keep us miles apart?
Why does forever seem so very far away?
Why do I live my life crawling from day to day?
Why does my heart feel locked up inside?
Why is there nobody here in whom I can confide?
Why do I have all these questions?
And, more importantly, why don’t I know the answers?
How do we fill an empty space?
How do we recall a particular face?
How do thoughts tumble inside our heads?
How do we dream when we go to our beds?
How do we remember love gone wrong?
How do we remember words to a song?
How do I find the way back from where I am?
All I need is the right answers.
I have explored the who, what, where, when, why and how
So, do you think that I have all the answers now?
Unfortunately not, at least not this time around
Guess I’ll have to keep looking until they’re found
There is one thing I have realised and it’s in my head
Sometimes in thought there’s a common thread
If I realise this, and look beyond this scree
Then I’d know that all the answers I need, lie inside of me.
Tony
2001
Aug 3, 2020
Aug 3, 2020 at 6:31 PM UTC
Rough as manilla hemp
knotted against the wind,
hands rub stubble-ridden
jowls, that gloat.
Grime coated tongue
of whisky and pipe
tobacco, licks away
at fly ridden carcasses
exuding the
stench of death.
A rustle here;
slithering over there,
air rushed through
cornfield nostrils;
coming to get him.
Soft and ripe for
your loathsome
underworld habitat.
You are real
to him; there!
Where? within his
sightless mind,
he senses you stalking.
Thrashes against
piles of earth,
weighted, legs kick
in vain defence.
Hot sweat mats
chestnut hair against
his forehead. It
trickles into his
ear, blood curdling
scream awakes
the dead.
He hears the
voice of reality,
trusting to its
timbre of love.
“It’s ok son, I’m
here, it’s just
another nightmare”
A cool towel
absorbs his fears,
but not mine.
T
2008/6/22
Aug 2, 2020
Aug 2, 2020 at 4:56 AM UTC
Glistening diamonds falling down
****** as they hit the ground
Gather themselves around my feet
Then spread out like a crystal sheet
If I could gather up the flow
And take it with me wherever I go
I’d be a rich man that’s for sure
With all these diamonds white and pure
Imagination is a spirit free
It lives … alive … inside of me
If I could harvest all this rain
Time and time and time again
Take it where it will do some good
Into a desert and create a flood
Plant some seeds and watch them grow
Then turn that wheat into dough
Make some bread … the staff of life
Feed hungry children in times of strife
Oh yes … a rich man I would be
With happiness inside of me
Aug 1, 2020
Aug 1, 2020 at 11:29 AM UTC
Today I heard from you, and that is not unusual
I read your e-mail along with four or five others
Sitting in my office, a casual break from my day
But what was different was the tear that broke
From my eye as I read your words and began to cry
I know not why I felt so sad, yet I was sitting all
Alone, David had just brought the coffee in, then he
Disappeared like the steam rising from my cup.
As I heard the door close too with a bang, it seemed
To shut me off from the outside world …and you.
A combination of factors each remote from the other
Intermingle suddenly and conspire in sweet simplicity
To evoke a feeling deep inside of anguish and despair
The second that the door closed I knew you were not here
But I held you in my hand, in crumpled paper form, and cried.
Jul 30, 2020
Jul 30, 2020 at 2:49 AM UTC