if you’re still here
by the time I next change the sheets
then maybe
you’re here to stay
Mar 1, 2020
Mar 1, 2020 at 1:39 PM UTC
I LIKE TO SAY YOUR NAME
I like to say
your name
when you're
not here
turn you
into sound
conjure you out of
thin air
so that you appear
before me
dressed in sound
only
memory sketching in
the rest of you
as if sound
was just an outline
and love
colours you in
adding the voice last
so I can hear you say.
"Hello you..!"
and there you are
as present
as present
can be.
I like to say
your name
when you're
not there.
Feb 16, 2020
Feb 16, 2020 at 4:16 PM UTC
Maybe I’ll miss the sun
When it starts to pour
But for now
I can’t do this anymore
Sep 2, 2019
Sep 2, 2019 at 8:53 AM UTC
You repeatedly gave me red flags
And I took them each time
With a smile,
As if they were flowers.
I chose to look for green lights,
And in that way, I guess, I broke my own heart.
Jul 10, 2019
Jul 10, 2019 at 12:04 PM UTC
I thought it’d be fun to fall in love
It wasn’t
Jun 1, 2019
Jun 1, 2019 at 3:16 PM UTC
where does my joy come from?
it comes not from you.
not from waiting for you,
like waiting for rain in a drought.
it comes not from pressing pause,
holding breath,
using litotes on the underwhelming.
it comes not from the unnecessary distractions.
or comparisons.
or sharp bluntness.
it definitely doesn’t come from that feeling - the feeling that you’re losing
interest.
the feeling that I’m losing
value.
the feeling that I’m losing.
it comes, instead, from something greater
something more
something inside
and all around
I remember to look away from you
and look up
Jun 1, 2019
Jun 1, 2019 at 3:12 PM UTC
It’s okay that you don’t miss me
I’ve found a new love
I call him,
Whiskey
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 12:38 PM UTC
you were raised to not let anyone
steal your independence from you
if he truly loved you
he would not expect you
to be less than yourself
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 11:12 AM UTC
i am beginning to find myself again
i am in control of my future
as i sit out in the rain
with the wind blowing in my face
i realize everything will be
okay
May 30, 2019
May 30, 2019 at 11:10 AM UTC
is this my insecurity,
or my intuition speaking?
the two “ i’s “
one will keep you safe,
the other will destroy.
maybe it’s a mix of both.
maybe you make me feel
like this and
it’s a red flag.
crimson, ruby, blood.
beautiful and altogether devastating.
I keep going around in circles.
everything is so simple
in your head
and so convoluted
in mine.
it’s unfair.
May 28, 2019
May 28, 2019 at 11:21 PM UTC