bethanidarkside
I'm 19, I was born in a abusive condition for 17 years. I've grown fond of pain and other peoples feelings and their emotions. I spend my nights reading, and writing poetry in order to keep myself from falling off cliff 9. But, I'm black, white and columbian. I'm in Jobcorps, I already have my high school dipolma, graduated from Newton High School, 2015.
Don't leave
I thought this was it
You are my only
Or as you always stated
But, when you smile
I have a vision
That nobody
Can take my place
That it's us only
But, when it's over
She's standing there
And i remember
It was never a lifetime.
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 3:05 PM UTC
Sometimes, I live in vain
Because, so many people tell me "no."
But, some never really tell me why
Maybe someday , people will understand that your dream is your own
That nobody can curse you
Only your mind can
Maybe someday people will tell you they love you
Instead, of telling your neighbor in a countless affair
Maybe, it'll come to us that we aren't ruining our lives by caring but wasting our time on people who never did.
But, someday maybe someone will care.
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 2:55 PM UTC
I've seen the worst
Maybe, if he love me
His hands wouldn't disgrace me
I've got alot in my head
Some turn into nightmares
And some turn into dreams
Through these eyes
I've never once told myself
To close my eyes
Because, even when it hurts to stare at
It makes you stronger
Looking at the depths of things
And through these eyes
I have not once
Told myself to close my eyes
Because, even if it burns it still is worth crying.
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 2:42 PM UTC
Doesn't
Always
Last
Forever
But, Always
Remains
Inside
Your
Heart.
Oct 6, 2015
Oct 6, 2015 at 4:48 PM UTC
* She walk in tired from a day at work
So tired, just losing her mind
She went in the bedroom , saw her husband with a gun to his head and she screamed and said*
" No, don't do this! I love you and this isn't the road you should take I want you with me! Remember death do us part don't do this!"
And he said , " Come join me."
Tick, Tick, Tick
The clock ticks, the wife sits at the far end of the wall and she's nervous
The husband watches his wife in dismay with his gun to his brain
"Baby, please what about the children, what about love?"
*" What about it? Come on baby join me."
She's sick to her stomach grabs a knife and puts it to her stomach and says , " Baby ok I'm coming with you! What about the kids we should never leave them?!!"
"1-2-3...."
"Baby, come on you have til I get to 5."
"1-2-3-4-5."
The wife plunges the knife into her stomach but, she didn't hear a gunshot.
"Baby, why?! You said you love me , you said til death do us part!"
He smiled dropped the gun and said, " It doesn't mean we both have to go."
Oct 6, 2015
Oct 6, 2015 at 4:44 PM UTC
Black Crown
With Black Dress
Tattoos Of Western Rattle Snakes
Down Her Back
But, She's Bold
Mind Solely
Written By Herself
She's Golden
Don't Trust My Dark Minded Queen
She's Beautiful
You Get Pulled Into The Stream
Of Vain, Vain, Vain
She's Pure ****** Attractive
Got The Looks Go Crazy
The Eyes You Probably Seen In Nightmare
Don't Trust My Minded Queen.
But,
Oct 6, 2015
Oct 6, 2015 at 4:29 PM UTC
Your hands pull me
Closer, and I know right then this is the moment
That we've been waiting for
I'll be your canvas
You express your feelings and you'll be the paint brush painting on me
Countless hours with nails inside my spine
With your imprint on me
Owning me
And for a second I am free
You just release me
Talking bodies
Wrapped up into the arms and legs
Touching me
I love you
I love this
While you are close to me
Talking bodies.
Oct 6, 2015
Oct 6, 2015 at 9:59 AM UTC
Haha, I rather be judged on my sins
Than fall into this place again
Whoa, I never felt so much heat coming out of fire before
I rather wish upon on the rocks and caves that I find here
Than pray to the blue sky , watch the birds sail and be ignored
**** wow, so much pain it's so revolting
Through this hole I see Earth spinning
And this creature welcomes me with rams on his head
"Welcome , to the place we call hell,
where we burn people for the lives that's been mistaken,
but I rather call it home for the people without hope because nobody comes out and many come in."
He smiles at me
Such a demonic smile
And somehow I'm SCARED
But, **** Hell IS Home.
Oct 6, 2015
Oct 6, 2015 at 9:27 AM UTC
We Howl At The Moon That We Declare
That Only Us Matters And Not The Warriors That Stare
We Rivaled As Warriors, Strong And Strength
Snap Necks As They Threaten
Bite Into Flesh As They Wither Away
We Come In Packs
Fear Us
We Come In Packs
Run
Because, Everybody Wants Us To Tear Apart
So We Fight Like We Are Heartless
But, Nobody Will Never Know
We Came In Packs.
Oct 6, 2015
Oct 6, 2015 at 9:14 AM UTC
Monsters! Ahh, there they go again
They are crowding me
Monster! So close I can feel them there
Watching me
"Bridget, come on , honey join me in the dark!"
But, this feeling that receive is nothing more than a scheme
When the lights go off
And the door is closed
They come out of nowhere
And they keep calling me.
Oct 2, 2015
Oct 2, 2015 at 9:57 AM UTC