beatrixxx - Hello Poetry

I'm swimming in a stream of consciousness rare is the occasion I get to rest I'm swimming sometimes drowning inside my head I need rescue help me please I beg I was running wild with the wind once against the current I flew through the glass window I came suddenly and fell into this room I'm a fish not that big not a whale or a shark more like a salmon in the dark at the bottom of the ocean where I'm not supposed to be I'm out of breath. I'm a fish in your aquarium the one you never get tired of looking at you watch me do the same thing all day how I get bored and lonely inside my rock you watch me grow until I stop I can't learn anything new so I hide and play by myself Once you dropped me on the floor desperately grabbed me and took me home I slept like it was my last day on earth 'cause you never know what's going on in the universe's mind I thought I should've died before but when you're being killed the instinct is to fight I wouldn't mind stop breathing though I wouldn't mind not having feelings Fishes have feelings too I'm afraid of the dark too Here in your aquarium I get to see the most wonderful things! how your cat almost swallows me how your fingers get nervous when you're excited and I can see everything 'cause no one sees me Maybe you should take my eyes 'cause I can see through yours.

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Feb 3, 2018

Feb 3, 2018 at 5:23 PM UTC

beatrixxx

Stream of consciousness

I'm swimming in a stream of consciousness rare is the occasion I get to rest I'm swimming sometimes drowning inside my head I need rescue help me please I beg I was running wild with the wind once against the current I flew through the glass window I came suddenly and fell into this room I'm a fish not that big not a whale or a shark more like a salmon in the dark at the bottom of the ocean where I'm not supposed to be I'm out of breath. I'm a fish in your aquarium the one you never get tired of looking at you watch me do the same thing all day how I get bored and lonely inside my rock you watch me grow until I stop I can't learn anything new so I hide and play by myself Once you dropped me on the floor desperately grabbed me and took me home I slept like it was my last day on earth 'cause you never know what's going on in the universe's mind I thought I should've died before but when you're being killed the instinct is to fight I wouldn't mind stop breathing though I wouldn't mind not having feelings Fishes have feelings too I'm afraid of the dark too Here in your aquarium I get to see the most wonderful things! how your cat almost swallows me how your fingers get nervous when you're excited and I can see everything 'cause no one sees me Maybe you should take my eyes 'cause I can see through yours.

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These days I am amazed How this tiny apartment Suddenly contains so much space Vast, like an ocean I am drowning in endless spheres I am thinking about how we didn’t even fit a couch into it How you threw away your old shoes How I buried mine under pillars of clothes in the cellar How the walls hugged us at night How our hopes and dreams tried to escape the window How we didn’t let them How we wanted to adopt a cat so badly How we were afraid the walls would swallow it But this morning I woke up, Sheets like a large blanket of snow A heavy silence weighing me down So much air but so little breath I barely saw the end of the room Just a dark tunnel where there is no light at the end or anything at all Just me and is ridiculously large space Suffocating me with its infinity I recovered your stuff from the cellar Hung your pictures on the wall again Even put up that ugly shelf you used to love But no matter how hard I tried to fill the room The floor just soaked in everything And there was only so much space

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beatrixxx

Feb 3, 2018

Feb 3, 2018 at 5:01 PM UTC

maledimiele

So much space

These days I am amazed How this tiny apartment Suddenly contains so much space Vast, like an ocean I am drowning in endless spheres I am thinking about how we didn’t even fit a couch into it How you threw away your old shoes How I buried mine under pillars of clothes in the cellar How the walls hugged us at night How our hopes and dreams tried to escape the window How we didn’t let them How we wanted to adopt a cat so badly How we were afraid the walls would swallow it But this morning I woke up, Sheets like a large blanket of snow A heavy silence weighing me down So much air but so little breath I barely saw the end of the room Just a dark tunnel where there is no light at the end or anything at all Just me and is ridiculously large space Suffocating me with its infinity I recovered your stuff from the cellar Hung your pictures on the wall again Even put up that ugly shelf you used to love But no matter how hard I tried to fill the room The floor just soaked in everything And there was only so much space

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You notice things; Specks on the wall + ceiling fan dialogue or finger-painting behind your eyelids. You writhe, organise your day. Still you probe the sheets; "Will I ever get there?" In your fugue. In your alarm-clock glow.

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beatrixxx

Feb 3, 2018

Feb 3, 2018 at 12:09 PM UTC

l-perry

Insomnia.

You notice things; Specks on the wall + ceiling fan dialogue or finger-painting behind your eyelids. You writhe, organise your day. Still you probe the sheets; "Will I ever get there?" In your fugue. In your alarm-clock glow.

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