The water runs around me
I relax and let it soak my knees
As it's lapping up my body in its warmth
And the white sheet shrouds me lovely
I look down at myself and I see
Any single person I wanna be
But as the spheres run dry and leave me growing ****
I look up at the wall and realize that my white sheet dream is just as far away as it's always seemed
So I tuck up and I know that I am sad
And away
So very very very far away
Now I let the water drip away
Not like I'm asking it to stay
I'd rather have the real thing in front me
I cover up in my daytime clothes
But on the inside I can feel it and I know
Just who I really shoulda been
So as my years run dry and leave me growing rude
I look up at the sky and realize that my expression was never what I had truly deeply sought
I've ****** up and I'm hardly even mad
I'm a stray
But at least I've never pushed anyone away
At least I've never pushed my friends away
At least everyone got to stick around and stay
Oct 7, 2013
Oct 7, 2013 at 12:50 AM UTC
I don't wanna stay at your party
I don't wanna talk to your friends
I don't wanna vote for your president
I just wanna be your tugboat captain
Sep 30, 2013
Sep 30, 2013 at 1:35 AM UTC
an old man insists that you are his father. you cannot get rid of him. he is everywhere. always nagging "papa, pepep", but you don't respond
because you are most certainly not his father; that would be absurd. but he doesn't know that. he wants his pep pep.
you tell the police "get this old man away from me, keep him out" but they cannot find him. "elusive" they say. "cold case"
but you hear him always, whispering in your ear. "pep pep, make garlic bread." "pappy, cook toast, I'm hungry!"
no one can see him, no one can hear him nag. the old man drives you mad, he is your old man, and you are his pep pep
are you his pappy? are you? you are his pep pep, his pap. are you still his pappy? you are his pep, his pappy pep, his pep pep mcpaps
FIN
Sep 29, 2013
Sep 29, 2013 at 10:54 PM UTC
He'd slap me around
He'd call me a *****
He tell me to love him
And that I would want more
A punch to my face
A kick to my shin
I would fall to the ground
Dried blood on my skin
He'd pick me back up
Spit right in my face
"You fight like a girl -
now clean up this place!"
But this time was different
I knew my control
He knew what he'd said
And he must pay the toll
I punched through his chest
And ripped out his heart
Crushed it in hand
My fingers like darts
With eyes full of tears
He managed to whimper
"Why?" he responded
For he was not a thinker
With a grin on my face
And just as he died
"I fight like a girl."
Then kicked him aside.
Mar 1, 2013
Mar 1, 2013 at 12:35 AM UTC
Our lives are not our own
From womb to tomb, we are bound to others
Past and present
And by each crime
And every kindness
We birth our future
Feb 19, 2013
Feb 19, 2013 at 1:08 AM UTC
Eyes staring up
To the lovely and strong
Oh, Middy Ocre
Play me a song
That song you do play
The hum of my life
It's always to stay
Stuck in like a knife
I know it quite well
I've heard it before
The sound of my hell
A fresh closing door
Slammed square on my jaw
What did I expect?
No one ever saw
The sounding prefect
I came, then I went
With hardly a glance
I knew I was spent
I had not a chance
For that song in my ears
And everywhere else
Never drew tears
But bolded itself
It stood way up high
Embrazoned in gold
I started to cry
Belittled and cold
Feb 19, 2013
Feb 19, 2013 at 12:44 AM UTC
I thought you were my friend - yeah!
I thought you were my friend - yeah!
But now you're not my friend - yeah!
But now you're not my friend - yeah!
I thought you had my back - yeah!
I thought you had my back - yeah!
But you stabbed me there instead - yeah!
But you stabbed me there instead - yeah!
Ohhh, ohh, you're not my friend!
Ohhh, ohh, you're not my friend!
Jan 3, 2013
Jan 3, 2013 at 10:02 AM UTC
It's practically unlawful
Your minds are all bare
The welled up and awful
That compose your stare
You see not the light
But only the dark
The wonders of sight
Are but a mere mark
On the surface of hate
Soon to be removed
Rejection innate
And you've really proved
That the glory of life
The love of the heart
Are nothing but strife
To be pinned by the dart
The dart of no mercy
Of eons of shame
You'll get your hands *****
To garner some fame
You are hardly human
An embarrassment, too
It's the free right of man
It's nothing anew
To love without boundaries
Regardless of gender
It's nothing of foundry
But a natural splendor
So go back to your shells
To hide in your frames
Reject all the bells
And never be tamed
We'll go on without you
Overflowing with love
No one there around to
Pacify your dove
The dove that never flies
And feeds on our pain
His mind soon to die
And we, soon to claim
The crumbling earth
And patch it all up
You're into the hearth
And we've got your cup
Dump all the contents
Into the fire
Now peaceful moments
Can truly suspire
Jan 3, 2013
Jan 3, 2013 at 2:50 AM UTC
So the time has now come
It's over for you
You're gonna be gone
And there's nothing to do
You always loved hate
You never were known
To be the very best
And you've certainly shown
That your evils and wrongs
Can never be ceased
Always turn the living
Into the deceased
And though it's amoral
And never corrective
I fell it's important
To be reflective
Of a dead lack of mercy
And an ignorance of shame
So that you may be ended
And formally defamed
So here I stand
And not a moment too soon
A squeeze of the trigger
You begin to swoon
You buckle your knees
And fall to the ground
I rise up and scream
"Eternally bound!"
Jan 2, 2013
Jan 2, 2013 at 6:04 PM UTC
Sitting 'round, eyes on the ground
There's more to know each minute
I listen to the lovely sound
And adore all that is in it
Suddenly, a bit of ***
And everyone's awash
Desperate for something free
I waddle to the wash
Just before the open door
A deepness in my back
I tumble down, my life a frown
Then everything is black
Another day, my jeans afray
A ticket by my side
It says "Hey Nick, don't show your ****
I crumbled down and cried
Now I know, there's no more show
In here it's all mundane
In my cell, my life is hell
My heart full of disdain
I wonder why, my life's awry
And gone into the deep
Then I hear, there's no more fear
My ***** I must keep
Jan 2, 2013
Jan 2, 2013 at 1:55 AM UTC