what am I waiting for
what keeps me here
what keeps me addicted to the heavy feeling in my chest
or the tears rolling down my face
it is hope
that is one I have not lost yet
though at times
I wish I had
Dec 29, 2015
Dec 29, 2015 at 12:01 PM UTC
the love that plays with me like a kitten
tangles me up in yarn
and presses its wet nose against mine
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 9:29 PM UTC
how tempting it can be
when surrounded by foggy windows and melting hearts
you receive an invitation
to a place
you think
love can live without bounds
and blossom without worry
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 9:24 PM UTC
i can watch you sleep for hours
feel the silent love
the love i know you can only give without knowing
how to give
i blossom into something more understanding
more patient
i am creative and i can see between the lines
but i cant decide if this is real
or fantasy
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 9:21 PM UTC
my mind is the messiest plate of food
matching my chaotic home
i have it together i have it together i have it together
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 9:18 PM UTC
i learn a lot about myself
through you
i don't like to be a spectacle
but for you
i want to be every word bouncing across the page
each spec of light that makes its way into your big-ones
maybe even
a time or a two
the one who makes your heart race
or eyes water
i lay cocooned
waiting for something
waiting for you to notice me
but
you're lying right beside me
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 9:17 PM UTC
throw me away like a carton of bad eggs
and rip me off like the hanging thread on your sweater
I've melted too many times under the heat of your being
scrape me off the plate like i'm nothing
(except for maybe the really nice bits)
and toss me like yesterdays paper
eat me in the morning
and spit me back out at night
it doesn't matter
because like the girl at the bus stop on Tuesdays
like the man in search of the answers to todays puzzle
I will always be waiting
Jun 4, 2015
Jun 4, 2015 at 6:49 PM UTC
I've lived too many times
under the deep mahogany smoke of your breath
i've let it wiggle its way into me
in through each which way
my nose and ears and even some through my belly button
every hour of every day
I've danced under sprinkles of your batting eyelashes
inviting you to join
in dresses red and ******* grey and too often ******* off
through the presence of moon after moon
I've rolled and then melted in the blankets you lay
from everything i understand of you
to everything i never will
you wake me and rinse me in the morning
and fold and close me like a special book in the night
i will always swim home to you
May 28, 2015
May 28, 2015 at 12:24 AM UTC
i sit in my car
Waiting at the same red light as yesterday and probably tomorrow
and my chest actually hurts
feels churned over like butter
(though usually when i speak of butter it's in good light)
i'm in the jungle in the woods in the ocean but no matter what i'm me
that's a hard thing to realize
over and over again in the same moment
"hold onto something"
when my chest hurts so bad my heart has no room to live
the light finally turns
no more anticipating
I can finally breathe again
May 28, 2015
May 28, 2015 at 12:13 AM UTC
i want to wake up
in the tiny jar of sugar
back in the dusty corner
of a wooden cabinet
at a nice pizza place
i want to be added to a bowl of oats
when someone needs an extra spoonful
i want to taste sweet and just right
May 15, 2015
May 15, 2015 at 11:43 PM UTC