Im with someone who does not put fear in my heart
Instead he unleashes sunshine in the darkest storm
Makes sure my garden is properly watered & fed.
He makes the flower bed in my heart grow & grow
I may be naïve
For when I'm with him theres no place id rather be
One in the same
The only difference being our names;
You can't throw something this strong away.
It may feel like we have an impending doom;
Here is what I have to say to you:
I will be difficult, hard to love.
immature, irrational & all you can think of
but I'm here standing at your door step with my heart in my hand
willing, waiting, wanting to love you at your command
Sometimes I fear, that I might be to much;
I do have ugly parts that remain untouched.
Still Im here
Ready to love
Even though I know love will never be enough
Maybe if i give you my heart this time it will be
Ill revolve my whole world about you & me.
&
if you will
I promise to love you more than anyone has before
Ill follow you across the sea or
Let you fly away & wait for eternity
Its scary for me to write things, things
ill never muster the courage to say.
Somehow I look into those brown eyes,
you give me the world;
You hold me close,
without *********** we become one.
When there is, I'm satisfied
on
every
level.
If I didn't know any better id say you're the Devil
What is the devil?
An angel fallen from grace.
Ive never been anywhere near that heavenly state
Except for when I look in your eyes
Except for when i have you by my side.
When your not around, somehow i feel incomplete
Its like you bring out the best version of me.
Just know that the unknown is not something to fear.
Ill take your hand, be right by your side all the way.
If you look in my eyes I promise you'll see no lies
when i say:
everything's going to be alright.
Even if that means a future without me..
Ill let you fly, be free
no matter how much it may hurt
I want whats best for you.
You have my heart.
Dec 17, 2015
Dec 17, 2015 at 2:10 AM UTC
my pen is screaming at me to pick it up
i dont know to say what
there is nothing in my head but all the words that you've said and everything that ive recently done.
it makes me wonder who ive become
ive seen the hurt caused im no fool
the same thing he did to me, i did to you.
now im going back to sit in that chair
try not to cry, pull my hair and scream
just not care about any sense of control
thats what i lost, not me as a whole
but the control
its to late to go back now
to many things have been said
are we still going back to playing pretend?
i dont think thats what this is anymore
its something ill know for sure
if we can get through this then we can get through everything because ive done everything i can to push you away and in some how in your own twisted way
you still love me and stay
now we will see if these friends are right
we all have a piece of love to give at one point in time
its true when we said sould mates, never ever apart
each one of us holds another in our heart
we've all made and repaired to many scars
thats shaped us into the people we are
so with those little broken pieces of love
that we've only ever known
the causation being our homes
somehow between all these broken hearts and broken bones
we found each other and made our home
somehow by force of nature we are bound
all of our broken pieces of love fit together
changing how we it forever.
Aug 21, 2013
Aug 21, 2013 at 12:02 PM UTC
i paint beautiful pictures in my head
about how things could be if we were different
this is a world we're not meant to be
that is just going to have to be ok to me i guess
see the thing is, you're not like the rest
the comfortable silence we share
all those cliche things that tell me i'm in love
i know i'm not enough
maybe i am just being a fool
wanting you more than i should
you said yourself im your rock and this will never change
i think your being a fool to
of course things have changed
we went from being friends to lovers
in less than a months time
now everytime i see your face i cant help but think of our bodies being intertwined
your lips igniting everything in my body burning the butterflies to crisp
tell me you don't feel any of this?
just look me in the eyes and kiss me one more time
i crave your body near to whisper sweet nothings in my ear.
ive tried to get you out my system with other guys
its empty space in the sheets there is no heat
tell me when this began
how come sleeping with someone else doesn't feel nearly as good as kissing you?
still by daylight those kisses don't exist
look me in the eyes and say you don't love me
look me in the eyes and say its all in my head
and i promise to be the bestest friend you've ever had.
Jul 3, 2013
Jul 3, 2013 at 11:19 PM UTC
sitting on the ground slipping into insanity
you call over from the bed to come in your arms
contemplate for a second
then our fingers intertwine
lying down side by side
my mind is down the rabbit hole and you're a crazy fool
looking at you descending into madness the animal inside me can't help but
want you
Jul 2, 2013
Jul 2, 2013 at 7:22 PM UTC
Ocean's have gorges that sink far beneath the surface
when the wind blows
They shake
but never stop crashing on to the surface
beautiful and constantly inconstant
when there is a storm
they roar
grasping at the sturdy land
wearing it down with every breath
In the shallow waters I am pretty enough
you can admire the colors of the reef
how the fish play
dancing with the waves
one day when you want an adventure
I invite you to come under the sea
where the water is deeper
past were most people are willing to go
where there is nothing
just dark
to far down for the light to reach
where mysterious creatures thrive in
down in the depths of the ocean
where it is nothing but black and cold
the place where no human could possibly go
the place where i rest my soul
i am an ocean
dark
beautiful
i will hold up ships but slip through your finger tips
i am solid
but never quite whole
i am a mystery
i am nothing like what i appear to be
i am me
Mar 22, 2013
Mar 22, 2013 at 3:44 PM UTC
if i could try and put into words how much i miss you
its not just a word i use frequently
and yes ill "miss" my other friends
not even close to the same way that i miss you
your energy you bring
the intelligence of your presence
when your not around, you can never be replaced
i miss you
like your my home
i miss you
like you are my moon and sun
lighting my world
by day
by night
forever apart
forever by each others side
i miss you
like the summer in the middle of
winter
like the grass misses water
like the ocean misses waves
they will always kiss
but can never stay
i miss you
like a bird who lost their wings misses the sky
i miss you more than you will ever know
i miss the whole you
even the parts i dont like
the parts of you i drag home in the middle of the night
i miss you in your every state
sometimes i wish i would've stayed
Mar 19, 2013
Mar 19, 2013 at 2:12 AM UTC
Inscribe your words on my heart
Show me you never intend to part
Save me from my storm
Can I confess to you my dark side?
Sometimes I dream I was never born..
You’ve become more than a shoulder that bares my tears
You are my floor
When I can’t fall any further, when the air has escaped my lungs
You are my ocean
Sometimes the seas get ruff
Like the captain on a sinking ship, you’ll be here till the last minute
Jan 19, 2013
Jan 19, 2013 at 12:24 AM UTC
An million times I’ve replayed it this moment in my head
Picked apart trying to see when it began
The scream was piercing, it woke me from my sleep
But it seemed easy At the time,
One of laughter and fun
But I guess that was the last string of innocent remaining
Jolted by the shock of what was about to see next
The one who was there when my father left
The one who was there through the bullies, just you and me against the word.
Forever and always your little girl
You where the protector from all my childish fears
But now here you are convulsing on the stairs and I don’t know what to do.
Slow motion now, time comes to a stop
I’m frozen for what seems like eternity in that one spot
Grow up now
Call the ambulance
Grow up now
Save your sister from this terror
Grow up now
It’s not your time to breakdown
Call everyone
Tell them your world’s fallen apart
The guest in my house is now just another chore
Cook dinner
Take them through a city I don’t even know
Then fly them home
white walls and clean sheets is the only thing I come to know,
She forgets who I am
The memories forgotten, the only thing keeping our existence
40years of life was supposed to be a celebration
Turned out just a sad balloon with an auntie crying on my shoulder
Grow up now
Everything I knew is gone
Your eyes are lost
All the things we’ve seen, all the world’s we’ve explored
Her light was no longer lit
Her eyes are nothing, just an empty shell
Time never seemed to catch up
The hell in my heart never never seem to stop
Because when you came home, your eyes never did
The pain would not end
Our relationship we could not mend
The anger takes hold and I can’t seem to let the past go
It’s not your fault, it’s out of your control
But it’s out of mine to
My haunted future
Because I’m sitting here dwelling on this past
How long can this hell last
Dec 11, 2012
Dec 11, 2012 at 10:29 PM UTC
i cant focus my energy
these words dont seem to write
all i can say is that shouldn't have been the night
**** is a word i dont want to use
coerced and confused
i gave everything away to you.
**** is a word to powerful
it leaves women black and blue
still, i didn't want that to happen, especially not with you
i had a bad feeling right from the start
your eyes where cold
voice insincere
still i though i was with friends
so i drank that cup straight till the end
the only real part of the women i am was left on the bathroom floor
with parts of my guts in the toilet bowl
just helping me to bed
to you this meant helping yourself into my pants
yes i am guilty, i let it go far
whatever, does not count as consent
while violence may not have been a part of this attack
my mind is not the same
i need medication just to feel okay
just because you wanted to get off
anxiety now follows me like the plague
the terrors that awake me every night
that punch in the face doesn't seem like enough
who am i to make you pay?
i'm just some stupid ****
i still feel that disgust
its my fault, i drank to much
Dec 10, 2012
Dec 10, 2012 at 12:33 AM UTC
searching the depths of my my mind
for a word that can define
this emotion that’s taken everything away
It’s peculiar, and I’ve seem to haven fallen in love with the fact
That ill never get what it’s taken away back.
Searching, searching
Till only one word seems to fit
I don’t even know if it exists
Hopelessness
Is that the word for the haunting emptiness that keeps me up at night?
I don’t like it, something scary hides behind it
It feels as if it will consume me whole
Taking away myself as I’ve come to know
Dec 6, 2012
Dec 6, 2012 at 6:28 PM UTC