You were my first, and I thought the universe was planned for us. But, you made other ones, your attention was already reserved. And that controlled where we went from there."
But, no one can say we didn't have the stars aligned while it lasted.
I wish the best for you in all you do, and hope you find what's right as you reach the top again.
Good days, my old friend.
This is a letter for you...
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 1:03 PM UTC
I tried loving you better. But, it just wasn't enough.
Jan 12, 2019
Jan 12, 2019 at 10:07 PM UTC
It feels as if he's not true to me.
I know the time we spend,
it's rough towards the end.
And, it breaks me
as he grows tired of my company.
It feels as if he doesn't really love me.
He seems as if he tried to pretend,
and only pretend,
as if he cares.
But, it's just too easy
for him to be sidetracked when I'm hurting.
It's just too easy for him to blow it off.
And, I understand I'm a sensitive soul.
I'm emotional;
Far too often do I break.
But, if he really wanted me;
And, if he really needed me;
If he really cared like he said he does.
If I really was his everything,
and the best thing to happen to him;
the most beautiful thing in his eyes,
this wouldn't feel like it does.
It feels as if he doesn't really love me.
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 11:08 PM UTC
I took the crown off my head
To make myself more approachable
To you
And in doing so
Forgot that I ever owned one
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 11:08 PM UTC
Cold as a winter no earth has ever touched;
Could freeze over every hell between birth and after death.
Life is not like the way you sleep at night;
Can't ever rest your troubled mind.
Cold as a headstone, dies deep under your flesh;
sinks into the muscle you have left.
No strength and no gain;
Can't wait till your last breath.
Hung with barbed wire around your neck,
it's all just a nightmare you can't take back.
It's all destroyed a dream you can't have back.
At night,
I only dream of death.
Cold when I'm alone,
my soul has left.
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 6:59 PM UTC
Your voice,
Your touch,
Your smell;
it all means so much to me.
So many years I've spent,
wasted,
looking for you;
but you always make them up to me.
It's been so long since my world has spun,
now it's turned around.
The love of you is my favorite sound.
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 1:45 PM UTC
My heart had no home,
yet I saved it.
Let it roam,
instead of finding it a place to rest.
Never, would I have guessed,
that this heart,
it beat true.
And, only,
it stayed restless and not homed,
because it was waiting...
just for you.
This heart is
just for you.
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 1:22 PM UTC
She said, "Don't look at me,"
changing her clothes by the bed.
"I'm fat, and I look bad."
I said, "My girl, it's all in your head.
I'd rather just have you as instead.
There's no best,
no perfect,
but you'd be the closest to deserve it."
Need something to hold onto,
need a body to look at.
Don't want to see your thighs,
since you can't look through.
But, I want something for my hands to hold,
I need something to grab on tightly to.
You don't need clear skin,
because I want to know you're human.
Even a heart stretches and leaves marks.
Everybody's heart is scared.
It's cool because that's beautiful, too.
Oh, no, I don't like it.
I don't like
Skinny Genes.
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 11:01 AM UTC
Have I done good things in this life?
Have I fought enough to show other people how to fight?
What will be my legacy?
What does purpose look like for me?
When will my time for a change to be good come?
Trust me, you won't see it in the morning sun.
Don't ask tomorrow,
the day will come.
Dec 11, 2018
Dec 11, 2018 at 2:00 PM UTC
I cry when I think of him,
I cry when I don’t.
So much feels missing without him,
so much falls into place with him.
I cry when I think about him,
because so much is so right.
With his image in my head,
so much is put into sight.
So much hurts so badly,
when I picture myself without.
So, whenever I need some peace,
I cry thinking of him.
Dec 10, 2018
Dec 10, 2018 at 10:19 AM UTC