ax12x - Hello Poetry

unspoken words, years of silence it is time to spread my wings to embrace; i am transgender

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ax12x

Mar 27, 2018

Mar 27, 2018 at 11:25 AM UTC

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coming out

unspoken words, years of silence it is time to spread my wings to embrace; i am transgender

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I feel trapped. My hands shake as I wash them over and over The freezing water drips from my fingers I have to be clean I flinch away. My friend backs off, her eyes wide I don't like the contact, it scares me I must not get touched by germs I'm tired and awake. The stars outside my window are bright I can't sleep because of them I need darkness I'm terrified. I've been told I hoard things Apparently, I need to get rid of my things I can't lose anything I want everything to end. But I can't do anything I want to end myself but I can't I don't know what to do Obsessive. Compulsive. Disorder. I need help.

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Feb 16, 2018

Feb 16, 2018 at 11:44 AM UTC

ax12x

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

I feel trapped. My hands shake as I wash them over and over The freezing water drips from my fingers I have to be clean I flinch away. My friend backs off, her eyes wide I don't like the contact, it scares me I must not get touched by germs I'm tired and awake. The stars outside my window are bright I can't sleep because of them I need darkness I'm terrified. I've been told I hoard things Apparently, I need to get rid of my things I can't lose anything I want everything to end. But I can't do anything I want to end myself but I can't I don't know what to do Obsessive. Compulsive. Disorder. I need help.

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So what if I'm different Maybe I like girls and boys Yeah, I'm Bi, is that a crime? So what if I'm strange "Kid shows" bring me joy In the end, it's just pixels on a screen So what if I'm annoying I'm just being myself It's better than being someone you're not So what if I'm awkward People just don't understand me I don't understand them either, so your point is? So what if I'm ugly It doesn't matter My looks don't define me, neither should yours So what if I'm still a child I have feelings too you know I can understand some things adults will never know These are the questions I will always ask Because the diversity of the human race is great! It doesn't matter who you are under the mask Human is whatever, black or straight If anyone has a problem with it, Are you gonna run crying, back to your cot? Or will you give them a smile and say; "So what?"

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Feb 16, 2018

Feb 16, 2018 at 9:34 AM UTC

ax12x

So What?

So what if I'm different Maybe I like girls and boys Yeah, I'm Bi, is that a crime? So what if I'm strange "Kid shows" bring me joy In the end, it's just pixels on a screen So what if I'm annoying I'm just being myself It's better than being someone you're not So what if I'm awkward People just don't understand me I don't understand them either, so your point is? So what if I'm ugly It doesn't matter My looks don't define me, neither should yours So what if I'm still a child I have feelings too you know I can understand some things adults will never know These are the questions I will always ask Because the diversity of the human race is great! It doesn't matter who you are under the mask Human is whatever, black or straight If anyone has a problem with it, Are you gonna run crying, back to your cot? Or will you give them a smile and say; "So what?"

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I remember the moment this all started I had fallen in love, but with whom I did not know who The scratches in my throat, my lips parted The first blue petal fell, and I knew It was the curse of one-sided love, the Hanahaki disease Then after a while, I found out it was him But he was the one I could never please I gave up knowing my untimely demise would be grim Yet I didn’t blame him for my death to come I couldn’t be angry at him for me falling in love I was mad at myself for being so dumb It wasn’t his fault that when I saw him my heart soared above When I choked on the last black rose, his face was in my mind Little did I know he loved me, I was just too blind.

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Dec 31, 2017

Dec 31, 2017 at 6:42 PM UTC

ax12x

Hanahaki

I remember the moment this all started I had fallen in love, but with whom I did not know who The scratches in my throat, my lips parted The first blue petal fell, and I knew It was the curse of one-sided love, the Hanahaki disease Then after a while, I found out it was him But he was the one I could never please I gave up knowing my untimely demise would be grim Yet I didn’t blame him for my death to come I couldn’t be angry at him for me falling in love I was mad at myself for being so dumb It wasn’t his fault that when I saw him my heart soared above When I choked on the last black rose, his face was in my mind Little did I know he loved me, I was just too blind.

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(You read it from top to bottom and bottom to top) When we all have to live in it The world is a bad place So don't tell me Right from wrong Not everyone knows The right thing There is no such thing as People who are both good and bad But there are People who are full of hatred There may be People who trick and deceive you Unfortunately, there's Only negativity It is not Okay to cry The strongest find it is Best to hide your emotions It is not Fine.

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Dec 31, 2017

Dec 31, 2017 at 6:38 PM UTC

ax12x

The World is (not) a Bad Place

(You read it from top to bottom and bottom to top) When we all have to live in it The world is a bad place So don't tell me Right from wrong Not everyone knows The right thing There is no such thing as People who are both good and bad But there are People who are full of hatred There may be People who trick and deceive you Unfortunately, there's Only negativity It is not Okay to cry The strongest find it is Best to hide your emotions It is not Fine.

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