"are you okay?"
i blink.
i remember.
"yes sorry"
i look around, at my friends.
i remember i am here, not there.
May 13, 2025
May 13, 2025 at 4:13 PM UTC
the neighbour's phone rings next door,
the walls are so thin I can hear her answer.
my phone dings,
but my room still remains silent.
i should answer,
greet with the same answer I just heard.
but i don't move.
rare silence, contained only within my walls.
its not real silence, there is noise around me.
but not within.
so i lie still, waiting for that silence inside me to break.
then can i make noise?
May 13, 2025
May 13, 2025 at 4:11 PM UTC
red bleeds
blue spills
black tangles
red for heart
blue for tears
black for thought
May 12, 2025
May 12, 2025 at 3:40 PM UTC
daddy's little girl.
who's hand you always held.
who's hair you always did.
who's name you always shouted.
who's fault was it.
when we stopped being friends?
when we started hating each other.
i hate you for the making me keep the family together.
i hate you for choosing yourself over me.
i hate you for leaving my corner.
all my hate, still doesn't equal my love for you.
i still wish you would think about me.
am I still your little girl?
May 12, 2025
May 12, 2025 at 3:36 PM UTC
no thats not me.
i like to drink.
i like to club.
i like to have fun.
it was me?
i sneer at those who do, influenced by the one that doesn't.
do you like me now? now that that's not me?
May 12, 2025
May 12, 2025 at 2:54 PM UTC
i did it.
being done means a lot.
so why does it never feel finished?
May 12, 2025
May 12, 2025 at 2:50 PM UTC
Looking outside the window at tree, it sways gently
There is something soothing about it’s rocking motion.
Peaceful, it doesn’t worry.
Something slips through the cracks, as if the rocking breaks the mould.
The force in which some words come out, the spasm in an eye.
A head dips when praised, to hide the pressing of their lips.
Why must it feel this way?
Can one not rock just enough, never always ‘too much’.
Seizing forward with the rocks, grabbing onto threads to try stablise.
May 12, 2025
May 12, 2025 at 2:48 PM UTC
black scribbles, badly drawn surround me.
peeping holes through them.
i watch what could have been.
yet when i reach through to achieve my fantasy,
the lines latch on and are not what they seem.
i had hurt myself, watering the thorns with my fallen dreams.
thorns created by me.
Dec 23, 2021
Dec 23, 2021 at 3:07 PM UTC
"why didn't you say anything?"
i didn't know how to admit it.
admit i was naive, dumb, selfish.
how could i have not seen,
that when he called me little girl
it wasn't a promise to protect me from the big bad world,
rather the fact that he liked them little.
Dec 23, 2021
Dec 23, 2021 at 3:03 PM UTC
I am an incredible kind and generous human being that cared about you so much. I have put up with so much degradation and rudeness from you that you excuse because of your sadness. I put up with pressuring to do stuff I was unsure about, I put up with everything you threw at me.
And I am a mistake?
Sep 27, 2021
Sep 27, 2021 at 9:26 AM UTC