Forever
Isn’t as long as I had hoped
I lost you
I lost them
I sat around and moped
It was a promise
Promises are meant to be kept
This one broke
And I wept
Not wanting to hurt
But I owed so much pain
Like debt
Debt for a broken heart
Debt for being
Ripped apart
This pain was different
I felt so betrayed
I was left
With
Nothing
No one
Like an empty tray
I tried talking to you
Playing it cool
But you know how I felt
After you used me like a tool
Tools are helpful
But you only use them
When you need them
That’s when you choose ‘em
I cried for you
Heck if felt like I died for you
But all of that doesn’t matter
My feelings for you
Are gone
They splattered
Right now though it feels like
Nothing
No one
Will ever matter
Ever hah
Remember that
I try not to
I don’t like to bring up the past
I won’t be hurt for to long
Forever never lasts
Oct 18, 2018
Oct 18, 2018 at 11:07 PM UTC
Why Am I me
You see
When I was three
It was okay to run all over
living lovely
But now I’m much older
And it is becoming much harder to just be three
To just be me
You see
You can not run all over like you did before
Now you focus on important things and do a lot more.
It’s not like when you were three
You live
Not so happily
There’s people to please
Nerves to ease
Places to go
Places to see
But it’s not that easy
It’s complex and hard
You do it all alone
You start to miss home
So you go and see your family
Buts it’s not how it was
Not even when you were three
Everything little things changed
It’s definitely not what it used to be
You see
You used to come home
To mom and dad
You use to do home work
Or go on the iPad
But now you come home
Drop your keys
Go on your phone
Isolated from the world
At home
All alone
But i guess that is the world we live in
For this century
We chop down trees
We extinct bees
We’ve got better things to do than living lovely
But you miss
Your family
Your friends
But everything eventually comes to an end
You see
Living this life
These days
Isn’t as great as being three
Is different, difficult and not always taken with ease.
It’s becoming a hard game your not used to playing
You see
There’s no teammates
No players
No opposing side
It’s you against the world and it’s going to be a long ride
Oct 13, 2018
Oct 13, 2018 at 8:57 PM UTC