I think I saw it coming
I felt the coldness arrive
The moments were changing
I saw it in your eyes
Minutes pass and fade
Leaving a trail of dust
The pictures in the frames
Remind me of enough
I was your fleeting fancy
She is your forever love
Tangible and infinite
Never meant for us
I can't help but feel
That you're on the highest cliff
And you'll lose within the arms
Of that person you love so much
But only time can tell
Summers and winters will pass
I still pray for changing moments
This burning pain can't last.
Feb 29, 2012
Feb 29, 2012 at 9:12 PM UTC
When we awoke
the sun found it's way
to the hardwood floors
covered in clothes
and wine glasses from the night before.
The fall chill making covers safe.
When we walked outside
red birds flew around us
pulling us to the creek
where we tossed rocks out
and imagined them hitting the sea.
And at night we laughed
at old gray films
And found eager, loving grins
the moon brightened night skies
as winds rustled the fallen leaves.
May I be the light of your day
The light reflecting on broken glass
on the bottom of that creek's bed shining on your lovely face
May I be the lingering kiss
On your lovely pale forehead
The first and last kiss on your lips
And echoes of our mountain trips,
We awake together every morning
Putting on dresses and suits with ties
and look forward to being the light of your day.
Remembering the time we awoke
with the sun finding its way
Distorting light through
The clean white window panes.
May I be the light of your day.
Feb 29, 2012
Feb 29, 2012 at 9:06 PM UTC
I wish we understood the importance of our time
Because once wasted, it's a permanent goodbye.
And in the blink of an eye, that baby is grown;
That brand new building is a crumbling edifice.
And in a single moment there is so much to say
But we waste is away on what ifs and sighs
Because we don't see that we could have something great.
We fear rejection or failure and procrastinate.
As our mothers get older, their backs begin to bend
Under the stress of watching us live in our sins
Because we still fail to realize that she is watching
And that her heart is continually pounding.
Our fathers stay in dismay at our reckless abandon,
Wishing we understood that the clock is tickin'.
He envies the time when he didn't give a ****
And meanwhile, we scorn his old gray head.
It's not until we've wasted precious time
That we realize the truths in their chiding
And we're off getting married or still idling.
No one really cares what the hell we do
But if they did, we'd probably just say **** you"
So soon though, we look in the mirror and see
Our reflection has been altered , how? A mystery.
Because when we are here, time is this luxury.
But those adults over there can't buy it so they envy.
All too soon we are the envious with the hearts pounding
And sitting there thinking, "Time's a wastin'."
Feb 29, 2012
Feb 29, 2012 at 8:56 PM UTC
I love you my dear
Can't you tell by the things I say?
The way I smile just seeing your face?
You're good for me and I love what you do
And how the best of you highlights the good in me too
Things can't always be sunshine
Sometimes things will feel like rain
But with you, there's an umbrella
And a place to escape the pain.
You're a God-sent blessing to me
With you I am full of ecstasy
Nothing compares to your smile
Or the kisses you give me so freely
You've got me wrapped around your finger
Funny how you think it's the other way around
In reality, I'm just amazed that you're here,
That you love me is enough to erase any frown.
I don't always say and do the best things
And I know I can be frustrating
I know you tire of my games
Demanding you give me what I want
But I worry when things aren't how I plan
Even when I drive you insane
Please remember that you mean the world to me
It scares me when you call me perfection
That's not what I see the mirror reflecting
But when you say you love me
Things that are scary go away
You take the worst parts of me
And you love me anyway.
We're both really young
With a lot we must learn
We will probably make a few stupid turns
But I'd rather hold on than say goodbye
You're the one who never makes me cry.
Feb 29, 2012
Feb 29, 2012 at 8:47 PM UTC
One year older,
One year wiser.
I long ago learned,
It doesn't pay to be bitter.
Too young to be so hurt,
Not old enough to know better.
But I'm smart enough to know
It never pays to be a quitter.
People will come,
While others will go.
Life is dealing with both.
It doesn't pay to be bitter.
Feb 29, 2012
Feb 29, 2012 at 8:39 PM UTC
Can you take me to the stars above?
Bring me down some stardust?
Kiss me like the world's gonna end
Hold me like a hurricane's coming.
Because I lean on you when I'm too weak
And I need you more than you need me
And if I honestly had to tell the truth
I could never explain how much I need you
And if darkness covers this soul of mine
I hope your light continues to shine
Because beautiful lights are the best gift
God can give,
And your light's better than the dark where I live
So promise me your best, but don't give me all
Save some for yourself in case we begin to fall
God makes beautiful things to last
And if that's true, you're here for times long past
The times I'll roam this earth
Beauty remains where others lack worth
“Star’s Dust” Analysis
When writing “Star’s Dust”, I was trying to capture the moment when you realize exactly how much a person means to you. The feeling that a certain person can give you more, just by being in your life, than any other person in the world is irreplaceable to me and I wanted to capture that feeling. I wrote this poem when I was thinking of someone I could not imagine losing because that person is so important in the foundations of my life. Every time I see that person’s smile, Rusten’s smile, it’s like they just brought me a little bit of star dust.
The usage of star dust is an allusion to Peter and the Star Catchers by Barry and Pearson, a story I read in middle school that is an interesting telling of the well known fairytale, Peter Pan. In the story, when a shooting star hits earth, a group of people is responsible for finding the star and collecting its dust because the dust gives the ability to fly when touched. So the allusion to star dust is my way of saying that Rusten’s smile makes me feel like I’m flying.
The first stanza is mostly focused on wanting him to stay with me. The world ending and “hurricanes coming” are both events where you cling to the person you love with no intention of ever letting go. They are both events where every second you’re still alive is precious and you have to make the most of those few precious seconds. I wanted to make it very clear that I don’t want to waste one second of my life with him not there.
The second stanza is a confession of fear. My worst fear is that I’m going to end up alone. The speaker of the poem voices this fear by explaining how she relies on that person and states her belief that she needs him more than he needs her so it would be easier for him to leave her.
The third stanza is a bit of my past coming in to play. For the majority of my junior year I was a very dark, cynical person because of some things that changed my view on the world. Looking back, I realize it was very hard for him to cope with me being so negative and full of darkness and gloom. So the third stanza is really dedicated to telling him that I don’t want his happiness to be lessened everytime I’m unhappy because his happiness is a light that kept me trying when I really wanted to give up.
Lastly, the fourth stanza was a kind of resolve in my mind. I realize that we are human, that we will both mistakes and that somewhere along the way, we might lose each other. The speaker says, “So promise me your best, but don't give me all/ Save some for yourself in case we begin to fall” because I believed it very important that he know that neither of us, despite how happy we might be together, should invest our entire selves into each other. Because we are human and we might not always have each other, I think it a mistake to base everything we are off of each other.
The last four lines are a bit of my self deprecating attitude because I think he is so much better than I am. The main purpose of the last lines was to convey that emotion. The last line, “Beauty remains where others lack worth” is a truth I’ve seen in life. After a destructive wildfire, the trees, grass and flowers can still come back. That’s how life is too. Bad things come but they don’t last because the beauty in life always wins. I’ve always thought Rusten was better than me, so I decided a long time ago that in the end, he will end up in a much happier place than me because it’s what he deserves.
Feb 29, 2012
Feb 29, 2012 at 4:48 PM UTC