I will always come second.
I'll never be as important
as your career, a television, that bottle
Can I live like this for the rest of my life?
Jan 25, 2017
Jan 25, 2017 at 8:59 PM UTC
I am crippled every single day
At the thought that you will leave me
Nov 1, 2015
Nov 1, 2015 at 10:51 PM UTC
At the end of the day
It really comes down to
Trying to not hate yourself
Jun 19, 2015
Jun 19, 2015 at 2:46 AM UTC
That night
when I found
Another girl's
Hair barrette
in Your bed
And I pretended to believe you
When you said that it wasn't someone else's
How could it be?
You're being crazy.
Who else's would it be?
Was the night that I thought
I would never look back
And here I am
Just like that
May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 8:32 PM UTC
You know that feeling
When you wake up
In the morning
And for a few seconds
Everything is fine
And normal
And okay
And then you remember
That four days ago
He broke your heart
And now you choke
Just enough to make you
Lose your breath
And you have to feel this way
Until tomorrow morning
When you wake up
And for a few seconds
Everything is fine
And normal
And okay
Until it's not
Mar 23, 2015
Mar 23, 2015 at 9:25 AM UTC
One dimensional
That's a good phrase for what we are
We tease, we play, sometimes we talk
Mostly we lust
And that's it
I have grown accustomed to your body
Your pale shoulder blades
and the light that shines through
your bedroom window
illuminating your body
The way you say my name
like no other man
has ever said my name
The compliments you give me
on my small waist,
my *******
my hair,
my eyes,
my laugh
Our relationship has become
safe, standard
But the other night
You kissed my neck
Normal
You kissed my mouth
Normal
You told me you cared
Not so normal
This is not our usual rapport
Instead of replying
with any semblance of concern
I unbottoned your shirt
And as I kissed the soft skin
Of your hips
Your belly
Your chest
I heard something novel
It was your heartbeat,
so excited to be near me --
It was so intimate,
I almost withdrew
But I only held you tighter
When I sat on the edge of your mattress
Fighting sleep
While you laid behind me, eyes closed
You traced the outline of my spine
Your touch so gentle
It sent shivers through my body
I kissed you
Not out of lust
But because
you made me so happy that night
Today I saw you on the street.
You looked right through me.
I had the option of reaching out
And I didn't
I won't put the blame on you
But it left me so conflicted
How am I supposed to express my feelings
genuine, real feelings
when I can't even find the nerve
to say hello
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 1:55 PM UTC