*Every one drawn with care
Fingers laboriously gripping pen
Every etch made under an intense stare
Pen meticulously scratching paper
Every one is an emotion laid bare
Paper carefully folded and kept
A secretive smile flitting across my lips*
May 4, 2017
May 4, 2017 at 10:15 AM UTC
*These moments, so fleeting
Deep breaths that I can finally take
The peace, so rare
A time that I can quit thinking of what's at stake
**This peace, seemingly imaginary
An illusion created in solitary
Yet the fire ignited, so fierce
A proof of a wonderful reality**
I inch trembling fingers into the blaze
Flames licking my fingers, carressing each knuckle
Skin popping and blistering but yet
I defiantly hold the fire's gaze
**This flame, had me create a belief
That many things are not what they seem
It may seem silent
But a furious war is blazing**
Breaths caught in my throat
Air trying to crawl out from my lungs
A step back, another
In search of the peace, that melodious song
**And night falls...
So we fall asleep, tenderly...
When the sun rises again...
...Those moments and flames await***
*Astraea
rinnette*
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 9:36 AM UTC
**It's like being a child again
Doodling hearts and
Writing the name of that boy in your textbooks
Or the name of that cute actor from that TV show you really like**
*Like living in a city
With lights near and far
Looking up into the sky
Barely able to spot a star*
When I look into your eyes
I feel myself stop breathing
The intensity, diving into the pools of thought
It's almost hard to keep gazing
Leaning against you, it's like being home
Your arms encircle, and I'm close
I'm untouchable, safe and sound
My comfort cloud at the ends of a million rainbows
I can almost feel your warm embrace
Like a phantom limb I yearn
But it's just not there, unsubstantial
An ache I can't discern
Stray thoughts keep flitting by
Little bubbles I have to pop, can't resist
Pop! There's that smile! Pop! And a laugh!
Oh and that makes your eyes crinkle adorably I must insist
Uncertainty had been warring
On the battlefields of my mind
The throne's been seized, a side has won
I know for sure, this is what's mine
*Like living in a country
With summer all year round
Getting ready for Christmas and looking out to see
Not a single flake of snow on the ground*
**It's like being grown up, but there's still that little girl
That wants to see his name doodled all over
So she writes about him in a journal
And his name is there, everywhere, hidden amongst the sentences**
Dec 24, 2016
Dec 24, 2016 at 2:06 PM UTC
*What is this feeling
Deep inside myself
A little something stirring
Awakening afresh
What is this sensation
Smile dancing upon the lips
Forcing my mind into concentration
Distracted, off wandering
What is this sentiment
The little things that matter
Deeply-buried excitement
Almost bursting forth
What are these butterflies
Flitting about
A dance amongst the lilies
Everytime he smiles
What are these flushes
A shy dip of the head
Hair swinging forth to hide the blush
I never know what to say
What is this
I've never had before
Little bubbles of joy
It's time for us to explore*
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Nov 6, 2016
Nov 6, 2016 at 10:57 AM UTC
It will always hurt,
the pain will never go away.
But.
Knowing what is known now,
Knowing the hope given for the future,
replaces some of the hurt, with hope.
Memories are never to be forgotten,
yet the past is the past.
Dwelling on what can't be changed,
hinders the continuation of life.
Picking up the baggage will take some time.
Moving on all together will still be the hardest thing to accomplish.
But when the final bag is put on the truck,
and all that has to be done is to drive away,
I will smile, reach over to the dial, and turn on the car radio.
As I pull out of the driveway, the radio will be at its highest,
because looking back, I'll be able to say,
That the music had never faded away.
Oct 25, 2016
Oct 25, 2016 at 5:12 AM UTC
*Cool metal
Invitingly
Teasingly
********* my cheek
Serrated edge
Gleaming
Grinning
Eager for an ugly scar
Pointed tip
Gliding
Slicing
Gashing open chambers of thought
Tender flesh
Cleaved
Carved
Away goes all that once was
Warm memoirs
Digging
Cutting
Out all the used-to-bes*
Lips
Curling
Screaming
......
Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 10:59 PM UTC
*Yearning badly to take away your pain
Eagerly willing to help you contain
The look I saw I couldn't unsee
A beast inside I wanted to set free
A plea to the Universe for me to take
Away the hurt I wanted you to forsake
"Why not share with me instead?
Let me shoulder some" I had said
The Universe must have a sick sense of humour
Or else Its hearing must have been a late bloomer
For your notched arrow made its way into me
Burying between my ribs, straight for the heart
I never dreamed it would come from you
The bearable ache now a lightning bolt
Journeys meant to be tranquil and thoughtless
Now swarming with trepidation and sickening jolts
My mind's vessel is sinking from coherent thought
My heart's chambers are pumping uncertainty throughout
My stomach's depths are churning with fear and doubt
I am struggling for outward impassiveness...
I'm sorry, I've tried my best
But it clearly wasn't enough
I haven't done a thing right
I fear that much to be true
This time it's clear
I have to give up
I wish to keep trying but
I need to save myself*
Aug 2, 2016
Aug 2, 2016 at 12:30 PM UTC
*Creeping feeling of dread
Crawling its way up my spine
Tears uncontrollable
The dam of my eyes broken down
Time is of the essence
Time is key
Every chance I get I seize
To roll a dice against time
My control wavers
Badly needed
So desperately craving
A raw hollowness inside
I chance another gamble
Time slips my grasp
I withdraw my bet
Let's not push my luck
I plead silently with time
To give me what I want
I need this time*
Aug 2, 2016
Aug 2, 2016 at 12:10 PM UTC
***I stand here
One of many
You'd think I'd realize
I barely noticed any
I stand here
Where there's others
I'm just one
There'll always be another
I stand here
Full of stories to mention
But there's going to be
Someone else's tale of epic proportion
I stand here
Amidst the buzz
Rushing back and forth
Tending to life's fuss
I stand here
On a space so tiny
With herds of other identities
Filling Earth's every nook and cranny
I stand here
I'm just one
But I'll make that one
Stand out to me***
Jul 25, 2016
Jul 25, 2016 at 4:39 AM UTC