we were always somewhere in the middle.
never really ready to cross the line, because we both knew
we were not meant to be together.
but never really backing away from it either,
because we always found our way back again.
it's grey,
never truly black or white.
i couldn't even name our colors.
we are tangled, yet we keep clinging to each other.
we dance around the puddle of our mistakes,
and it feels oddly intoxicating.
you're a poison in my life,
but i need you like you're my antidote.
Dec 23, 2025
Dec 23, 2025 at 9:02 AM UTC
Tonight I came to a realization.
That each one of us is broken.
And to portray:
Possibly our life is like an incomplete puzzle.
If we are fortunate, we might find our missing pieces and make us whole.
Till we discover our missing pieces,
We will try to fill the void.
Searching for something that will make us feel less lonely.
Aren't we all lonely?
Nov 17, 2021
Nov 17, 2021 at 2:06 PM UTC
every time she look back over her shoulder,
it's always the ghost of him that follows.
Nov 17, 2019
Nov 17, 2019 at 1:14 PM UTC
Rindu ini terlalu besar,
kadang memberontak, tak tertahan.
Aku berusaha,
aku yakin aku sungguh berusaha.
Namun hingga kini,
suara tawamu masih mengalun merdu
di telingaku.
Bayangmu mengikuti hariku,
Selalu, tanpa jeda.
Melupakanmu merupakan hal yang rumit.
Memori indah terselubung dibalik kata benci.
Jun 24, 2019
Jun 24, 2019 at 4:36 AM UTC
Senyummu, tersimpan manis di benakku.
Tatapmu, terkenang indah di pikiranku.
Gerikmu, terbayang di memoriku.
Tetapi,
Hatikku, kosong tersimpan di ragamu.
Perasaanku, terbawa oleh sosokmu.
Memoriku, hanya kamu.
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 1:43 AM UTC
It's not the breakup that hurts.
It's the fact that he is no longer there to fill your days make it hurts.
You are no longer waking up to the sound of him sleeping soundly next to you.
He will not be there to comfort you when you need shoulder to cry on.
You will never feel the touch of his warm arms when he cuddled you close.
His goofy smile faded as he walked out of your room, without turning his head back.
Maybe this is why we said love is an idea.
I loved him, just because he is always there when I need someone to lean on.
Now I have learned,
Sometimes we just want someone in our lives,
Even if it is not the right fit.
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 3:08 AM UTC
They used to spend their time at IKEA every time they were together.
She remembered pointing her finger at one of the couches.
She said she wanted to buy it and put it in their room.
She couldn’t erase the memory of his smile after she said that.
They were too in love.
They started to make believe, holding on to what ifs.
As they passed by one of the garden swings,
he stopped and grabbed her hand.
"One day I'll build a garden behind our house.
I know you love swings. I’ll plant some trees.
We can spend our time there.
I know you'll love it
and I will too."
She could hear the excitement in his voice.
She hugged him nonchalantly,
a big grin plastered across her face.
A year passed.
She was scrolling through her Instagram
when she saw it,
the swing they had always wanted,
a tree planted right beside it,
and another girl sitting next to him.
Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 8:20 AM UTC
That night, he pulled her body into his warm embrace. She closed her eyes as she inhaled his scent with all might.
She lifted her head and looked right into his eyes. She wondered, if he still look at her the same way, like when they first met.
“Do you think this is working out?” She finally asked him with fear in her heart she waited for his response.
He sighed. “I’d like to try, do you think this is going to work out?” He asked her back but she saw doubt in his eyes.
She smiled and nodded. But she knew, forever is never written in their story.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 12:06 AM UTC
How can I fall asleep
when every voice in my head
sounds like your laughter?
How can I fall asleep
when every image in my mind
is a picture of you?
How can I fall asleep
when my skin still longs for your touch,
yet you are no longer there
to hold me?
"Please stay. Don’t leave.
You're not going anywhere."
My heart is screaming,
but you are too far away to hear it.
How can I fall in love
when the person I want
is not you?
Dec 13, 2016
Dec 13, 2016 at 1:39 AM UTC
She stared silently upon his visage,
and when those mesmerizing eyes of his finally met her gaze.
She was stunned and a flush slowly swept across her cheeks
causing her to look down to hide her blushing cheeks.
As she looked down with her eyes stared into the lit cigarette between his fingers.
She bethought to herself,
Everyone has their own addictions,
He's addicted to cigarette and alcohol.
Whilst she has him.
Oct 24, 2016
Oct 24, 2016 at 12:10 PM UTC