You may have torn me apart
Undressed me
For all your pleasure
Sang me a lullaby
To get your way
You are a devil in disguise.
Spewing lies as a natural language
The language of deceitful, cunning lies
The hell you put inside of me
I want out
But you don’t have the key do you
I’m trapped within myself
So you’re not the devil are you?
But the devils help.
The only devil lives with me,
Everyday. And you don’t even know.
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 4:53 PM UTC
*Sometimes..
You may feel this way
Times are bad
Life is no good
It hurts a lot
I do not understand
Why it should
The pain is deep
It does not go away
Throbbing on and on
Feels like it is here
Forever to stay
Remember this
Bad times like dark clouds
Can never stay
The wind
Will always
Blow them away
Bad times like dark clouds
Can never stay
The wind
Will always
Blow them away*
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 4:52 PM UTC
I believed a life of solitude would suit me
and mostly it has suited me a treat
but when my tongue is bitten raw
in the company of others
I feel so ******* lonely
I could weep
.
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 4:45 PM UTC
I am brittle, not broken.
I am fragile, yet stronger than any part of me that ever begged for mercy from the sweet darkness that inhabits my silent hours.
My diagnosis will not define me. It is but a drop in the oceans of love that swell and ebb behind my vacant stare.
My mind may be tainted, it will often descend into darkness but it ascends to the light with such glorious grace that I am grateful for the duality.
I sometimes hold on too tightly as I quake amongst dreams of letting go. White knuckles and curled fingers cling to the void that becomes my existence as my dark companion enters without pause or invitation and dances through my day with numbing ease.
Today I will refuse to follow.
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 4:45 PM UTC
He wasn't about to know what surpassed
when he bit my neck and squeezed my ***
I wasn't about to fall victim again
under rough hands of a hungry man
I did that before, whispering about love
the very first time I merged with someone
He took what he wanted and left for good
leaving me broken and misunderstood
**** and ***** were tossed about
and as my armor thickened so did my heart
This time I'll be taking whatever I need
and protecting my one unfuckable piece
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 4:40 PM UTC
Two bottles of wine
and a couple stumbles down the hall
I hugged your pillows
while you swallowed my drunken haze.
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 4:26 PM UTC
It's one night
of lust
adultery
and raw ***
In the end
God will judge us
but right now
I want a taste.
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 4:23 PM UTC
Why must desires be *****
Just because I like it raw and real
doesn't make it unclean.
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 4:21 PM UTC