How did I scream so carelessly....
Not caring who heard?
How did I, pound and pound without
Caring about what
People thought.
As the words and thoughts came endlessly
Seemed so easily said.
The razor came closer and closer my skin
As thin as paper.
Blood came dripping down as I couldn't have
Possibly cared less.
How did I, cut so deep without the slightest
Feeling of numbness?
The emotions are draining... The world is turning
Black, that's all that's left.
I have scars... But each and every one
Tells a unique story </3
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:46 AM UTC
It's different every day with you
It's always changing
I'm always hiding
I have to adjust with your mood
Just to stay sane, you've ruined everything.
My whole life
Turned upside down forever.
You've taken everything.
From perfect to hectic all in one day....
The things I loved the most
But I still have those perfect memories
That you can never take
I thought you were perfect.
Then I believed all the lies....
Our "relationship" was based on
Nothing but lies.
I don't know if I can handle the truth
I know the people that care
And you aren't one of them.
I have a surprise for you.. And you'll love it
Your gonna get caught off guard
You might think I need you
But I don't... I never will
I can survive without you
Sooner or later
I'm gone.
Gone for good.
But before I leave forever I have one question....
I have wanted to know
From the beginning
Why are you doing this to me...?
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:42 AM UTC
Now he's gone, and gone forever...
Can't say goodbye
Not tomorrow not ever.
You were always a great friend
But happiness came to an end
My heart is full of fear.
I look in the mirror and see a tear
I cry myself to sleep at night
When I go to school I shake in fright
All I want to do is be with you
To let you know, I do care for you
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:35 AM UTC
Your blue eyes are as beautiful as can be. Your lips, gah as soft as silk. Shared a first kiss tonight, I continue to wish that one day you'll be mine. You take the breath right out of me and fill the hole that used to be. Now all I have to do is keep wishing to be yours, cause your always on my mind. I smile every time I get a text from you.
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:32 AM UTC
Your blue eyes are as beautiful as can be. Your lips, gah as soft as silk. Shared a first kiss tonight, I continue to wish that one day you'll be mine. You take the breath right out of me and fill the hole that used to be. Now all I have to do is keep wishing to be yours, cause your always on my mind. I smile every time I get a text from you.
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:32 AM UTC
Your blue eyes are as beautiful as can be. Your lips, gah as soft as silk. Shared a first kiss tonight, I continue to wish that one day you'll be mine. You take the breath right out of me and fill the hole that used to be. Now all I have to do is keep wishing to be yours, cause your always on my mind. I smile every time I get a text from you.
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:32 AM UTC
The rain never stops
Like my tears when they drop
My skies are always gray
No one can make them go away.
No matter how hard I try
I sit here an cry
Just leave me alone
My happiness will not be shown.
The sun never comes,
Can't I see some?
Why don't the clouds ever clear?
Darkness is what I fear.
It's coming so near
And yet I don't care
My death I do not fear
For its already here
I welcome it with joy
As I leave
Everyone and everything
I say my final goodbyes
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:29 AM UTC
If only you knew what goes through my mind when I see you.... If only you knew how much it tore me apart to actually lose you.
If only you thought of me, the amount of time I thought of you.
If only you knew how much I honestly did love you and still do...
If only you realize how much I miss you, how much I wish to talk to you
If only you would take a second to realize how much I regret hurting you
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:26 AM UTC
A waterfall of tears find it's way to my cheeks
Forever engraving its trail to become
A stream.
A wipe of the eye won't turn it dry.
Niether cup or bucket could hold my amount
Of tears. The tears I shed
Keep running endlessly. They gather in a puddle
I'm determined to drown
In my tears....
I search for a shoulder to cry on, to form a river. So I roll myself into a ball and just fall.
I take a breath..
I drown in my tears and my life is gone, my heart no longer has feelings
For it no longer beats
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:20 AM UTC
Instead I watched him slip away, slipped away
Into a memory... Cause I knew it was best.
I knew I could no longer take it, I knew I'd
Be alright without him.
Tears rolled down my face as he vanished
In the distance.
Each step he took, it felt like
A memory fading
A promise breaking
And
A love dying.
I was ok, he went his way and I went mine.
Though memories were left behind
It was just a story of a
Foolish girl and stupid boy
Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 2013 at 1:16 AM UTC