Down the snow covered pathway
Frost clouds escape my chapped lips
Reaching towers run past my view
Walking forward
Towards nothing
The view through my eyes is so worn
Until I see yours
Its a small thing
That drew my gaze to yours
But that bright smile
I know is not intended for me
Called my name anyway
Now as I stand here
Three blocks down
From the café window I saw you through
It lingers in my mind
That time
When I was once as happy as you
Where it has gone
I can't remember
But I now wish to bring it back
Feb 7, 2019
Feb 7, 2019 at 1:38 AM UTC
as the suns sets faster
and the moon stays lower
when the wind blows harder
and the nights move slower
occasional pain comes to fill you up
staying around
numbing the memories of what you loved
this period lasts, but doesn't last long
leaking out day by day
as night rides and dawn arrives
this ache too, you will overcome.
Oct 13, 2018
Oct 13, 2018 at 5:56 AM UTC
that were once my goal
what I spent my time perfecting
learning and yearning to be better
now hold me back
keep me at this striving
but never arriving state
in order to love myself
and my life
I can no longer waste my love
and my life
unsure and unwilling to begin
on something I have no passion in
instead I will do the things that bring me excitement
enjoyment and opportunities
because sometimes giving up
isn't a bad thing
it gives you space
to pick up
what you really need
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 7:57 AM UTC
its hard for me to remember my own feelings
I always forget that beautiful things exist in this world
having been numb for so long
waking up seems scary
damped by the thoughts of other
feeling others feelings
instead of spending time with myself
even though all the time
I'm by myself
no one cares for me these days
I know it to be true
since I care for no one currently
even pushing them away
because I know I'll disappoint them
stuck in the between place
of young and grown
novice and knowing
foreign and fluent
is so comfortable that its uncomfortable
silence makes me nervous
yet the sound distracts me
I start a new thing
and quickly leave it
never progressing
always upsetting myself
these days
are a slow climb for me
I dont know where the valley ends
and my mountain begins
but I just hope
all my numb feelings dont turn to pain anymore
all my flaws dont hold me down anymore
all of my self doesn't cower anymore
because my feelings all feel foreign
and disappointment is too comfortable these days.
Oct 8, 2018
Oct 8, 2018 at 5:35 AM UTC
The first time I heard the line
“This isn’t real life
This is **** that happens on tv”
Was on my 24” screen
But when I heard it the second time
From my uncle
As he stood in the hospital room
Praying for his youngest son
Who left us the next day
I realized that sometimes
Tv happens in real life
May 24, 2014
May 24, 2014 at 2:46 PM UTC
baby blue in the middle of egg shells
blonde way up high
that trickles down into brown
and reaches up to a spike
pale all over
with unintentional dents
it has little brown freckles
shaped like stones
thin closed lips cover
teeth that were tugged
with wire and brackets
you probably dont miss
ridge in the middle
with a peak as a start
the rest just a curve
until your nostrils make it stop
bottom of it all
has a dent in between
that seems to disappear
when you turn a certain way
those curves on either side
probably most important
when you listen to the music
you and your band create
the shape a little odd
because it matches the entire place
an almost perfect oval
just a bit wider above the middle
and lets stay away from your smile
which almost never fades
from that overall
perfect mess of a place
Mar 11, 2014
Mar 11, 2014 at 8:24 PM UTC
you dont want to be the odd one out
is what they always preach
get along and fit together
it makes our system better
sit around and do nothing
comfort is best
but also work hard
to ace every test
dont do anything weird
but dont be basic
original ideas are worthless
if they havent been proven
the best way to organize
is the one well teach you
forget that the real world
doesnt have meaningless rules
and the college we constantly refer to
is even worse than this
300 dollars for a text book
you have to staple yourself
1000 bucks for a class
with an instructor who hardly shows
countless mental breakdowns
while studying alone
even better though
is that statistics show
less than half of kids that go
make it to their second year
think graduation day will solve your fears
too bad it only gets worse from here
Nov 30, 2013
Nov 30, 2013 at 6:47 AM UTC
cold coffee and hot tea
little kittens plush fur
the smell of old books
complete with the sound of turning pages
some people love these things
sadly it doesnt include me
i cant stand the smell of coffee
or the taste of tea
little kittens arent as fun as puppies
old books smell worse than gym socks
and paper pages are obnoxious
why people romanticize these things
and assume everyone will agree
is far beyond me
and why people get angry
over innocent opinions
that differ from theirs
makes me wonder
if thats why there isnt world peace
Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 7:58 PM UTC
ive heard that
to be a better writer
you have to read
at least as much as you write
but you cant sit around
and read fanfiction
written by a 12 year old
and expect to be
the next john green
you have to read pretty good books
to have better writing
i think ill read
the holy bible
and the quran
and the torah
and any popular religious texts
because if they have gained
billions of dedicated followers
world wide
they must be pretty good
Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 7:56 PM UTC
its all in the family business
saving people
killing things
but what happens
when the saviors
need to be saved
weve both been to hell
and back
passed through heaven
with the help of loved ones
you even traveled through purgatory
and battled your way back to earth
we are expected
to be unbreakable
because thats who we are
its our legacy
but we are only mortal
and highly disadvantaged
against our demons and angels
so i think this time
i wont be able
to save you
Nov 22, 2013
Nov 22, 2013 at 4:07 PM UTC