Our men are heroes, of course.
They protect us, gun in hand,
against enemies plastered on posters
vandalizing once-beautiful stone storefronts.
More every day.
Stapled on top of one another
until words blend.
"But now,"
the overly made-up woman at the podium says,
"women can do our part."
They’ve gathered other pretty blondes
with symmetrical features measured
by a myriad of devices.
Beautiful,
demure
women
with
beautiful,
Aryan
genes
to breed with our handsome heroes.
Because women,
and the children we bear,
are the key to Germany’s future.
I glance at the woman to my right,
eyes skiing down the slope of her nose
to rest on smiling lips.
Is the blush on her cheeks genuine,
or set by rouge?
It suits her.
She catches me staring.
My breath hitches in my throat.
I throw my attention back to the woman
glorifying human broodmares.
Heat assaults my cheeks.
“Your rouge is lovely.”
Her whisper warms me.
“Can you believe this?
Us, with war heroes?”
She sighs.
I can practically see the dream
play through the air.
A husband coming home in uniform,
splaying a hand on her swollen belly
and kissing her forehead.
A fantasy.
These men…
they’ll come,
take what they want from us for granted
and claim they did us a favor
when they leave us alone
with child.
But my fingers would dance
never-ending pirouettes
across that porcelain skin.
Swirl intricate patterns
through golden hair,
all for that sigh
to carry a dream with me in it.
Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 2:28 PM UTC
A ghost sits beside him
on the well-worn piano bench.
Black cherry staining holds strong
against years of wear.
His seat engraved -
a small divot carved
from countless hours of diligence.
All where he lay himself
at the mercy of the keys.
Most of the time,
porcelain and ebony fingers
clutched his heart, allowing every beat to
bleed life into the music.
For it’s not him that dictates what he plays,
but what the keys see inside him.
More often than not,
a minor chord reverberates
against the practice room.
From there it’s a dance.
Fingers
gliding,
traipsing
up and down the length,
piecing together a melody
that speaks volumes to him alone.
Every note holds a word,
a piece of himself.
An outlet for emotions
shoved inside a shaken bottle,
finally exploding against the refrain.
Mason’s weight creaks beneath the bench.
It’s old, could probably do with replacing,
but he will never own another bench.
Worn in the wood next to him,
a smaller divot keeps him company.
Mason’s fingers leave porcelain
to run over the groove.
A little over a foot wide,
though he remembers her being much smaller.
Memories tug at the corners of his lips as
he splays his palm against the seat.
It’s likely bigger from the squirming
she’d done whilst waiting for his attention.
God, he wishes he’d paid more attention.
But some songs would forever be played in minor keys.
Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 11:36 AM UTC
I remember the day I met you.
On your thirteenth birthday, in fact.
Bright smiles and a mouth full of braces,
you were the most beautiful boy I’d ever seen.
You were so eager to learn
that you’d stay up until the late hours,
keeping me company while uncovering the wonders
of each note.
“It’s time for bed,”
your mother would scold,
and we’d reluctantly say goodnight.
You came to visit though,
again and again.
In return I’d whisper in your ear,
help you learn a new language.
You picked up quickly.
When your little sister
took a pen to my leg,
you were irate.
She etched a flock of sparrows -
nine of them, to be exact.
But I liked it.
It made me feel loved.
Until one day, you left.
Your final song is one I will never forget:
Clair de Lune.
In the aftermath,
every once in awhile someone would spot me and
tell me how beautiful I was,
but then wistfulness
turned to pity
as neglect took over.
Abandoned, I fared the elements
by myself for twelve winters
without your touch.
I stretched and I waned,
growing old prematurely.
My tune turned melancholy.
But even twelve years hadn’t erased
the memory of your fingerprints
on my keys.
Your wife found me again at an estate sale.
She shipped me home for your thirtieth.
You didn’t recognize me at first,
but by habit you reached down
and felt for the sparrows.
/I found you./
Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 11:19 AM UTC
She had a tattoo on her right ankle.
One that I’d trace with my finger
every night as we lay on the couch,
her feet lazily crossed one over the other -
always right over left, never left over right.
The tattoo was of a heart.
A picture of atriums and ventricles
and all the anatomy I’d learned
in sophomore year Biology,
the diagram filled in and colored with begonias.
Her favorite flower.
I used to wonder how the artist could design
something so intricate in such a small space.
“Why a heart?” I asked one night.
Her answer:
“To remind me of the muscle that separates us from death.”
I never saw the signs.
That she laid awake at night
while I slept soundly beside her.
That her appetite had waned,
along with the motivation to
pursue the things she once loved.
Including me.
I never noticed
that her smile didn’t quite reach her eyes,
or how she preferred to dull the pain
with our favorite Scottish ale.
I turned the key
and opened the door to our apartment one evening,
finding that same heart elevated
five feet above the ground.
Dangling back and forth, slowly.
Lifelessly.
And one sentence came to my lips
like a broken record
as I cut the rope and started CPR.
“I failed you. I failed you. I failed you.”
That heart stopped beating in time with mine.
Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 11:06 AM UTC