Can you love someone who can't see past you?
Past your defenses
your troubles
your stress
your tears
your smiles
Can you love someone who can't see inside of you?
The churning your stomach
the missed beats of your hearts
the heat between your legs
the cancerous tumors that life has put in you
Can you love someone who can't heal you?
Sep 9, 2017
Sep 9, 2017 at 5:06 PM UTC
There's a moment
where you wish
you could just press rewind
It was just five seconds ago that you said that
It was just a minute ago when you dropped that
and you can remember it in your hands
or the words trapped behind your teeth
and you would give anything to just try and fix it
just a moment ago you could have turned the wheel
just a second ago you could have just fallen the **** asleep and let it alone
but no
you took the plunge and there's no rewind
there's no going back
and the past is the past
Jul 22, 2017
Jul 22, 2017 at 12:49 AM UTC
You make me think of my children
will they be cared for
the way you cared for me?
Will they feel like their house is a home?
Will they yearn for attention like I did?
Will they grow up unable to process their own emotions like me?
Will they have a father who can see past his own wants?
Will you be there for them?
Jul 22, 2017
Jul 22, 2017 at 12:31 AM UTC
I've been crying for the past half hour
because I started reading about those who were declared dead
and how they felt peace
and nothing else
Maybe it will happen when I'm older
but I don't want peace
I want to continue to be in a constant state of love
with you
I want our craziness and joy and sadness
to continue on for eternity
I can't imagine a world without it
Mar 21, 2017
Mar 21, 2017 at 2:54 AM UTC
I'm afraid of many things
the dark
ghosts
tight spaces
and even inch worms
But I never feared falling
in love
down the stairs
into the basin of a crater
or down a huge mountain
I believe in reincarnation
that we have many lives after this one
and many lives before this
And if I were to have a life before this one
I believe that I used to be a bird
One that jumped off cliffs
spreading her wings
and taking flight
I feel the urge to do this quite often
To jump
and spread my wings
flying off into space
or to a new home
constantly flying
but never consistent
Nov 13, 2016
Nov 13, 2016 at 1:45 AM UTC
The river
hot and still
sits lazily at the banks
One foot in
and sinks into the mud
Ripples echo off of my ankle
and minerals solidify on my calf
Another step
and the water crawls up my thigh
The muddy waters reach my waist
and I sink
and I pray
The contents of the river are unknown
and I give all of myself to it
The sun burns my *******
my voice is raw
and my eyes are red
This is my worst form
and the river swallows me hole
Sep 28, 2016
Sep 28, 2016 at 1:54 AM UTC
I am weak
And when they ask me
What has made you this way?
I will only whisper your name
Your smiles
Laughs
Eyes
And arms
Have made me weak
I long to hold your hand within mine
And to caress your hair under my fingertips
To see your smile brilliantly flash in my direction
And to feel your breath intertwine with me
Our hearts beating in synchronization
You have made me weak
I used to stand strong
On my own
Indestructible
I left you
In an act of defiance against my own heart
To prove to my own self
That I would not be a fool again
I would heed the warnings
And listen
But
I am broken
The hand that would hold yours
Aches painfully
My fingertips bleed
With my carelessness
My smile has disappeared
My breath is stuck in my throat
Choking on words I want to say
My heart is shattered
By my own hand
That wields a dagger
Carved from my own bone
Every ounce of strength I possess
Is used to stay away from you
You have taken so much from me
My happiness
My strength
My appetite
My peace
My future
My soul
I walk around my own home like a ghost
Haunting the walls
A shell of the woman I used to be
Only occupied by a pathetic creature
One that only takes up space
One that only ignores what is painfully obvious
And one that can’t seem to let you go
What am I doing?
Why can’t I let you go?
My hair is falling out
My skin is losing its color
My smile is losing its brilliance
My laughter is forced
Why have you made me this way?
I need you
And you have made me too weak to get you
Jun 16, 2016
Jun 16, 2016 at 9:30 PM UTC
A single moment in time is significant enough to change a person
their entire universe
until it revolves around a single entity
With a gravitational pull so strong
and vibrant
it is impossible to not get ****** in
And it always starts
with a
Hello
Jun 16, 2016
Jun 16, 2016 at 12:07 AM UTC
He grabbed my hair
and shoved his **** inside
and I cried
and when he asked if he should stop
I shook my head
because I knew if I told him to stop
he would only get angry and frustrated
so instead I laid there
and cried
and he would say
"Your crying almost makes me want to stop"
Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 10:36 PM UTC
i hate you
not because you did anything wrong
but because
it hurts too much to love you
and that line between
love and hate
is so fine
Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 1:44 AM UTC