aric-garza - Hello Poetry

I used to live here; in endless contemplation. Struggling to put into words some profound beauty, Some ancient wisdom passed down through many lives lived unbeknownst to me. To be honest I never even sat down to think about my “poems.” I never stopped to read them before I shared, a half thought turned to ten lines or a massive revelation turned to two. I wanted to be a wordsmith and give everything I said a sense of grandeur. Even now I’m typing without intention; Without a scheme. I almost never know what to say... Regardless of the word ***** Still wishing I sounded good on paper. I used to live here; in endless contemplation. A bottomless pit of self regression, reflection, redemption I used to live here; I still do but I used to as well.

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Jun 30, 2021

Jun 30, 2021 at 2:18 AM UTC

aric-garza

I used to live here

I used to live here; in endless contemplation. Struggling to put into words some profound beauty, Some ancient wisdom passed down through many lives lived unbeknownst to me. To be honest I never even sat down to think about my “poems.” I never stopped to read them before I shared, a half thought turned to ten lines or a massive revelation turned to two. I wanted to be a wordsmith and give everything I said a sense of grandeur. Even now I’m typing without intention; Without a scheme. I almost never know what to say... Regardless of the word ***** Still wishing I sounded good on paper. I used to live here; in endless contemplation. A bottomless pit of self regression, reflection, redemption I used to live here; I still do but I used to as well.

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As a child or a teen, everyone tends to remind you that one day you’ll be older They never really mention you won’t feel any different. I still feel like I’m 15 even at 23. Kinda strange too since my life has been running by my face in a full sprint. As a child or a teen, There’s just this perception that everything falls into place. That’s what my mom and dad made it look like, But they also made it look easy. It’s not. It never will be. I once read that the mind never changes; It adapts. So maybe I’m not who my age suggests But how react to my next scene.

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Oct 5, 2019

Oct 5, 2019 at 11:16 PM UTC

aric-garza

15=23

As a child or a teen, everyone tends to remind you that one day you’ll be older They never really mention you won’t feel any different. I still feel like I’m 15 even at 23. Kinda strange too since my life has been running by my face in a full sprint. As a child or a teen, There’s just this perception that everything falls into place. That’s what my mom and dad made it look like, But they also made it look easy. It’s not. It never will be. I once read that the mind never changes; It adapts. So maybe I’m not who my age suggests But how react to my next scene.

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I always thought that I would be somebody, until I felt like a nobody. I always thought I’d be somewhere else, until I started to feel stuck. I always wished that I’d love someone, this one I can say is true. And now no matter where I found myself or who I was then, I’ll always feel whole with you.

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Oct 4, 2019

Oct 4, 2019 at 6:01 PM UTC

aric-garza

You’re everything

I always thought that I would be somebody, until I felt like a nobody. I always thought I’d be somewhere else, until I started to feel stuck. I always wished that I’d love someone, this one I can say is true. And now no matter where I found myself or who I was then, I’ll always feel whole with you.

8

I don’t see myself in the boy too eager to please the others around him. I don’t see myself in the teen who had been lost to the existential angst of a youthful mind. Much too fast, much too fast, you have so much life to live. I now see myself in the mirror and only have faith in my actions. Not too appeal to you but harness my worth and to finally follow my dreams. I now see myself in the man I’d begin to be. I now see myself as happy.

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Oct 3, 2019

Oct 3, 2019 at 7:28 PM UTC

aric-garza

Untitled

I don’t see myself in the boy too eager to please the others around him. I don’t see myself in the teen who had been lost to the existential angst of a youthful mind. Much too fast, much too fast, you have so much life to live. I now see myself in the mirror and only have faith in my actions. Not too appeal to you but harness my worth and to finally follow my dreams. I now see myself in the man I’d begin to be. I now see myself as happy.

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I have a question. When does the line get drawn? As in the imaginary law set by society’s hunger for what success is to each individual. Where does that line get drawn? Because it seemed like 16, when my mom first said; “Son, you have to start thinking of your future.” And so we browsed the colleges. Regardless there was still much time. I thought the line had been drawn. I’m 19, I’ve now finished a year in college. Sound recording technology. I love music but they tell me to pick something realistic. Something with a better “predicted growth rate” Something with 401ks and paid holidays. They begin to draw a line for me... I’m 23, I’ve dropped out of college. I’ve made some music. I even got some things done. I still wonder where the line gets drawn, though I know now better than ever... I hold the pencil that draws the line. So... I drew a smiley face.

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Oct 3, 2019

Oct 3, 2019 at 6:51 PM UTC

aric-garza

The line

I have a question. When does the line get drawn? As in the imaginary law set by society’s hunger for what success is to each individual. Where does that line get drawn? Because it seemed like 16, when my mom first said; “Son, you have to start thinking of your future.” And so we browsed the colleges. Regardless there was still much time. I thought the line had been drawn. I’m 19, I’ve now finished a year in college. Sound recording technology. I love music but they tell me to pick something realistic. Something with a better “predicted growth rate” Something with 401ks and paid holidays. They begin to draw a line for me... I’m 23, I’ve dropped out of college. I’ve made some music. I even got some things done. I still wonder where the line gets drawn, though I know now better than ever... I hold the pencil that draws the line. So... I drew a smiley face.

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Is it not ironic, as children wishing to be grown Once we’ve racked some age up, we don’t want to be old.

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Nov 30, 2018

Nov 30, 2018 at 10:08 PM UTC

aric-garza

23

Is it not ironic, as children wishing to be grown Once we’ve racked some age up, we don’t want to be old.

4

Refraining from writing a lot, Afraid of what I’ll say Not because of what you think, It’s the things in the back of my brain. Things I don’t give a lot of attention, Unless I stop a moment to reflect. Staying away from writing a lot, A moment just to breathe.

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Jul 17, 2018

Jul 17, 2018 at 12:12 AM UTC

aric-garza

Untitled

Refraining from writing a lot, Afraid of what I’ll say Not because of what you think, It’s the things in the back of my brain. Things I don’t give a lot of attention, Unless I stop a moment to reflect. Staying away from writing a lot, A moment just to breathe.

8

You like to be mad at me. I’m often annoyed with you. But as long as I live I swear on my life I’ll always be in love with you.

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Jul 2, 2018

Jul 2, 2018 at 2:45 AM UTC

aric-garza

Refinnej

You like to be mad at me. I’m often annoyed with you. But as long as I live I swear on my life I’ll always be in love with you.

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I think that I am really over you. Mostly because your name tasted like sin for about the past five years. Meaning it felt terrible to say. Really quite truely over you. Mostly because the last time I ever saw you, you asked to have *** one least time. I never thought that was selfish, in retrospect I was just vulnerable. I really think that I’m quite over you. Your face never really looked the same. Your voice has faded from the hidden crevices of my concious and I don’t think about you much. This thought had just crossed my mind. Now I’m feeling kind of free.

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Jul 2, 2018

Jul 2, 2018 at 2:38 AM UTC

aric-garza

Over you

I think that I am really over you. Mostly because your name tasted like sin for about the past five years. Meaning it felt terrible to say. Really quite truely over you. Mostly because the last time I ever saw you, you asked to have *** one least time. I never thought that was selfish, in retrospect I was just vulnerable. I really think that I’m quite over you. Your face never really looked the same. Your voice has faded from the hidden crevices of my concious and I don’t think about you much. This thought had just crossed my mind. Now I’m feeling kind of free.

11

Please do me a favor. Find yourself. Then find yourself again. I feel like I understand your pain and the feel of loss. I understand the crying out and wishes to be gone. I even understand the way it’s been years since the situation happened and, Somehow even then when you’ve grown you still blame yourself for the madness. But, Find yourself Please find yourself again. The things that make you smile Like making things worth while. Your hobbies, your friends and family and all the in between. Please find yourself. Then find your self again. Read again when you find the need.

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Jun 23, 2018

Jun 23, 2018 at 1:31 AM UTC

aric-garza

Find yourself

Please do me a favor. Find yourself. Then find yourself again. I feel like I understand your pain and the feel of loss. I understand the crying out and wishes to be gone. I even understand the way it’s been years since the situation happened and, Somehow even then when you’ve grown you still blame yourself for the madness. But, Find yourself Please find yourself again. The things that make you smile Like making things worth while. Your hobbies, your friends and family and all the in between. Please find yourself. Then find your self again. Read again when you find the need.

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