Haunted by thoughts, ghosts won't stop racing
Another night lingers, full of mistakes I'd chosen
Secure but miserable seemed the best way to be
Ignored all my wants, safety in misery
Lie down, breathe, put pen to paper
Thoughts can escape now that it's safer
One by one they come to life
Letter by letter, I string my strife
Free my mind from shackled regret
Forgive myself, I'm the only one left
Craving connection to one pure soul
Feel the feels, no longer alone
Begin my search for a love that's real
A kindred spirit who refused to kneel
Face unknown but eyes tell a story
Beautiful pain can lead to glory
If I sleep tonight & float away
I'll dream of words that I could say
Smiling eyes that light your face
Graceful thoughts that leave a trace
AcK 2020 ~ **** of a year
Dec 30, 2020
Dec 30, 2020 at 9:12 PM UTC
Sitting here trying to figure my thought process,
Trying to describe the only one I want to impress,
Thinking of ways to give you what you're due,
When all it ever takes is a simple ' I love you '.
The 9th of May 1978, a few years past,
Our 1st public introduction, yet it could've been our last,
You stopped breathing as things weren't going right,
I'm forever grateful, you turned back from that light.
I always had a reputation as a Mammys Boy,
No longer an insult, I am one with pride,
You thought me how to stand up for myself,
Most importantly, to search inside for my strenght.
Along with all of that, you gave me 4 sisters,
For my nieces & nephews, you gave 4 great mothers,
You take on our problems, like they're your own,
You always make sure, we are never alone.
They say all men search for one like their Mother,
Well, 'they' have no clue, for there is no other,
One with such skills, to attempt to name is unbelievablle,
Mammy, Ma... to the girls & I, to everyone else it is Carmel.
Jul 4, 2011
Jul 4, 2011 at 4:00 PM UTC
I have been deserted, my life is in ruins
Everywhere I turn, the darkness looms
Squeezing my eyes, lost in despair
If I ended it now, would they care
They have no idea, how many ways I tried
To now believe, my only release is suicide
My pain will cease, my problems solved
My heartaches solution, yet countless more caused
Buried within my shadows of doubt
A reason to try, a flicker of light
Focus on that, make it your goal
Surviving life’s major test..... A weeping soul
Jul 4, 2011
Jul 4, 2011 at 3:59 PM UTC
That night long ago, when you took control
I watched in silence, that glimpse of your soul
I saw it then, what you had suffered
Your eyes weren't as harsh as the words uttered
I knew you were strong, Now the reason why
Others confuse weakness as those that cry
A few months passed, then a simple kiss
Little did I know, you'd be my lifes major test
All that heartship & seven years gone
Most importantly, I dont regret one
Regrets are for fools that dont heed lifes lesson
Those that get bitter, always end up regretting
Jul 4, 2011
Jul 4, 2011 at 3:57 PM UTC