Is it so wrong I long to be loved?
To hear well done?
To be thought about?
To be held?
To hear how much I mean to someone?
It's what I search for in my darkest hours alone with no one to show me what love is
Jul 13, 2019
Jul 13, 2019 at 11:32 PM UTC
As each pair of eyes she stared into
Lips she kissed
Hand she held
She still felt empty
None of them were good enough
Maybe for a time but she knew something was missing
Something wasn't right
After countless of guys and dates
She finally realized
They will never be him
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 8:18 PM UTC
The thought of you still keeps me up at night
The memories of the way I felt alive when I was with you still rips my heart apart
Your voice echos in my mind in the stillness of night
Your laugh is forever on reply in my mind
I 'll never forget how you made something so simple mean the world to me
How when I was with you I felt like no one else was around
How my face felt from not being able to stop smiling
How holding your hand felt like it was truly made for mine
But most of all I'll never remember how you made me feel like you actually love me
I believed it in the fastest and slightest way and I fell
hard
Head first
Thoughts started to fill my head
I had doubts about you but you clouded my head with your sweet words
Your touch
Your kiss
And I fell for it
Now when it was time to pick me up you left
I never felt a pain so real and raw until you
You turned your back on me
You'll never know what it felt like the day you left me
How my fists pounded my steering wheel from all the rage built inside of me
How echos of screams filled my car
How the warmth of tears never stopped and my vision was blurred
You'll never know the pain I felt that night driving in my car
And still in my heart I hope you never do
because even after all the pain you caused me all I ever want for you is to find true happiness
I don't want the pain I felt that night from you to come from someone else and haunt you like it did me
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 8:07 PM UTC
Hope
That's what I hold onto
Hoping you'll come back
Hoping you'll miss me the way I miss you
Hoping your heart is breaking the same way mine does every night
Hoping you still think of me the way I think of you everyday
Hope is all I hold onto for you and me
But somewhere deep down I know hope won't bring you back
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 7:41 PM UTC
I know the person you are
And I know the person you can be
I fell in love with the person you could be not the person you are
But I hope everyday you will become the person you can be because that person made me believe, hope dream and love
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 7:37 PM UTC
As I close my eyes memories of you flood my mind
My laughter sounds from when you used to make me laugh
My smile grinning while I smiled while I lay with you thinking I wish I could make time stop here in this moment forever
Holding your hand and wishing I never had to let it go
But then the sun came up and I woke up and it was all a dream
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 7:25 PM UTC
Sitting here in the dark with streams of tears flowing down
Here I am
My real self
The person who I really am
Not the person I only pretend to be in the light of day
In the dark
I feel safe
I feel open
I feel broken
I feel like me
It's hard to pretend to be someone your not
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 7:21 PM UTC
Everything has been falling,
Falling apart
Since I left you
Now I'm trying to crawl back to you
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 7:18 PM UTC
Leaving
It sounded all to familiar to her
No matter who left it never got easier
The dead silence with the only sound of her beating
The damp tears beating down
The shatter of her heart breaking by the footsteps of another leaving once again
She felt it way to many times
Jun 18, 2019
Jun 18, 2019 at 7:12 PM UTC
Hours
Hours have gone by
Days
Days have gone by
A year
A full year has gone by
Since meeting you
Since touching you
Kissing you
Falling for you
I remember it like it was yesterday
Your memories haunt me everyday
I think about you like your still apart of me
Making me wish I could relive just that one day
Will I ever learn to forget you? Or will you always be apart of me?
You consume me
A touch
Makes me remember is how you held me
A kiss
How yours is still the only one that will staisfy me
I meet strangers to forget you
But all it ever left me was wanting more of you
Jun 11, 2019
Jun 11, 2019 at 12:13 AM UTC