Evil, sick and twisted boys.
If you like me, if you love me,
Then why do you want to hurt me?
Is my pain release for you?
Can you only feel the ecstasy of intimacy
With your hands so forceful on my neck,
Or with teeth deep in my flesh,
Until I'm sure I'm ripped apart.
Hold my hands behind my back,
Keep them tight above my head
So I won't push away when it hurts.
I'm someone's daughter,
I'm taking it like a good little ****
Can you tell that I like it?
I worked really hard on it all for you!
And when you touch me so harshly,
The parts of me you like so fondly
Will never again feel quite right for me.
Is it okay to mutilate me?
Must I sacrifice such sacred parts,
And call sweet blessed love a surrender
Of everything that makes me sweet,
Of what's required to be complete.
I write these words on my jean pocket
And carry them around like an omen,
Boy's wont want to touch me then.
Apr 12, 2023
Apr 12, 2023 at 7:16 PM UTC
To be loved, what a wonderful thing,
Your nails digging your roots into my head,
Infected me with your perspective
It's nothing quite like what you see,
Make you happy while I weep into squalor;
This collar will not make me stronger
Stranger ideals have once taken place,
But in my face you'll read the triumph of lies,
Lionize me and you'll waste the wine
Feb 19, 2022
Feb 19, 2022 at 8:57 AM UTC
Crouching tiger, hidden dragon
Fill my empty bones with passion
I was never born a lion
But there is fighting in the shadows
With unpredictable strength
It follows
Behind the rock, my giant roots
To serve as sturdy ground through fire
I was never born an eagle
But there is pride beneath smaller wings
With unquestionable force
It sings
Feb 3, 2022
Feb 3, 2022 at 11:31 AM UTC
I think my emotions have gripped me enough,
My heart can only beat so slow.
The fear has made me an incomparable waste,
The kind I wish I didn't know.
My fear to fail, my worry to rise,
The final fall out of line
Has shook my bones, I don't want to feel alone,
I want to try to be fine.
I'm scared I'll fail, I'm scared you'll laugh,
But isn't that what's wrong?
These moments wont last forever,
Why haven't I realised, I wont last forever,
It's time for this chapter to be gone.
May 17, 2017
May 17, 2017 at 4:13 PM UTC
Love *****
Because I thought I'd finally moved on,
Until I saw your name appear on my screen.
I could've sworn my heart skipped a beat.
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 3:04 PM UTC
I am me. I am the girl crying on the bathroom floor wishing she never existed. I am the boring sister, the unwanted daughter, and the distant friend. I am the bitter insults from my mothers mouth. I am the guilt from my chest when I bite back too hard. I am the music I rely on to survive. I am the dull foggy days and the long lonely nights I love so much. I am the one no one can hate and the one no one can love. I am the the broken but the not broken enough. I am the tangled collection of thoughts, weaving through one another in my mess of a mind. I am the hopeless future, I am the high expectancies. I am the too-pretty-to-be-ugly and the too-ugly-to-be-pretty. I am the 3am figure stuck to the couch. I am the weight in my chest. I am the hard mornings. I am the restless nights. I am the lost humour, the lost smiles, the lost joy. I am the lost cause.
Nov 29, 2014
Nov 29, 2014 at 5:52 PM UTC
Love *****
Because when I looked,
You were already looking,
And that hasn't left my mind all day.
Nov 25, 2014
Nov 25, 2014 at 4:49 PM UTC
Love *****
Because the only person I want to talk to is you,
And the only person I'm not talking to,
Is you.
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 1:04 PM UTC
This world is a twisted haven,
Made for the beautiful and the blind.
But dear we all know I'm not beautiful,
And oh how I wish I didn't mind.
No matter how much I hate to hear it,
This world just was not made for me.
But who am I to proudly name,
This unfair, corrupted society.
Maybe I'm just not meant to be,
Maybe I'm the poisoned one.
Maybe one day I'll face this pain.
Maybe one day,
I'll finally be gone.
Oct 28, 2014
Oct 28, 2014 at 4:44 PM UTC
Shadows settle on the place, that you left.
Our minds are troubled by the emptiness.
Destroy the middle, it's a waste of time.
From the perfect start to the finish line.
And if you're still breathing, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs.
Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lovers that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong.
We are the reckless,
We are the wild youth
Chasing visions of our futures
One day we'll reveal the truth
That one will die before he gets there.
And if you're still bleeding, you're the lucky ones.
'Cause most of our feelings, they are dead and they are gone.
We're setting fire to our insides for fun.
Collecting pictures from a flood that wrecked our home,
It was a flood that wrecked this home.
And you caused it,
And you caused it,
And you caused it
Well I've lost it all, I'm just a silhouette,
I'm a lifeless face that you'll soon forget,
And my eyes are damp from the words you left,
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.
And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one,
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone.
Setting fire to our insides for fun,
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I'm forever missing him.
And you caused it,
And you caused it,
And you caused it
Oct 27, 2014
Oct 27, 2014 at 3:31 PM UTC