I sat in front of a crackling fire by myself.
Yes, this all actually happened.
I sat in front of the fire as embers flew in to the air and quickly vanished.
Eddie Vedder's 'Society' played in the background.
I looked up and saw the stars in the sky.
At that very moment I smiled as I remembered that night, not feeling an ounce of sorrow.
I then realized that no matter what, the stars would always be in the sky, the moon would always shine, and there would always be a fire to keep me warm.
Dec 21, 2016
Dec 21, 2016 at 3:30 AM UTC
I felt broken for a while.
It wasn't because of him, it was because of the situation itself.
It was because I was this close to love.
It was because we could have been so good together.
It was because I would end up hating him.
It was because he was already breaking me.
It was because I would have waited forever, and maybe I still am.
It was because the universe would never be on our side.
It was because no matter how bad we wanted it to work, it simply wasn't and never would be meant to be.
It was because he was so ******* perfect.
Dec 21, 2016
Dec 21, 2016 at 2:56 AM UTC
There was still so much about each other that we'd never know or tell.
Simple things.
Complex things.
Random things.
I'd never know where the scars on his forehead were from.
I'd never understand his philosophy of 12.
I'd never know any childhood stories.
He'd never know that I had a lisp until I was 4.
He'd never know that I couldn't dance.
He'd never know that I thought about him dabbing beer off of my forehead.
He'd never know that I cried in class because I'd never tell him how I still got butterflies every time the thought entered my mind.
I'd never tell him the fact on the next Snapple I drank.
I'd never tell him how I was convinced I'd fallen in love in a matter of days.
I'd never tell him that I saved the pack of gum I carried on the night we met.
And I'd never know what he'd never tell me.
Dec 21, 2016
Dec 21, 2016 at 2:49 AM UTC
Two months
And I still cry
Two months
And I don't know why
I thought I was over you
I thought I was done
But when I lie in bed
The memories still come
I see you in everything
I see you in my mind
But I'd bet my life
And say that you're just fine
I always said I'd never
Love at this age
Now that I'm without you
I'm in a rage
I tell myself it's over
I tell myself it's gone
But I can't forget you
Or that bond
It wasn't your fault and it wasn't mine
Things are difficult and I understand that
But if I had one wish
It'd be to go back
Two months
And I still cry
Two months
And I don't know why
Dec 21, 2016
Dec 21, 2016 at 2:37 AM UTC
Bright starry sky
Smoke swirls in the air
These feelings are not a lie
Run your fingers through my hair
Hold me
As we dance
Can't disagree
You've got me in a trance
I could stay here forever
Let's not say goodbye
Just stay here and remember
Bright starry sky
Dec 2, 2016
Dec 2, 2016 at 8:50 AM UTC