Can't I just sleep?
I think that's all I really need
Right now, right here
All alone, please, my dear
Just let me sleep
And dream of absolutely
Nothing
I think that's all I really need
I just always talk
Or sit and listen while you talk
And she talks and he talks-
I'm constantly walking around
Keeping that frown down
So yours can smile
And I crack all over my hands and
Bleed, but you don't see
Because I'm pretty good at
Keeping it classy and
I'm just so tired now
I'm a little wired and I don't know
How, to shut my brain off and just
Sleep
Jun 10, 2013
Jun 10, 2013 at 10:07 PM UTC
Biting my lip in concentration
Sweaty brow from my frustration
Where has all my time gone by?
I've been fighting for so long, but why?
Nostrils flaring at the smell
Rancid bodies from what I can tell
Is this all life will offer me?
Is this really what I want to be?
I've got an open shot at last
I've got to take it and fast
I wonder if I still have a home?
Or will I return and be all alone?
Sinking down onto my knees
The blood has made it hard to see
I've been fighting for my country's pride-
Is that the best reason for me to die?
Feeling sheets beneath my skin
Surveying the room that I am in
There isn't anyone here to care
I've fought so hard, is this ending fair?
Feb 19, 2013
Feb 19, 2013 at 7:21 AM UTC
Don't let go
Something feels right and I can't
I just can't seem to put my finger on it-
You're right here
Something about your company it's
This moment is just what I need and-
Stop walking
Hold me all night and just pretend with me
Pretending we have all the time in the world-
Moments pass
But let's just lay here and count
We'll be counting the stars as they light the sky
And as they go out in the morning
We'll still be there
Feb 19, 2013
Feb 19, 2013 at 7:20 AM UTC
Oh sunny days,
Often times they seem so far away
And here it seems to always rain
But I still believe
In sunny days.
Those happy dreams
Never enter through my fantasies and
I wish nightmares wouldn't come to me
But I still believe
In happy dreams.
The summer breeze
How I wish that it would beckon me
And take me from this winter freeze
But I still believe
In summer breeze.
Seeing you
It could be the best thing I would do
And yet I still can't bring myself to
But I still believe
In seeing you.
Dec 9, 2012
Dec 9, 2012 at 6:02 PM UTC
Many days and nights collide
Traveling both far and wide
Just looking for a place to rest
We're looking for a place that's best
There is a long way to go
The seas are deep- The path is shallow
There is such a long long way to go
But if you hold me, I will always follow you home
Hold me and I will always follow
Looking at the starry skies
Aren't as lovely as your eyes
And standing here at the end
I couldn't ask for a better friend
There is a long way to go
The seas are deep- The path is shallow
There is such a long long way to go
But if you hold me, I will always follow you home
Hold me and I will always follow
We're walking through a vast expanse
Of practically nothingness
But I wouldn't trade a day with you
For anything else to do
There is a long way to go
The seas are deep- The path is shallow
There is such a long long way to go
But if you hold me, We will always go
If you hold me, Just hold me
I'll follow you home
Nov 19, 2012
Nov 19, 2012 at 9:20 AM UTC
I am sitting here
I am sitting here and thinking
I am sitting here and watching
How I am thinking.
I can hear it
I can hear my head pounding
I can hear how my head pounds
As I am thinking.
I wish I knew
I wish I knew everything
I wish I knew what to do
About everything.
I try to plan
I try to plan my goals in life
I try to plan it all out
So I can live.
But I am tired
But I am tired and cold
But I am tired and need to sleep
And feel secure.
I am thinking
I am thinking about life
I am thinking about how to live
My life.
Nov 7, 2012
Nov 7, 2012 at 9:41 PM UTC
I'm writing out of desperation.
Honestly, I need a place of contemplation.
It's not in my mind anymore
No, it's not even in my soul.
Where can i find it- where can I go
Where can I run away and leave this sorrow?
I feel this incredible heavy blanket of fog
And the thinking in my brain is clogged
It's like someone is holding a gun to my head
But I wouldn't be struggling if i was dead
Right- Am I right about that?
Less complex- less a mess?
Oh, dear God above- Your love
That's not what's on my mind- this time.
I'm sorry- I can't think straight
It's closed down- someone locked that gate.
And I need to find the key again
Start winning finally again
Or just ******* find my train of thought
Is it derailed or have I just been forgot?
I'm pulling on my hair and thinking
And yet I feel I'm ever sinking
Further into chaos and confusion
Fighting for reality and not delusion.
How can I conquer- How can I win?
How can I make my head stop spin?
There is no pause or stop or delete
It just keeps going whether or not I feel complete
And I want so badly to figure this out
I want so badly to be content and not pout
So how can I accomplish all of this?
How can I assume permanent bliss?
Or just decide on one simple path
And start to learn again to laugh
Cause this insanity needs to quit
I'm tired of not knowing ****
I'm not the only one in this position
But I did not feel prepared to make a decision
About how to advance in life
How to avoid a lot of strife
I guess there's no way around these things
But it'd be nice if my brain would start working...
Oct 24, 2012
Oct 24, 2012 at 9:46 PM UTC
It's that one moment
That breathe before the final word
That whisper in the darkness
When Hope Speaks
It's that soft beat
The pulse generating speed
The excitement building
When Hope Speaks
When She sings her melody
Calmly
When She holds out her hand
Steady
When She looks in your eyes
Unblinking
Loneliness
It wraps each one of us
In a blanket of animosity and
Fear
With a pillow of poison to
Rest our heads on
And we sleep with dreams of
Darkness
Of nightmares and rage
Of terrors and loathing
When we're falling from our bed
When we're hitting the floor
When our eyes snap open-
When Hope Speaks
When She brushes us off
Gently
When She smiles at us
Knowingly
When She cries for us
Loving
When she gives us a reason
To live on
Oct 14, 2012
Oct 14, 2012 at 8:40 PM UTC
This vacancy started as a spark
And my ignorance allowed it to grow
Flames began to tear me apart
And I was engulfed in much sorrow
Sunlight was blackened by smoke
The fire became rampant and wild
It licked around my throat to choke
Keeping me alone and defiled
The night was meant to be cool
But fire is eager to pursue and ****
I reflect upon myself as a fool
Easily giving away my power of will
Soon there is not enough that remains
Of myself for the fire to feast upon
It dies down to ember from flame
My spirit is virtually gone
My hands are scorched to the bone
But my soul holds the deadlier wound
Yet the fire has left me alone
I am certain I will heal again soon
Oct 11, 2012
Oct 11, 2012 at 10:15 PM UTC
Run my fingers through my hair
Pass the sign that says, "Beware"
Break the fence and climb a tree
Hiding from everything
Clutch my knees up to my chest
Close my eyes and hope for the best
Count the times I've been left
For something less
Wipe the tears from my ***** face
Spread my hands and feel the space
Find the strength to climb back down
Get away from this town
Lock the door and hide the key
Walking far away from these memories
Buy the ticket and board the plane
Leaving this place
See the clouds floating around
Feel my heart beat off of the ground
Smile again and know this is the beginning
This is the ending
Oct 6, 2012
Oct 6, 2012 at 5:52 PM UTC