Damaged Goods
Broken not accepted
Lost in deception
You eat my words and step on it
**** You and my lesson
I’m 17 and you left me
You eat my words and stepped on it
Mindset ****** with the darkest cuts
I tried to open up but you tied me shut
Through me on the ground
exposed my cuts
throuh all the evidence out
With my eyes closed
I started to swallow those infections that ate me up in side that makes my hands shake and my stomach ache
Doors closed my mental state
Ibuprofen how much should I take **** this **** my heart won’t break
knock me up I’ll get what I can take
beat me down shut me out give me worthless knowledge and doubt
how dare you say you love me when you just broke me
**** You
Sep 6, 2018
Sep 6, 2018 at 12:32 AM UTC
Facing reality.
Have you ever been so alone , impacted and filled with your biggest insecurities .your biggest disappointments, your let downs have you ever been left alone with Just you .
My biggest fears was getting close to you only to lose you I didn’t know a human being could be so evil battling against principalities the **** can get deceitful
You filled the wounds that I thought could know longer be filled. broken and damage from loved touture I can’t even think straight just knowing I lost you knowing that I damage you with my pasts infection
I never thought somebody could ever take my pain away. I never thought it would be you ,
The person who showed me that they truly love me
Iinfected .
I wanna connect , I wanna love , I wanna give everything but if it’s not you then honestly I don’t know. I just know I want you I ******* need you my intentions was never bad
Sep 5, 2018
Sep 5, 2018 at 12:05 AM UTC
Sometimes the same problem keeps coming back because you didn’t try and start at the beginning of what caused it .
sometimes we gotta go to the pasts and bring it to the future just to destroy it
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 1:16 PM UTC
Securing the insecure
Growing up iv always had it rough . I still remember things from when I was 4years old because that’s where the most damage happened. I hid from the destruction .
I didn’t know burying so much could affect a person until I realize that I was affected.
I couldn’t see myself because I was always running
. Running from myself, until one day I ran away and somebody I knew said “ you can’t keep running from your problems “ and after it only got worse until I faced my own destruction .
“ destruction who are you “ and he spoke
Its this deep question on the inside of us that makes us wonder if what we have and who we are is enough .
That one thing you had . That made you happy but also broke you leaving it up to you too rebuild .
I’m the pills that sat next too you at 16 . You remember that same year I impregnated you and took it ? .I’m the blood that drips from your arm that makes you like jackets so much
I cover up all your hurt just so my work can repeat it’s self
I’m the words that tell you that your not good enough
I’m the thing that have you Posting all these pictures hoping people would like it enough..... hoping they would like You Enough . I have a mission too destroy you I’m That thing that blocks you from your purpose im The one who questions your ability your talent . Hello Anndreana, finally you stopped running ..... I’m insecure. Apart of your destruction.
Jul 8, 2018
Jul 8, 2018 at 1:19 PM UTC
Hello Destruction . The action or process of causing so much damage to something that it no longer exists or cannot be repaired.
The dark thing that creeps in my dreams to despaired the goals that was purpose for my life .
Creeps in my head and read me lies , keeping me up all night ..
tossing and turning .. tossing and turning because of my gift I see the spiritual..
I see the destruction, hello destruction
give me your name?
How many are you ?
Why me why cause so much damage when I no longer exist..
why keep trying you already ripped me to Sherds you already took my innocence....
you took everything
but my faith, my purpose
and I know you’re mad because you can’t break what’s left of me
you can’t take some **** that’s not yours
you been here what thousands of years?
You should ******* know this
you know who I am
and you wanna take it
I’ll conquer I’ll ******* destroy you
goodbye destruction.
Jul 4, 2018
Jul 4, 2018 at 10:09 PM UTC
You burned every part of me
That you hadn't claimed for your own
Jul 4, 2018
Jul 4, 2018 at 10:03 PM UTC
You locked me in a box and hid my screams from the world
You told me I wasn’t **** and destroyed my sphere .
You ******* stepped on my left hemispheres.
you left me in the dark .You ******* left me 4ft and confounded, you ******* left me in the dark without the truth
Slience anger and madness you locked me in a box
Jul 4, 2018
Jul 4, 2018 at 3:58 PM UTC
Depression isn't always hidden cuts underneath sweaters. It's not always sad music & rainy days. It's sometimes the girl who's always smiling with the sad eyes. It's your friend who always has a joke for you. It's the thin line between insanity and being too sane. The slope of your mouth that doesn't curve all the way into a smile when your thoughts become to heavy for even the hundred of muscles in your mouth to upturn. It's driving a car at 130 miles per hour and wondering how it felt to hug a tree, a numb pain that you can't feel, buts it's everything you feel. It's alcohol going down, down, down until your feelings are higher. It's medication, it comes and goes, always lingering like your allergies on the first day of spring
It's dedicated to you, seeping into your bones like the poison you take up your nose to drown out the inner demons
It's toxins slowly spreading and dissolving your strength and making you wish you weren't you
Depression isn't always black and white.
It's the brightest of teeth that flash the friendliest smiles; sunshine and birds. Because depression doesn't discriminate appearances, she doesn't care who she overcomes and overthrows. Her victims are her best friends and she's patient and she'll wait until your very worst day to come throw her arm over your shoulders and pretend she's there for you, feeding herself with the way your feeding into her shadows.
Depression is everywhere
Jul 4, 2018
Jul 4, 2018 at 1:30 PM UTC
My anxiety shows the real me
My Anxiety Shows Me The Real me Ill Never Be Perfect ill never be cute ill always be alone i will always be a nobody See my anxiety shows me the real me
everytime i see my arm i just see my past and you can say thats the real me my anxiety shows me the real me and ill never understand and ill never ask people dont understand me they quick to judge in see the non righteous me they see the rumors they see the lies but nobody ever ask me for the truth im always being judge base off my branch and not my roots but blame my anxiety it shows me the real me
Jul 3, 2018
Jul 3, 2018 at 10:44 PM UTC
The truth
18 Years of pain , Neglect depression shall I go on ? THE TRUTH . Finally I found my purpose,
I found my happiness THE TRUTH
. See with happiness you got to learn how to keep it . You got to grab it and never let it go . Even if destruction try and ****** it you got to set ******* boundaries and say no .
Because as kings and queens THE TRUTH We get manipulated THE TRUTH We sometimes see other things that we might think may enhance our happiness but instead it’s destruction with a disguise THE TRUTH As kings and queens we sometimes become foolish blinded by the good looks We unknowingly give our happiness to destruction bringing back . 18 Years of pain , Neglect depression shall I go on ? THE TRUTH
Jul 3, 2018
Jul 3, 2018 at 10:38 PM UTC