It's different on everyone
You can color the pages just how you like
and when everything once important has left
The bits that grew when all was well are still there
there in the bit you tuck behind your ear
Aug 28, 2016
Aug 28, 2016 at 12:47 PM UTC
When the world rests I'm restless
Because during your speech
I was speechless
Losing words to popcorn ceilings
And now I'll love you for how you love
Other people
Because when you see me
I'm blind
Aug 28, 2016
Aug 28, 2016 at 12:44 PM UTC
Don’t talk about it
Don’t spill it yet
The little sparks and paraparaxis
The little moments I think about too often
It’ll be there when we laugh with others
It’ll come back greater with every moment left unexplained
And It’ll last through the mud we trudge through now
Don’t speak about it
Don’t tell anyone you know
Don’t tip the bottle to showcase it’s glow
You’ll only spill it
Just let it sit, don’t let it flow
Not just yet
I think we both know
You’ve got checklists and talks to have
I’ve got my past to bury in the persistence of someone new
It can’t just yet be you
Mar 21, 2016
Mar 21, 2016 at 5:55 PM UTC
Forgive my simple happy demeanor
And the sparkle in my eyes
It all feels dull on the inside
It all feels too polar to survive
Ill melt away in water, caused by my own eyes
As your’s look away, thinking I’ll be fine
Mar 5, 2016
Mar 5, 2016 at 7:52 PM UTC
It’s 1 now and you’ve gone to bed
Ill be up till three
The usual me
Sitting wondering
Where you’re mind will be
Right before you’ll drift ever so lightly
Feb 26, 2016
Feb 26, 2016 at 2:10 AM UTC
I found a song I like but I noticed you listening to it too
I only hope I can listen carefully and not have it remind me of you.
But the piano is synthesized like I was around you, the guitar grows quiet like you did when you enumerated to me what I deserved. It ends on a minor chord, and I remember you saying that was your favorite way for things to end, but I can’t imagine a worse way to leave my heart.
It’s waiting to come back to me with the chime of a major, the resolution of a key, the loss of dissonance and the fixation of an eardrum, I never wanted it to end.
But songs are short and so were we, and songs can be replayed, so so could we but there aren’t headphones for love, it can’t just be me.
Just leave me be.
Feb 24, 2016
Feb 24, 2016 at 11:42 AM UTC
You'll be okay
Leave this place unphased
I heard it happen
It was there in your voice
That I didn't occupy your mind
Not as often as you do mine
And thats okay
Ive been a girl whose done the same
All you've done is tried on my old shoes
And walked away with them
You left me though
With a new feeling
A brand new pair of shoes
Squeaky and shiny
Ill explore the world in them and think of you
Ill let you know what I find
Or I won't
But know I'll want to
And I know you don't
Feb 21, 2016
Feb 21, 2016 at 2:43 PM UTC
You're allosteric babe
You changed the way I keep
With no defense
It must've been so easy
Nothing but respect
For the words you said to me
There's not enough of everything
To keep anything forever
I don't function like I used to
And maybe thats alright
I was spinning out of control
My heart just felt so light
Heaviness returned
So rapidly when you spoke
Of what I don't deserve
It left me an understanding
Of exactly who you think you are
Now I'm grounded to the spot
My heart is heavy in its box
But no more energy is lost
For something that wont last
Allosteric and present
Maybe I'll function properly
When the memory
Dissipates
Feb 20, 2016
Feb 20, 2016 at 3:56 AM UTC
Two lights
And as I pass
The first shadow scares me more
A projection of the past
Onto the bare cement
Where I've been
Changes where I'll be
I'm walking the way I've gone
So many times before
The nights feel long
And you aren't here anymore
The evening is quiet
And I wish I had friends
But I'll settle for the people passing
And think upon your absence
So many firsts not so long ago
For you of course
But me and myself
Found it all to be new
Quite new to be true
New to be rejected
The empathy returns
The first break is the breakthrough
Leaves you wishing
They didn't breakthrough
Two lights
And as I pass
The first shadow scares me more
I hope
Where I've been
Won't change where I'll be
Feb 20, 2016
Feb 20, 2016 at 3:40 AM UTC