I would wade in the deep end,
And stop swimming.
But something made me float.
I would imagine turning the wheel,
Crashing into the ditch.
But something left me on the road.
I’ve been broken.
I cracked,
But no one could tell.
My spirit shattered.
I lived my life,
Wanting to die.
But the heartbreak,
I would leave behind,
Kept me alive.
Sep 25, 2016
Sep 25, 2016 at 10:53 PM UTC
When I text you it takes longer to reply because I get nervous
a good nervous
and my thumbs like to dance across the keys
and press random letters
Then i have to start every word over
Even now thinking about it it's happening
Jan 17, 2016
Jan 17, 2016 at 2:34 PM UTC
Drunk is a word someone would come up with when they're drunk.
It's a drunk word.
Jan 17, 2016
Jan 17, 2016 at 2:17 PM UTC
Every one of you had every opportunity to see me.
I wasn't hiding,
locked away behind doors in a jail cell.
If you wanted to see me,
all you had to do was walk up the stairs.
The door was wide open.
It still is.
Sep 20, 2015
Sep 20, 2015 at 12:20 PM UTC
Words aren’t said easily
They don’t pour from my veins
Sounds don’t form on my lips
I don’t take a breath then say something smart and witty
I take a breath then attempt to socialize
To survive a conversation I should be glad to partake in
But with words on paper it’s a conversation with pen I am happy to have
I take a breath and my thoughts just flow
I don’t take a breath and hold my tongue
Sounds of a different world blare in my mind
They flow then pour out through my veins
Words aren’t said easily
But they can be written beautifully
Aug 23, 2015
Aug 23, 2015 at 2:56 PM UTC
Water pulls me under
I'm drowning
Every loss ties me to another anchor
There's no way back up
Down here there's no air
Trapped in a nightmare
But I'm not dreaming at all
Everything is gone
But nothing is wrong
This is how it's supposed to be
In the end not you
But me suffocating
May 19, 2015
May 19, 2015 at 10:22 PM UTC
When I breathe I’m alive
Again and again,
But I’m not living
Days pass by and I show all the signs
No one seems to notice
I hide in the darkest part of my mind
Where my demons tell me the things
That nearly convince me to throw everything away
There’s one voice though,
That’s not a demon.
That’s why I’m still here today.
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 10:41 PM UTC
The way you say it
It comes across the way you mean it
And that’s the way I hear it
That’s why I have these thoughts
That I’m not good enough
You say I’m sad
When I’m actually very glad
Your words tear at me
Until I can’t take it
Then I do everything that will make you say
The things I will not want to hear
I know it seems childish
For me to complain
I mean,
I should be used to it
After all these years
Because of you I’ve cried so many tears
And you’ll never know
The thoughts you make me have
And the way you make me feel
Like I will never be good enough
Dec 31, 2013
Dec 31, 2013 at 12:38 AM UTC
Today I had to say what could be goodbye
You're the last one I never thought the time would come for
I gave you a note and i don't know if you read it
I gave you a hug and you left
You were my best friend
And I don't know if I'll ever see you again
Dec 20, 2013
Dec 20, 2013 at 3:21 PM UTC
The mystery in his eyes
The story they tell
Wrinkled around the edges
When his laugh takes me away
Every threat he takes away
You can see the protectiveness in his eyes
The ones that never lie
He’ll always be by my side
His eyes are like a song
The one that goes on and on
My heart beat is the tempo to his song
I know he is where I belong
Oct 24, 2013
Oct 24, 2013 at 6:44 PM UTC