She came out early this year
The monster, baring her teeth as she stretches after her long nap in the sun
Expecting her in October I shudder at the first of September
Inquiries hiss through her teeth
What have I been doing
Why do I bother
Do you think they actually like you?
She laughs as defensive, I hide in the corner of my room
Covers over my eyes, shrinking away from anything she could taunt
Sep 5, 2017
Sep 5, 2017 at 12:12 AM UTC
Deep blue water, clear enough to see silhouettes of fish hundreds of feet below, cold water lapping into your kayak
Gold leaf pressed to the face of a figure of Buddha, flakes overlapping on his forehead.
Chubby little legs, wobbling and then plopping over on the bed, a slight ache in your arms as small fingers wrap around your thumbs, and you pull him back up.
Ears throbbing as your heartbeat speeds up to match the pace of Keep Breathing at an Ingred Michaelson Concert
An agoraphobic woman, hunched over her clunky walker, wide eyes searching as she shuffles into a crowded chapel to take her sacraments
May 29, 2017
May 29, 2017 at 1:05 AM UTC
When I say it out loud
The idea doesn't seem so strange.
The things in my life that seem brilliant at the time
"My life could be a movie.
(He) (She) (This)
It's all so perfect"
When you look back it was never real.
Real moments of beauty come when you don't expect it
When there should be nothing special about that moment
Real happiness isn't tangible
And it doesn't feel like you are living a movie
Drama just isn't happiness.
May 11, 2015
May 11, 2015 at 1:36 PM UTC
I'm not even motivated enough
To form my lack of motivation
Into a real poem
Maybe if I just keep writing
Keep forcing my fingers to type
Maybe
I'll push past the cloud
Had I been born in another time
I might have called myself cursed
Not always
I don't mean to complain because so much of my life is basking in light
And there have been times before when I was trapped in dark storms
Which are now few and far between
So I stay busy under the blue sky
Then comes the cloud....
Blocking feeling
motivation
love
hope
Like all rainy days
It will pass
Rain, rain...
Go away
But it's not even raining
It's just the haze that keeps me from seeing reality
from participating
from living
I've learned not to fight.
I just wait
and hope tomorrow will be sunny
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 7:24 PM UTC
in this moment
For just a second
I feel whole again
Like two worlds collided
and somehow
months later
now
this chaos that came from the collision
Is more beautiful
peaceful
organized
than either world could be on its own
And it was worth the explosion
Dec 30, 2014
Dec 30, 2014 at 3:27 AM UTC
I glance back over the words that once contained my soul
My brow furrows at how shallow it all was
I need to turn this pond into an ocean
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 7:59 PM UTC
Today I feel different
Not the sad Anna
Heels dragging
Face drooping
Instead of an empty field of ice
winter has thawed
And I can see small sprouts
And it's a little bit easier to believe
That by the time I get to that field
It will be ready for me
And excitement is starting to grow
Like the sprout
And I'm not so scared.
So I'll wait
and watch that little sprout
Nine days until you have to be a grown up
White and ready to harvest
So please
Keep growing
Apr 29, 2013
Apr 29, 2013 at 11:01 PM UTC
My world is colliding
Crashing
I feel like my life is ending
And no one cares.
And I sit here
Begging
For someone, anyone, to care enough
To glance my way
As I helplessly struggle
Until I'm gone
But no one even notices
I'm sorry that I was nothing but a source of annoyance
Don't worry-
I'm not going to stick around much longer
Just 23 days left
And I wish I could say that then you will be sorry
Because you won't.
You'll forget me
And I'll forget me too.
Apr 15, 2013
Apr 15, 2013 at 7:58 PM UTC
And tomorrow
Everything changes
I don't want to go to sleep
Apr 4, 2013
Apr 4, 2013 at 1:40 AM UTC
I am sorry
I wish I didn't have to leave
I wish I could just stay here
And laugh
And play
And dream my days away
But then I would have to wake up
Lying on a bed and realizing all of the good that I could have done
Realizing all the unchanged lives
And unsung songs
All for laughs
I need to go
I need to know I am doing something important
I need to feel alive
Not just entertained
Well
You do make me fill alive
And fulfilled
And so so happy
But other people deserve that too
And I truly believe this is where I should be
So maybe this will **** for a while
But we will both be ok
Better than ok.
And it isn't goodbye
I'll come back
And when I do
Party rocking is all we will ever do
And it will be amazing
But until then
Please be happy for me
I already feel like I am on death row
And I shouldn't feel that way
But I do
And watching you being sad
Is killing me
It's worse than my own fears
Not even comparable.
This isn't goodbye
So don't be sad
This isn't the end
I know you think I am in denial
But this is important
And I believe we will be blessed
Apr 3, 2013
Apr 3, 2013 at 12:18 AM UTC