You make me ill
My brain drops in my stomach
I wanna throw up all my thought
Get out the memories of you
Just let me out
Jan 8, 2014
Jan 8, 2014 at 1:10 AM UTC
Look around the room and see a sea
A sea of the old
Swimming through to find the new
Even though nothing will change and nothing will be new
You have to hope
So you keep swimming
Jan 1, 2014
Jan 1, 2014 at 4:05 PM UTC
Look around the room and see a sea
A sea of the old
Swimming through to find the new
Even though nothing will change and nothing will be new
You have to hope
So you keep swimming
Jan 1, 2014
Jan 1, 2014 at 4:05 PM UTC
I lay in my bed
Barrying my face in pages of nonsense to take away my pain
I've lost you once again
I know any minute he'll walk into my from from a long night of french fries
Ill compose myself and read again
I play with my hair and come to the realization
I smell like him
French fries and insilen
That's all I've smelled like for a month
Sense the second we ended
Everything my hair my bed my clothes even my book
Everything smells of my distractions
I used to smell like menthol old spice and bo
I would live in the stench of you
My favorite smell in the world
The kind that brought you home
Brought you back to everything you used to be
A person walks past you with even a hint of you
Instint attraction
I follow that feeling
Feeling your hands on my hips
Your lips tickling my neck
I can feel that ting of energy go all the way to my toes
Nothing makes me feel as safe
As hurt
As much as myself as the stench of you
Bringing me home to my bed
My bed you used to share
Curled and linked as one
Now I can't smell a thing.
Dec 30, 2013
Dec 30, 2013 at 11:33 PM UTC
It's a cycle
You hurt me and I'll become you
There isn't anything to prevent this
I've never been much to conform
You shaped me from the start
Hollow and fragile
Someone broke you.
You put me on the verge of shatter
Small cracks form on the edges
Nothing but a breeze could make it crumble.
I'm you and you ****** all me out.
You get my pain now baby.
Have fun with the bits you thought you'd get.
I can be a ***** too
There isn't anything you can have now it's been empty for years
Nothing worth waiting for
Jokes on you sweetie
Hope you have fun with everything you've obtained
I'll be sure to pass on your good grief
Next adventure with surely get enough to spare
If anyone deserves my love it'd be you deary
Have fun with all my love
There's quite a bit
Good luck trying to control it now that you've taken it all.
Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 8:34 PM UTC
You waste all your time with me
I'm not one to deserve the attention
I've done things that would **** you and **** me
I'm ashamed and guilty
I won't deny it or try and make excuses
I'm human
I'm a liar
I'm nothing but trouble
Trouble in a band tee
There's nothing left on the inside
I've left it all in the back of a van
I hate to say it and I'm sorry
There's nothing left
Nothing for you
Nothing for him
Nothing for me
I'm sorry I'm empty.
Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 8:27 PM UTC
You waste all your time with me
I'm not one to deserve the attention
I've done things that would **** you and **** me
I'm ashamed and guilty
I won't deny it or try and make excuses
I'm human
I'm a liar
I'm nothing but trouble
Trouble in a band tee
There's nothing left on the inside
I've left it all in the back of a van
I hate to say it and I'm sorry
There's nothing left
Nothing for you
Nothing for him
Nothing for me
I'm sorry I'm empty.
Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 8:27 PM UTC
What I try to tell myself that I want i te opposite of my real feelings
I feel that I need someone to love me and hold on
I tell myself that I want someone to **** me then get out
I'd be a woman and be unsmotiable.
I just need love from someone in a way I've never felt.
I want the love I've felt in my past
I'm not of age but I know how to feel
I know the way of people I've come of age
I feel the same pain you do when you divorce.
I want to feel the love I tell myself I deserve.
I don't know if I deserve anything let alone happiness
But I want it whether I find the right person
or if I'd rather make someone the right person.
Selfishness can take a toll on the way to love a person.
Just as long as I can use this love I can feel it again.
Mar 7, 2013
Mar 7, 2013 at 7:31 PM UTC
As I see you on my bathroom floor
I know there is no going back
I take our hand and help you up
You pull me down with you.
I lay on the floor next to you.
I become soaked with ***** water
and the same blood of your own.
I can't help but wonder what there is to do.
I can't make you better.
No way to make anything better.
All there is to do is wait with you
love you in your last remark
as you slip away spilling over my bathroom floor
no way of knowing what the coming morning will bring
you your life or me my sorrows
I wait with you forever in your debt
Make your choice to be or not to be.
But let me see whether you need or not.
I need you as you need me now.
At last I'll help you back off the floor.
Mar 7, 2013
Mar 7, 2013 at 7:13 PM UTC
You are as sweet as they come
You help me in simple ways.
As your juice flows through me
I have a suddle relief
There's very some comfort you proide
It is always a brief release you give me.
Your'e my guilty pleasure
I just need a bit of you in my mouth
I want to **** on something
you are it
Mar 7, 2013
Mar 7, 2013 at 6:58 PM UTC