I wanted to write down
how I felt but the paper stayed
empty.
and it could not have described
how I was feeling any better.
Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 11:19 PM UTC
How dare you
walk away from this
how dare you give up on us
on me.
I need you now
more than ever
to tell me its going to be
okay
to tell me we can get through this
to tell me that you
love me.
Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 11:09 PM UTC
My body is
numb.
My tears feel like ice
as they run down my cheeks.
My hands reach to your side of the bed,
but the cold taken your place instead.
I only wish the cold
would consume my heart
because my heart it throbs and it aches
and it misses you.
I miss you.
Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 10:53 PM UTC
You fill the dimmest parts
of my saddened soul with light.
You picked up my
torn and tattered heart
and loved it unconditionally.
You tell me I'm
beautiful, perfect, flawless.
All thoughts that have never
seized my mangled mind.
You're just who I needed
and
I'm just who you needed
when we both needed it
the most.
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 7:23 PM UTC
I'm
full
with
dark
cold
nothingness
accompanied
by
unapologetic
thoughts
about
myself.
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 6:46 PM UTC
I'm happy
content.
I'm in love
finally.
I'm proud
Of myself.
I'm filled with
Sunshine and
Daisies.
april fools
I'm sad
depressed.
I'm out of love
still.
I'm unhappy
with myself.
and
I'm empty with
darkness and
Filled with self loath.
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 6:41 PM UTC
Done,
dead
And forgotten.
I'm brimming with
regrets
False hopes and
memories,
that I wish Good riddance
for they're making
me sad
torn and
tattered
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 5:50 PM UTC
I'm torn
Between the opinions
From my heart and my mind
They can't seem to agree
My brain is to busy building
and maintaining it's walls
To take the time to see the man in front of me who is giving me all of
His heart an more.
My mind tells me to
admire him from behind
my walls
but to never let
him in because we both know what
chaos and destruction
will come from it.
My heart is submissive to my mind.
Because my heart lost a lover once,
told my mind to let him inside those walls.
Which led to heartbreak and sadness
A mistake? Or a lesson?
Whichever it may be my mind won't ever trust my heart again, and now all my future maybe and almost
Lovers will suffer all because
My mind trusted my
heart.
Mar 29, 2014
Mar 29, 2014 at 1:53 PM UTC
You given me all of you
Laid it all out on the table
Told me all of your secrets
Shown me who you truly are
You are comfortable with yourself
I am not
I still can't seem
To let my walls down
Tell you my secrets
Show you who I truly am
Cause I truly don't even know
Even still
You tell me you love me
But I've realized now more than
Ever I don't deserve you
I can't tell you I love you because
I can't even tell myself the person I
Should be most comfortable with
I can not tell myself I love me
Because I honestly don't
So I can't honestly tell you
I love you
With out first loving
Myself.
Mar 5, 2014
Mar 5, 2014 at 2:44 AM UTC
I don't care
About who you're new lover is
Or if she makes you happy
I don't care
If she is laying with you now
Or kissing those lips
I don't care
If you're playing with her hair
Or her heart Like you did mine
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
Mar 5, 2014
Mar 5, 2014 at 2:36 AM UTC