As you begin to develop into your own
IT will never leave you alone
The constant darkness the elopes unto you
You keep telling IT "We are through"
You try to get better with IT
Lean to deal with IT
IT will never leave you alone
Not until IT finds a better home
I'm not telling you it will be easy
But one day IT will be gone
I'm telling you this a one who deals with IT
The constant bad thoughts
You're crying out for help
so you think
People try to understand
IT is a burden to talk
I'm tired of IT
**** off IT
Jan 7, 2018
Jan 7, 2018 at 11:31 AM UTC
Hey let's get drunk !
Forget our past
Don't think about our future
Let the good times roll
Our blurry eyes
Our stumbling to the bathroom
Let's get drunk
Lets forget about the ones
We trusted
We loved
We forgave
Let's get drunk
we can forget our horrid pasts
and for once, we'll be laughing
No crying
Let's live this night
And tomorrow we won't remember a thing
Cheers!
Sep 5, 2014
Sep 5, 2014 at 11:17 AM UTC
I hate you to the point of no return
I hate that you can watch me cry
I hate that you don't listen
when i speak
I hate you so much man
I hate that you hurt me
I hate you for trying to love a monster
I hate you for trying to understand
I hate you for loving me
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 9:12 PM UTC
Love is a battle, a battle for each other's attention
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 9:05 PM UTC
I have been crying too long
my eyes are burning
my heart is crying out for you
I walk away
you punch something
I come to you
I love you
Maybe I love you too much
Maybe that'll hurt us
Baby please don't let this hurt us
I try to pretend like i don't care
Like it doesn't bother me
I want you
Just you
Not your friends
Is that so hard to understand?
Love is too complicated
Calling it quits would break me
I love you but maybe we need a break...
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 8:55 PM UTC
I sit here waiting
Drinking a cold one
Down 6 holding off 1
I wait for you at the end of each can
I sit here waiting
Wanting your gentle touch
Wanting your body against mine
I wait for that excitement
I sit here wondering
Does he remember I'm here?
Probably not, your drinking too
I wait for that answer
I sit here waiting
For your attention
When I get it,
I'm an overactive puppy
I sit here waiting
Trying not to nag
Trying not to ****** you into my room
I sit here debating
Should I grab you?
Should I lock all the doors?
Throw you on the bed?
I sit here
I sit here drinking
Wanting your body on top of mine
Thrusting your hips
I sit here lusting
I sit here wanting
There would be no escape from my room
I would kiss every inch
Until you moan silently
I sit here alone
Imagining
Lusting
Thinking
Aug 31, 2014
Aug 31, 2014 at 11:09 PM UTC
The iron fist
A name that should be capitalized
The name alone makes one shiver
Shiver like freezing water being thrown on you
Not like the ice challenge
Like your mother throwing gallons on you
While your in the tub
She makes you lay there
You beg for her to stop
She doesn't and grabs a switch instead
Not the small ones either
The ones that are extra thick
She pours
You begs
She stops and cusses
"Shut the **** up or I'll get more water"
You cry silently
Hoping she'll stop
She grabs the switch off the toilet
She whips your *******
Stomach
Arm
You turn
She whips your back
****
Even your feet
You scream for a god that's not there
"Shut the **** up!"
WHIP!
You cry silently
She goes away
You jump out of the tub
Run naked into your room
Lock the door
The iron fist knocks
"Open this **** door"
You weep"Go away mommy"
She kicks the door down
Punches you down
Chokes you
Gets up
Grabs her gun
Puts it in your mouth
Tells you stop crying or you die
"Mommy don't"
"Shut up! You think this is a game?"
"No mommy!"
She lifts you up
"Stop crying you ***** Or you'll be dying tonight"
You stop but still whimper
She drops you and leaves your room
No words were said for the rest of that night
Aug 30, 2014
Aug 30, 2014 at 8:27 PM UTC
September 28, 2012
On the swings
Pure chemistry
Something I never imagined
He was my first
First time trusting someone
First time knowing what passion is
First love
I let that love go
Unforgettable mistake
It came back to me
This time for keeps
He cares
He understands
He is there when the room is empty
He is a treasure I hope to keep forever
He is a muse of hope
He stands behind me
Making me better
I hope he'll love me as much as I love him
No one knows the future
I predict he'll be in mine
I imagine us growing old together
Rocking in our rocking chairs
Yelling at kids to get off our lawns
Walking across the street
Holding hands as if we were young
I hope our future will include both of us
I will love you until my heart stops beating
Hell, maybe after I'm dead too
XOXO A.J.C.F.IV
Aug 30, 2014
Aug 30, 2014 at 8:01 PM UTC
How can you love
With hate in your heart,
Anger in your head,
Disappointment in your eyes?
How can you love
With never feeling love itself,
Never understanding the concept,
Never touching it?
How can you love
Someone who doesn't love you back,
Someone who loves too much,
Someone just like you ?
How can anyone love your
Cockiness,
Inability to care,
Desire to be in control?
How can you love
Without loving yourself ?
Aug 30, 2014
Aug 30, 2014 at 7:23 PM UTC
A girl sits alone in a corner
She doesn't speak or look
She sits in the dark creepy place
She weeps into her knees
A girl sits in the corner
Crying for more hope
Crying for anything
She gets nothing
A girl sits in a corner
Wondering what her life will lead to
Kids?
Love?
A girl sits in a corner
Loving no one
Losing hope
Losing energy to continue
A girl sits in a corner
Waiting for a superman
To rescue her from this hell hole called life
Aug 30, 2014
Aug 30, 2014 at 7:11 PM UTC