andrian - Hello Poetry

hurt. my heart hurts when the wrong words are spoken and the words don't..... stop. pain. i feel it deep, like no other, piecing my veins until a......pop. penetrating the depths of my existence, why am i here? don't tell me. i dont wanna hear it. lies you said you'll love me for my heart, but dont you come near it reason my purpose is yet to be exposed like the, dark, long black hair, of the one who wear the hijab. reason. my purpose is to what? to be loved and be lied to. pain defining my person. my past present and my future. possessing anything good is no longer in my nature dark morning when the sun is shining at its brightest, birds calling me to take on the day, but the request is denied blocked of all sunrays, no beams shine thru. heart... like my room. cold and dark, empty and.... my heart is heavy, i cant seem to see past... pain. how to deal with pain how to live past the hurt life purpose..... my purpose what is my purpose reason what is my reason for my pain no pointing fingers, but baby you are the one to blame before... there once was a time when i was... full of life... full of purpose, sunrays, and positivity . you took it from me... and i take it back with every fiber of my being i reclaim the happy me pain can only be felt, it grabbed me aggressively and carressed me i thought i was ok to feel pain.... i no longer feel the pain from you but from the generation who yet has to feel your... pain

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Sep 9, 2014

Sep 9, 2014 at 12:35 AM UTC

andrian

pain (freestyle)

hurt. my heart hurts when the wrong words are spoken and the words don't..... stop. pain. i feel it deep, like no other, piecing my veins until a......pop. penetrating the depths of my existence, why am i here? don't tell me. i dont wanna hear it. lies you said you'll love me for my heart, but dont you come near it reason my purpose is yet to be exposed like the, dark, long black hair, of the one who wear the hijab. reason. my purpose is to what? to be loved and be lied to. pain defining my person. my past present and my future. possessing anything good is no longer in my nature dark morning when the sun is shining at its brightest, birds calling me to take on the day, but the request is denied blocked of all sunrays, no beams shine thru. heart... like my room. cold and dark, empty and.... my heart is heavy, i cant seem to see past... pain. how to deal with pain how to live past the hurt life purpose..... my purpose what is my purpose reason what is my reason for my pain no pointing fingers, but baby you are the one to blame before... there once was a time when i was... full of life... full of purpose, sunrays, and positivity . you took it from me... and i take it back with every fiber of my being i reclaim the happy me pain can only be felt, it grabbed me aggressively and carressed me i thought i was ok to feel pain.... i no longer feel the pain from you but from the generation who yet has to feel your... pain

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Same life, new day, I got the same situations. My anger builds up, I get the same frustration, I make the wrong choices without the hesitation, everyday I expect something new, but why am I waiting? I keep on debating, I say things I don't like its like I'm always complaining, I smile during the day, but at night here comes the pain, and, I run from it at a steady pace, like the dreams I see in my eyes, I'm running in an empty race. What a beautiful mistake, its something that I can't take, but I'm fighting for my own sake. Only battle that you'll lose is when you fighting with fate. The fight with fate, you can never win it, because your plan was made out all the way from the beginning, so in the end, who is really winning? Its you, because you never gave up, and to the others, that's just super ugly, like too much makeup. But, don't slow your role, don't press the hand break, that's when they will think its cool to give you heart aches. Stand strong and get what you need and desire all on your own, and that's what makes an independent person strong. **** them all with kindness, this is the dead end zone, and when its all said and done. its you who conquered the throne.

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Apr 5, 2013

Apr 5, 2013 at 12:19 PM UTC

andrian

(Untitled)

Same life, new day, I got the same situations. My anger builds up, I get the same frustration, I make the wrong choices without the hesitation, everyday I expect something new, but why am I waiting? I keep on debating, I say things I don't like its like I'm always complaining, I smile during the day, but at night here comes the pain, and, I run from it at a steady pace, like the dreams I see in my eyes, I'm running in an empty race. What a beautiful mistake, its something that I can't take, but I'm fighting for my own sake. Only battle that you'll lose is when you fighting with fate. The fight with fate, you can never win it, because your plan was made out all the way from the beginning, so in the end, who is really winning? Its you, because you never gave up, and to the others, that's just super ugly, like too much makeup. But, don't slow your role, don't press the hand break, that's when they will think its cool to give you heart aches. Stand strong and get what you need and desire all on your own, and that's what makes an independent person strong. **** them all with kindness, this is the dead end zone, and when its all said and done. its you who conquered the throne.

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You may think I’m joking around, but what I’m about to tell you is all straight fact You may think I’m slacking behind on where I’m destined to be, but listen to me, don’t turn your back You might be surprised when I tell you that yes, I’m coming It might not be when you want, but when I come in my wheels are still going to be burning You’re gonna doubt my success of course, you’re gonna think that I never did earn it And this fame that I know I’m gonna get, you’re gonna think that I don’t deserve it This message I got for you, I’ll be more than honored to serve it. You are gonna see me grow stronger overtime and you’re gonna be proud of the woman I’m becoming You still think I’m not coming, but I’m and when I do, you won’t see me running You think you are ahead of me? Well check your side-view mirrors, and tell me who you see. It’s me you see and I’m going way above the speed. Objects in mirror are closer than what they appear You think I’m not gonna make it but look, I’m already here You didn’t see me coming when I was on my road to success You think I cut you off, you just didn’t see me coming and that made you upset. I know that I’m greater and not all the dollars in the world can name my value I’m made it to where I want to be and yes, I expected you to think I was mad at you. I’m conquering all obstacles and I’m taking whatever it is that has my name I’m holding the title “champion” because I already beat this game I told you I was gonna make it, don’t worry, have no shame Traded my chair for a throne, what a mighty exchange When they asking who out did them, I’ll take that blame.

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Apr 12, 2012

Apr 12, 2012 at 7:16 PM UTC

andrian

You Won't See Me Coming

You may think I’m joking around, but what I’m about to tell you is all straight fact You may think I’m slacking behind on where I’m destined to be, but listen to me, don’t turn your back You might be surprised when I tell you that yes, I’m coming It might not be when you want, but when I come in my wheels are still going to be burning You’re gonna doubt my success of course, you’re gonna think that I never did earn it And this fame that I know I’m gonna get, you’re gonna think that I don’t deserve it This message I got for you, I’ll be more than honored to serve it. You are gonna see me grow stronger overtime and you’re gonna be proud of the woman I’m becoming You still think I’m not coming, but I’m and when I do, you won’t see me running You think you are ahead of me? Well check your side-view mirrors, and tell me who you see. It’s me you see and I’m going way above the speed. Objects in mirror are closer than what they appear You think I’m not gonna make it but look, I’m already here You didn’t see me coming when I was on my road to success You think I cut you off, you just didn’t see me coming and that made you upset. I know that I’m greater and not all the dollars in the world can name my value I’m made it to where I want to be and yes, I expected you to think I was mad at you. I’m conquering all obstacles and I’m taking whatever it is that has my name I’m holding the title “champion” because I already beat this game I told you I was gonna make it, don’t worry, have no shame Traded my chair for a throne, what a mighty exchange When they asking who out did them, I’ll take that blame.

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