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If I said that I loved my life that wouldn't be the truth, but if I said that I hated it, I'd still be lying, it's not what I wanted for myself when I was a youth, **** it, I don't care, I'm gonna keep on trying, to get with this dream in which the means stay unseen, to do what I want and and still fulfill what I need, to get to the top and still remain humble, to catch my happy ending no matter much I've fumbled, I'll go through the trials, I'll pay all my dues, and I won't just be another of the million fuckin' yous. I'll stay strong even though I have substantial weakness, I'll keep positive when it seems like naught but bleakness, I can have my cake and eat it if I pick a different flavor, One step at a time, walk the line, out of my own disfavor. My life is my own, no matter what you have told, just need to find a new perception, Though it's drastically altered, the life of the father does not end at conception. When his mom left, I lost my son in my mind, in dark times, I went out in public to hide, the drink was my best friend, my lover, I couldn't tell one day apart from another, when I went to bed every night, my thoughts were the same, what's the best place in my house to tie a rope to hang, Then I wanted to just leave, go Californi-way, but my sanity resurfaced, begging me to stay, told me I need to stop thinking just of what I want now, get this veil in front of my eyes to lift somehow, I need to fight for what's really important, and I can't do it all, I'm not omnipotent, but the worst fear that I've ever ******* had, is my son to not know me, not recognize his dad, so no matter what, that's objective number one, and for once in my life, I won't hide, I won't run. Rap's not my career, I’d like it to be, but the eight ball says, “Outlook is bleak”, So I went back to school, to get a degree, cause sometimes you gotta tie yourself down to be free. Not what I dreamed as a kid, but I'm not a kid anymore, I'm getting with the idea of being a capitalist ***** The great thing about dreams is that there's malleable, I don't have to give up if one goes unfulfilled, A fork in the road is not a dead end, and my soul's not yet so broken that I can not mend. So I'll walk this path, doing what I'd rather not, so that in the end I'll have what I really want, the respect of my son, and life free of poverty, a home on the water, whatever body it may be, and when I close my eyes for my final rest, to review my life with minimal regrets.
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Jul 11, 2011
Jul 11, 2011 at 6:36 PM UTC
andrew-thomas
My Paths
If I said that I loved my life that wouldn't be the truth, but if I said that I hated it, I'd still be lying, it's not what I wanted for myself when I was a youth, **** it, I don't care, I'm gonna keep on trying, to get with this dream in which the means stay unseen, to do what I want and and still fulfill what I need, to get to the top and still remain humble, to catch my happy ending no matter much I've fumbled, I'll go through the trials, I'll pay all my dues, and I won't just be another of the million fuckin' yous. I'll stay strong even though I have substantial weakness, I'll keep positive when it seems like naught but bleakness, I can have my cake and eat it if I pick a different flavor, One step at a time, walk the line, out of my own disfavor. My life is my own, no matter what you have told, just need to find a new perception, Though it's drastically altered, the life of the father does not end at conception. When his mom left, I lost my son in my mind, in dark times, I went out in public to hide, the drink was my best friend, my lover, I couldn't tell one day apart from another, when I went to bed every night, my thoughts were the same, what's the best place in my house to tie a rope to hang, Then I wanted to just leave, go Californi-way, but my sanity resurfaced, begging me to stay, told me I need to stop thinking just of what I want now, get this veil in front of my eyes to lift somehow, I need to fight for what's really important, and I can't do it all, I'm not omnipotent, but the worst fear that I've ever ******* had, is my son to not know me, not recognize his dad, so no matter what, that's objective number one, and for once in my life, I won't hide, I won't run. Rap's not my career, I’d like it to be, but the eight ball says, “Outlook is bleak”, So I went back to school, to get a degree, cause sometimes you gotta tie yourself down to be free. Not what I dreamed as a kid, but I'm not a kid anymore, I'm getting with the idea of being a capitalist ***** The great thing about dreams is that there's malleable, I don't have to give up if one goes unfulfilled, A fork in the road is not a dead end, and my soul's not yet so broken that I can not mend. So I'll walk this path, doing what I'd rather not, so that in the end I'll have what I really want, the respect of my son, and life free of poverty, a home on the water, whatever body it may be, and when I close my eyes for my final rest, to review my life with minimal regrets.
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