andrea-duvall
American
i live in Augusta, im a bookworm and an introvert, a dreamer and a make believer, perpetually confused and abruptly honest. / / its probably obvious, but most of my poems are written very quickly just to get my point out. / i apologize for any crappiness. / / "I tried and therefore you should not criticize me."- snl.
I've found a new love
He's the sweetest thing
I'm warm and safe
I'm grateful & happy
I'm trying to be brave
Because... Loving is scary
You see,
He's clever Like a crisp autumn morning
joyful like a warm summers day
He radiates kindness
That reminds me of spring grass
with dew
hes soft and kind and good
And true
...
See, I've been too lucky.
I've never been this lucky.
For my track record, I'm overdue.
Im beyond scared that
I could loose him too
Loving scares me
To
find someone who..
Makes music sound louder
jokes seem funnier
And the world seem brighter
My life has been softer
He's my light and my knight.
He's my home and my heart.
It would break me
Again
If we were apart.
Will it help me hold him tight-
That we'll be Married?
Or will I need to balance the task of wife
Just right?
Jul 13, 2025
Jul 13, 2025 at 1:40 AM UTC
this is a girl
with a steel spine
whose been hurt too many times
this is a girl
whose let too many people treat her wrong
and who wont stand for it any longer.
this is a girl who will not put her happiness in other peoples hands, no one is allowed to make her unhappy.
this is a girl.. who can cut someone off
and acted like they never even existed
and i am the girl who has.
Jul 29, 2016
Jul 29, 2016 at 2:27 AM UTC
how could you say i didnt try?
when i was drowning in my own words
trying to get through to you.
and you could have choked on all the words
that you kept inside.
money spent doesnt equal love won.
not to me at least-
i never felt like you loved me
existing doesnt mean you tried
i wanted to see your heart,
i wanted to hear your true feelings
because god, i was pouring mine out to you.
ripping out my heart to you.
how could you ignore me
when my heart was breaking?
how could you ignore me
if you actually loved me?
despite what you say
your actions tell me the truth
you never loved me-
-and now youre done pretending to-
Dec 13, 2015
Dec 13, 2015 at 11:08 PM UTC
theres all these things i want
that you say that youll do
though you never plan on actually coming through
i let you raise my hopes
and look forwards to you all day
i cant wait
i cant wait
i cant wait
and then you never respond
never show up
never let me know that again you've driven home
you break my heart and i let you.
you break promises and i let you .
im dumb enough to still hope that you'll keep them
boy imma take these silver linings
from the storms that you keep giving me
im gonna grow, im gonna learn
and someday im gonna get away
im gonna keep improving
getting better every day
you boy,
you're a learning experience
teaching me never to trust
and never to believe
that things will never happen like they do in my dreams
you keep teaching me
not to put my happiness in other peoples hands
not to hope for anything that i cant guarantee
and never
to never
expect the wrong people to love me.
Oct 4, 2015
Oct 4, 2015 at 12:14 AM UTC
I lie in my room,
In the evening dimness.
In the summers dying heat
and stare out my window
up to the ever shifting branches
searching through to find glaces
of the end of day sky.
i listen to the cicadas
the crickets and the owls
we used to do this.
we would lie in the twilight swathed in blankets,
hips touching, hands brushing,
we would contemplate life
just feeling this endless moment
its beautiful serene stillness
where we don't have to do anything
where our breathing is amplified in the quiet
and the loudest thing in the room is how close to me you are
for me, these moments are now just loneliness.
because my room is the same in the grey light..
but it is no longer drenched with that wistful longing
to finally reach that next still moment, staring at the sky.
its now just grey and empty.
a lonely picture at the end of a lonely day.
i wonder sometimes if you miss how it was
do you look back to the soft silence of my room
wanting to hide in its serenity?
and more-
do you ever..
miss me?
Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 1:07 AM UTC
When you've finally resigned
yourself to fall asleep
instead of Yearning
for the last attentions from loved ones,
when you lay in your bed
Where you were once kissed..
and all of your thoughts turn
to those who you miss
though, there was never really love
in their eyes
it was on their Lips,
and you were drunk on their lies.
you miss the feeling of possibility,
the hope of so desired affection.
And now you have no chances
Of being tucked into bed
Of no kisses tonight..
and now
you have no one
to tell you
goodnight.
Jun 28, 2015
Jun 28, 2015 at 12:56 AM UTC
your egregious efforts
to impress me
in your
articulate profoundness
in order to
assert dominance over me
not only
aggravates and amuses me
but disappoints me.
because i thought you were better than that
Jun 17, 2014
Jun 17, 2014 at 4:23 AM UTC
it hurts me to see you
to hear you speak
with a smile in your voice
not directed at me
but at something painful to hear
your voice directed at who i compete
its an ache in my chest and ice in my throat
and an anger id never thought that id know
that you speak to girls
when you broke up with me
because you needed to be single
to fix your failing sanity.
you told me you needed
to be on your own
and i loved you so i
unwillingly let you go
i thought you couldn't even talk to me
i thought you were really in pain
you used suicide as an excuse
and i was so scared that i let you walk away
but i see you a month later
and i realize
you couldn't do me then honor of honesty
****
you
because
you flirt with these girls
while i burn inside
and i crush the tender love
that im trying so hard to hide.
you hurt me.
you hurt me.
You could have just told me the truth.
Jun 17, 2014
Jun 17, 2014 at 3:44 AM UTC
the worst part
is when i have the dream
where i find you in a crowd
and you weren't expecting me
but you turn and instantly
start kissing me.
so naturally you instantly
just hold me and love me
and im safe in your arms
im yours again
it feels so wonderful,
this dream feels real
but it hits like a hammer
when i lie in my bed awake
and know
that ill never have you again.
that you'll never love me again.
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 3:00 PM UTC
i try and i try but i cannot sleep
when i close my eyes i can only weep
May 7, 2014
May 7, 2014 at 4:00 AM UTC