I swear I felt your hand in mine,
Your breath against my neck for a brief moment in time.
I guess my brain is telling me lies,
As it does every night since our August goodbyes.
The silence creeps in through that crack in the wall,
Much like my heart no one’s come to fix it and I continue to fall.
I beg and plead for you to remember our favorite night,
The very same one that we had our first fight.
Do you remember the stars shinning so bright?
A cliché that would be misused on any other night.
We jumped in the water as if it were planned,
No wonder I ever fell in love with such a man.
Jan 20, 2014
Jan 20, 2014 at 6:38 PM UTC
“Don’t go out there,” she said.
“Why,” I gulped, trying to listen.
As soon as I asked,
I knew.
The spirits had taken over you.
This wasn't the man I wanted;
The one who I found loving and strong.
Maybe I had been mistaken about you,
All along.
Jan 19, 2014
Jan 19, 2014 at 12:38 AM UTC
I like when you’re all cuddled up with me,
I watch your chest rise and fall so gracefully.
I trace the lines on your stomach,
The crevices that make up your tense back,
As we nuzzle up,
For a well-deserved nap.
Your heartbeat slows,
As your breath quickens.
I still myself,
So I can simply listen.
No happier will I ever be,
Than you lying here next to me.
Jan 19, 2014
Jan 19, 2014 at 12:37 AM UTC
Slow and painful wins the race,
to a life full of sorrow and disgrace.
I can't go this venture alone.
Please- I beg of you,
pick up the phone.
I need your voice,
the one that smooths and calms.
I need to hear your shallow breathing,
on the end of this call.
I can't bare the thought of being alone.
Jan 19, 2014
Jan 19, 2014 at 12:33 AM UTC
Like every other girl whose been left alone,
Here I am waiting by this old phone.
I pretend to keep myself occupied,
Because I don’t want anyone to see me cry.
How could you have left me with a simple sigh?
It’s as if you were only awaiting a time to say goodbye.
Today all I have done is tell a million lies,
If only I could hear “I miss you” one more time.
Like every other girl whose been made a fool,
What’s this life if I can’t have you?
Jan 19, 2014
Jan 19, 2014 at 12:13 AM UTC
Why do I always want someone,
when they're gone?
Why do I find them so alluring,
when we are over and done?
I call you the coward,
you the liar,
you the thief,
you the heart breaker,
but I'm the home wrecker.
I do it on purpose you know,
I lead them on;
tell them I love them,
when I don't.
I said that I would never say I loved someone when I didn't mean it,
but I don't love you.
Feb 22, 2013
Feb 22, 2013 at 4:51 PM UTC
It's getting dark.
It's getting cold.
I might not love you,
but that doesn't mean feelings can't unfold.
You hold me,
close to your heart.
I wait for your call,
I feel as if I will never part from your arms.
Strange how he's,
no longer apart of me.
You took his place,
faster than the speed my heart does race.
Dec 21, 2012
Dec 21, 2012 at 11:31 PM UTC
He is so kind,
I wanted him to be mine.
But now that you're gone,
I find it hard to move on.
Is it bad that I long for you?
What else should I do?
I'm your Sally Hayes,
the one you pushed away.
Maybe I'd be better on my own,
instead of running from home to home.
The world is far to cold,
to trust anyone who's far too bold.
The right one will come along,
but I have waited far too long.
I don't care if you can't offer more,
I need you behind closed doors.
Dec 11, 2012
Dec 11, 2012 at 1:21 PM UTC
Things, at times, are so much simpler than we make them.
Sometimes, he doesn't love you.
Sometimes, we cry.
Sometimes, he won't stay.
Sometimes, he does love you.
Sometimes, it was just a good day.
Sometimes, he is going to stay.
We can't explain everything. We lose what we want and stumble upon better.
We question and wonder, but this doesn't mean that you have some complex disorder that will change your life. You don't need anything more than to know that things just happen.
Dec 9, 2012
Dec 9, 2012 at 12:49 PM UTC
I've been crazy,
since the day I was born.
A little lazy,
and always torn.
But it's okay,
I'll succeed anyway.
You say I can be happy on my own,
that I am just phony who never picks up the phone,
but I refuse to believe that tonight.
I only know who I want to be,
I don't know who I am
it's getting hard to see.
It's two a.m.,
still won't answer the phone,
he calls but I'm not alone.
I crave your bitter honesty,
how you drown in every insecurity,
you are the only one I know who scares me.
I'm a friend you say,
but one you can't tell anything to.
You push me away,
then blame me through and through.
You trusted her more,
then she threw your secrets out the door.
Hold me oh so tight,
please I don't want to fight.
I know you hate me and I can't see you anymore.
I've never cared for someone like you,
I hate the way you criticize me for what you do.
Go back to the one you love,
you don't care enough to leave.
Go live your life,
forget about this temporary bliss.
Unrequited love is such a bore.
Dec 8, 2012
Dec 8, 2012 at 10:32 AM UTC