I clench my eyes with angst,
My heart thumped out of my chest
I still recall you attempting to warm your hands
But when your hand grasped my mouth
Your hand remained cold as ice
As you try to explain if I do this thing I am nice
I know it doesn't matter so I just lay
I pray
And pray you will possibly just leave
But I hold this every time, you never leave
You strip my childhood the same time
as you strip my clothes.
Yet I still feel every part of you.
Do you ever truly feel remorseful?
Cause sincerely at this point I'm just enraged
Enraged you got to go live and find love
I'm stuck as I perceive it's not in store for me, love
Who can love a soul so defeated I ask
Who can love me picking up my broken shards off the floor I ask
Who wants to help me get off the floor you put me on
You shoved me farther and farther down
Each experience, a different person brings me farther down
I now appear to be so down low
I grew to become the floor
For souls to rest on and forget when they no longer feel low
They come to me and destroy me though I am not as low you
I will never be as low as you
I refuse to let myself
While I am on the ground I see you under me,
tugging on me attempting to drag me deeper
but I refuse to be as low as you
I will never stoop down to wherever you are
Because you don't label me
You are merely a tiny portion of me
Not all of me just merely a blink in my timeline
Jan 27, 2019
Jan 27, 2019 at 10:10 AM UTC