why must I feel so deeply
I wish I felt nothing at all
feeling nothing would feel better
than drowning in a pool made solely of my tears
I’d rather drown than float and struggle
I’d rather sink than try to swim
I’d rather have a sea of sorrow fill my lungs than have light around me be so dim
I wish I felt nothing
Mar 6, 2022
Mar 6, 2022 at 4:02 AM UTC
I’m being handed erasers
when all I’ve ever known is the smell of ink
I’m feeling so clueless
I don’t know what I think
I’m like a bird born in a cage
who does not know what wings are for
while others fly, I sit and cry
because I don’t know why…
Mar 6, 2022
Mar 6, 2022 at 3:45 AM UTC
i am a lightbulb
hanging from the ceiling
attached to a string
you pull when you need the light
and as you find comfort in darkness
you stop pulling the string
i then start to realize you can see in the dark
and never needed my gleam
you used my flare
until it started to fade
along with all i had left to give
at least you don’t pull my string anymore
and as you find a match to light
i am a now just a lifeless lightbulb
hanging from the ceiling
Jan 19, 2021
Jan 19, 2021 at 8:39 AM UTC
not sick, but not well
physically capable
yet feeling so drained
May 12, 2020
May 12, 2020 at 4:19 PM UTC
I am certain that you don’t
And quite possibly never did
But if I ask you if you ever loved me
Even just for a day
Please tell me a comforting lie
May 9, 2020
May 9, 2020 at 10:32 PM UTC
Hey Moon, I love you
When you light up the clear sky
Sun, don’t come out yet
May 9, 2020
May 9, 2020 at 10:09 PM UTC
Without knowing what else to do
What else to write
I sit and glare at a book only half finished
I look for help
Nothing seems to help my writer’s block
Getting rid of a character might do the trick
The protagonist?
Maybe?
Or maybe not
I don’t know
I’m just tired of writing this autobiography
May 7, 2020
May 7, 2020 at 10:56 PM UTC
To taste the sounds
To turn back time
To read in complete darkness
To travel faster than light
All would have to be possible
For me to forgive
May 7, 2020
May 7, 2020 at 9:09 PM UTC