We speak of You
Sing of Your glory
We are awed by Your greatness
We go by trying to convince this world
That what we do is live for You
But we contradict our outspoken love
Share a picture
In the morning something depicting Your love
At night something to fill another heart with lust
Social media shows our double mindedness
Yet we are not ashamed
We preach sin and forgiveness
But we do not speak of how much better we should be
Go and tell a stranger they should learn the truth
And we turn around and share our sins
We wonder why the world can't see past us
Why can't they see that we are human not perfect
But they do see what we share
And we are not sharing Your love
So how do we preach what should be
And not live more like it?
How can we convince a stranger
Or a loved one
To be more like you, Jesus
If we are not edifying ourselves
But putting You to shame
Jul 29, 2014
Jul 29, 2014 at 10:17 PM UTC
Well again it's my favorite day of the year
A day I get to celebrate you
I get to thank you for all that you've done
To tell you how I see your hard work
I will always remember all our family trips
All our weekends together
And how they were perfect because you're
The one that made it all l happen
I will always have with me
All that you've taught me
Thank you for the times I was grounded
And thank you for the rewards when I fought through
You're the one that holds all our weight
How could we ever get by without you...
I'll tell you how exactly
Even in the years that you were there
You were never really there
All the problems were actually you
You being gone is even better than you being here
How can you possibly call yourself a dad
All you really did was help conceive
How could I celebrate you
What would I even have to say to you
You never taught me anything a father would
I could thank you though
Thank you for leaving
That may be the only thing you did right in our life
You left my mom with no option
She had to be the strong one
The one that grounded me
Because yea I was a bad kid
I was a mess just thinking I needed you
But you know what
Now I know how much I really don't
She's the one that did all the hard work
Just so she could reward me when I fought through
She's the one that holds our weight
She's the one we could never get by without
So today is a bitter sweet kind of day
And in the end it's ok
Cuz right beside me is the most wonderful father anyone could ask for
So Happy Father's day mom
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 8:14 PM UTC
The time is passing and it still feels like the first day .
The pain and the disbelief in knowing I could never see you ever again.
That I would never see your smile light up a room.
Your joy lighten the mood.
The littlest things are embedded in my heart.
When you said forever.
You accepted all the change.
You embraced the time together.
I embrace the memories now.
Because all that I have is your memory.
It's always a struggle to remind myself.
I can't call you.
I can't text you.
I can't see you.
If I could only dream of you tonight.
Just to see you if at least in my sleep.
If I could only hold you my friend.
Tell you how much exactly you mean to me.
How well we understood each other.
And the most important part of our friendship,
That was never spoken.
How much I wish I could go back and tell you.
You took a piece of my heart with you.
The days I see your face in a crowd are the hardest.
Those days for a second I think of reaching for my phone.
Those days I wish it was you.
I wish I could run up and hold you and realize I've been asleep.
But I'm falling asleep as I wish I could.
When I wake up,
it is that my heart sinks lower than before.
Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 2:10 AM UTC
Hey my little one I hope that as you're reading this life is treating you good.
I promise when I get out of here I'm gonna take you..
I promise when I get out we're gonna go do..
I promise I'm gonna be there..
All your letters
All the same
All through the years
All meaning is void
Just letters making up words
I know so well not to believe
Yet here I am hopefully waiting
On something I fear may never be
They tell me stories
They share their experiences
But none will change
What you have already done
They tell me to love you
But they don't know how much I do
So much
I often wish I didn't
For you
Are the cause of my pain
But I could never hate you
And you could never say
I haven't tried
But all your words are empty
In my heart
All you left
Is a hole
Big enough
To make sure
No one could
Replace what you took
Jan 24, 2014
Jan 24, 2014 at 4:46 AM UTC
What defines you as a person
As a man
As a woman
It is not your money
Nor your car
It is not the house you live in
It is not the things you own
You are not the clothes you wear
You are not your weight
Nor you height
You are not defined by your job
What makes you less
Or greater than the next person
For society to make you believe
That to achieve greatness you must be rich
But riches leave you with nothing
Is a man with power any more
Likely to be better than one on minimum wage
A man makes more than he can spend
Pulls up on a 2014 Lexus
He rolls up his window
To ignore a beggar
A cashier trying to make ends meet
Pulls up on a beat up 2000 Pontiac
Running low on gas
Waiting for the next paycheck
Here's a dollar its all I got today
And all I got
Is more than what he has
He gets to eat a hamburger today
Because of that last dollar
So your money can mean it all for you
So you think you're a big success
But you are not defined by your money
Jan 24, 2014
Jan 24, 2014 at 3:08 AM UTC
In Your arms
I first felt the smallest
The weakest
The most insignificant
The ugliest
So flawed
In your arms
I first felt the greatest
The strongest
Most important
Most Beautiful
So perfect
In your arms only
Have these emotions
Mixed so perfectly
To let me fall before you
To be all for you
For you to be all for me
To love you
With my heart
In Your hands
Jan 23, 2014
Jan 23, 2014 at 3:52 AM UTC
I was blind
My soul lost
My heart empty
Now I see
Filled with love
Joy, Jesus gives
Jesus only, can
In His name I was reborn
With His blood I was saved
He gave His life for me
I cannot give Him enough
And He is happy with just my love and loyalty
With my praise
So my Lord I will praise
Jesus I will
I give my life to you
My perfect King
My savior
I give You my heart
To be closer to You
To love You more, Jesus
For every breath
Every step
You have blessed me with
My God is great
My God forgives
Only He is perfect
And does not ask us to be
But to love
He changed me for better
But only at my will
My God loves me
So my Lord I will praise
Jan 23, 2014
Jan 23, 2014 at 3:46 AM UTC
Beautiful soul
Taken over by pain
Overwhelmed with love
And no one to respond
You hide so well
What you truly feel
But to know
In my heart
To see your pain
In your eyes
You smile
But your eyes
Tell a different story
Your solution
Wrong
To take something
So precious
To take a life
To leave this pain
Only to wish
To have you
In my arms
If only one last time
If only to tell you
How much I really loved you
How I really cared
If I could only stop you
Take away everything
That caused your pain
Best friend
Your place
In my heart
Will never know
Time
To take your memories
Jan 23, 2014
Jan 23, 2014 at 3:44 AM UTC
You ask me how I feel
You say something sweet
You flirt
You say I should smile more
You say I'm sarcastic
You say I'm bitter
But do you remember shooting me down when I tried?
So I cannot tell you
Because you don't listen
I cannot show you
Because you'll run away
I cannot love you
Because you will never feel the same
I cannot smile
Because you'll make me cry
I cannot tell you something real
Because you'll laugh
I cannot be happy
Because you've hurt me too much
I cannot, should not let you in
But my heart won't let you stay out
So here I am broken again
Because I tried once more
And once more you shot me down
Oct 11, 2011
Oct 11, 2011 at 3:43 AM UTC
I wish you'd realize how much we needed you growing up.
How simple our lives could've been.
But I guess that doesn't matter, does it?
You're off with your new woman trying to have your kid.
While we wait here and hope to get better.
You've been the cause all along.
Yes that one small mistake changed our whole future.
And I see you don't even bother to ask.
See you had the chance
To do good.
And to be good.
To us and our mother.
But you chose them and now you're just gone.
Not that you were ever really there.
I gotta say that's a great choice you made there daddy.
To go out and get caught doing what you do.
When you should've been home!
You could've been good daddy.
But i guess it comes back to the same deal.
You made the wrong choice.
I hope I didn't forget to tell you, but
Hey dad I'm depressed.
Yea daddy they put me on meds and everything.
You wanna know why?
Well I guess you don't.
But I'll tell you anyway.
You remember those nights we spent with you?
Yea that first summer in Mexico.
Remember what you used to do late at night?
Well daddy it came back and hit me even harder.
You see my friends laughed and joked around.
About that one word.
And well dad that day I was hospitalized cuz I had a panic attack in the middle of class.
Oh another thing
My arms, they look great.
Yea you know with scars all over them cuz I'm oversensitive.
I wonder why that is daddy
Well my birthdays coming up
I hope you remember to call since its the only time I get to hear your voice.
Sep 7, 2010
Sep 7, 2010 at 5:11 AM UTC