like water in the palm of your hand
i fell right through the cracks
its like losing everything at once -
but carelessly feeling nothing at all
abrasion is more satisfying than my
skin in the palms of someone else
all around me i see blurred out faces
they're blood thirsty than ever before
but not i - quite the opposite i stand
and dry heave over their yearn
beauty is designed for pleasure
which is okay - but admire from afar
even the most priceless masterpieces
are destroyed by touch
a.d
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:06 AM UTC
i hear you breathe with every beat
it rattles through my ribs
whispers through my hair
echoes through my veins
but you still won’t believe
just come home….
a.d
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 1:52 AM UTC
my heart, darker than the night sky turns black
from such sadness you have clouded me grey.
oh, how i dream someone will mix in white.
on a rainy day i start to think back
to when we’d spend time watching the trees sway;
fluorescent green and yellow shine - not black.
i noticed how your love began to lack
a smile so genuine; no longer gay.
your brand-new shirts are blood stained and off-white.
your sudden change-of-heart gave mine a crack;
paralyzed for weeks, i watch curtains fray
and lovers overwhelmed with joy - not black.
just like a train with rails off the track,
i haven’t moved in weeks, wishing you’d lay
with me one last time - to mix in some white.
love letters i write to you form a stack
in the bottom drawer of my desk, they stay
and my heart becomes a little less black;
since i figured out how to add some white.
Dec 6, 2016
Dec 6, 2016 at 3:34 PM UTC
my breathing hurts; without you i see stars.
brown eyes dilate and my warm heart boasts,
hardly focused and you’ve too many bars.
pushed away but you know that i care most
i roll over in the sheets you just spread
but you can’t even look me in the eye
so you decided love is buríed
and the idea of us must soon die
my heart is sick of putting up a fight,
ever since you held me i have foil’d.
the hardest thing is feeling very quite
of you, and with every sigh, i’m toil’d.
just know you’ll always be my beloved
and i’ll remember you wanted me removed
a.d
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 1:45 PM UTC
they say its the energy
with the way we walked
our shoulders briefly grazing
locked eye to eye
they would always say
its the way you looked at me
and how i’d get beat red in the
face when you’d laugh
its been way too long
i’ve known you for an eternity
and yet we’ve never let
our planets collide. i know
you know it would shake
jupiter and all its moons;
stars would explode,
galaxies would cry...
a.d
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 1:42 PM UTC
for the last time
i am going with
my own mind
you have left me
hunting shadows
and tracing my veins
you begged and pleaded but
is that what you needed?
I’m downing pills
but still
nothing is even close to
being the same
I guess that’ll do
I guess that’s how
I’ll have to get by
a.d
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 1:39 PM UTC
sad mistakes
heartbreaks
aching heart
restart
efforts made
betrayed
******* numb
nauseam
another day
replayed
replayed
a.d
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 1:39 PM UTC
patching the cracks and crevices
inflicted on the walls,
he puts no effort into fixing them
but somehow
its all starting to smooth out perfectly
the deep gashes start to close
and abundant flowers grow
from the worst seams
his green eyes flutter
and he just stands and watches
in awe, in amazement, in bliss
he steps back from his masterpiece
so beautiful and complete
he grabs her by the waist
and kisses her with all of the
passion he has generated
over the 20 years of living
without someone to love
a.d
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 1:35 PM UTC
can’t see through the clouds surrounding my mind
my stomach aches and burns for answers
answers i feel i may never find under my skin
to this day, my mind still spins and throbs
so rapidly that i travel back into time
the time where i’d live each day with
frigid insides, turning a darker shade
of blue each day while my heart
went away to learn how to function
without any blood
without any emotion
i survived off of the tears of my
loved ones, since i ran dry
long, long ago
a.d
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 1:33 PM UTC
when the sun forgets to come up
if you don’t know who you’ve become
revert back to what’s kept you alive
the things that helped you survive
even through the toughest of times
stay true to yourself for your lifetime
fight for the things dearest to you
keep them for when your hearts blue
follow the instincts you swear are wrong
and you will find where you belong
forget those days of being so depressed
that you throw up until you see stars
or when you smoke 4 whole cigars
utilize your beautiful strengths;
your heart will follow, to unmeasurable
lengths
a.d
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 1:31 PM UTC