Throughout the process
My body takes a hit
I grip my thighs, look into my eyes
I don’t recognise it one bit
I grab my loose stomach and
Flinch at the tender touch
I run my fingers slowly through my hair
It’s too fragile for a brush
Milk soaked shirts and
Blood stained shorts
I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve cried
Just by exploring my thoughts
They keep pestering me over and over
“How do you feel?
There are resources to make you feel okay”
I tell them “I ’m just trying to survive the day”
Throughout the process
My mind takes a hit
I grip onto my mind, my thoughts send shivers down my spine
I don’t recognise myself one bit
Jan 9, 2024
Jan 9, 2024 at 7:37 AM UTC
That night, the back of your head was such a sight to see. Your worn-but-new sneakers slamming against the pavement was a symphony, the volume decreasing with every step. Your hands running through your hair in angst after being gelled to your forehead by sweat. Lastly, you throw your head over your shoulder for one.
Last.
Look.
You were the devil in disguise under the muted yellow street light. Your expression sent a thousand messages, but mine only expressed one.
I’m free.
Jan 9, 2024
Jan 9, 2024 at 7:31 AM UTC
sixteen
Innocent and sweet
But only to you
Was I seductive and a treat
seventeen
You said to your mates again
“What I would do to her if she was legal”
What a bad first impression of men
Jan 4, 2022
Jan 4, 2022 at 12:29 AM UTC
And it didn't surprise me that
you cheated on board games too
Every time we went out
I saw you searching for someone new
I wish I trusted my instincts
I wish I knew all of my thoughts were true
But you will never understand
what you put me through
You move your piece three times
when you rolled a two
Despite all of this
I still gave my hard earned win to you
Nov 27, 2017
Nov 27, 2017 at 8:13 PM UTC
I'm seeing you around again
But this time, not as it seems
Now i can see you walking down the streets
Of my imaginative and delusional dreams
In my dreams, you would hold me
Like you always said you would
Way before i pulled away and
Said all of these words neither of us understood
Aug 30, 2016
Aug 30, 2016 at 6:45 AM UTC
You live in,
A broken home,
With a shattered window,
And a disconnected phone.
You travel with,
Your broken feet,
With rough pathways,
Leading to a blocked off street.
You see through,
Black and white eyes,
With a look so unwelcoming, tiring,
As you're badly disguised.
You sing as,
A bird in the woods,
Soothing and caring,
But fading away from the neighbourhoods.
I listen to your broken voice,
On a broken street,
With your broken eyes,
Hearing your broken heart beat.
And now I'm slowly breaking,
Make room for me,
Because with you on a broken street,
Is where I'm destined to be.
Oct 26, 2015
Oct 26, 2015 at 5:27 PM UTC
As he called out for help
He wasn't surprised to find
The waves crashing in
And out of his mind
He was aggressively shoved
And lost in the cold sand
But he didn't miss the opportunity
To take the winds hand
Swept off his feet
He glides back into the sea
His mind aches with sorrow
Disappointed of what he couldn't be
But tonight he would cry out
For anything stronger than himself
Just so he could be
Restored back to his normal health
The waves take him further
And he falls deeper into his head
Afraid and shocked to see
If this road will get him dead
He's had enough now
There was nothing left to find
He fell too deep into the waves
Crashing in and out of his mind
Feb 8, 2015
Feb 8, 2015 at 7:44 AM UTC
There's no doubt you're a lier
Just a boy who plays with fire
Not a fraction of desire
To aim any higher
There's no doubt I'm an inspiration
Playing on your broken-hearted situation
I could never cancel the operation
But from you, I never got an explanation
There's no doubt you're pleasing
Played with your heart, my hands are freezing
My mind in your hands, you're squeezing
But never would you be so appeasing
There's no doubt that I'm a cheat
With your soul with mine, we'll compete
You know I'll never admit to defeat
Even while I know we're bittersweet
There's no doubt that we're fighting
Our minds are colliding
Even though none of this is exciting
Your arms will always look so inviting
There's no doubt we like to pretend
That maybe I’m more than a friend
And you’re just a hand to lend
But everything has to come to an end
Theres no doubt you were a lover
Helping each other to recover
At 1 am, you’d make me shudder
Maybe theres time to rediscover
Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 7:03 AM UTC
compare me to the sun
compare me to the sea
tell me how i should act
tell me how i should be
the sun will still shine
the waves will still move
I will still be living
whether i win or lose
but your world is darkened
by the lack of sun
and forever it will stay that way
whether you've lost or won
so compare me to her heart
compare me to gold in her core
tell me how to love you
but I won't play that role anymore
Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 8:18 AM UTC
Somedays I like
Drinking coffee with the rain
I like the hot sensation on my tongue
And to watch rain fall again and again
But somedays I wake up
Without anything to do at all
So I lay in bed, think of my purpose instead
And figure out why I am so small
It hurts to know
The days I spend in bed
Nobody will run for company
They put me to the back of their head
Maybe just once
Id wake up with a call or text
Just to remind myself
Maybe I couldn't be alone next
But somedays I wake up
Wishing my loneliness to disappear
But tomorrow I won't wake up
Because now my final date is clear
Tonight I will surrender
To myself I say, "it's for the best.
So somedays now I won't
Have to go back to rest."
Because this loneliness
Cannot be cured
It's inside my head
Never to be assured
Inside my mind
A single soul standing alone
My thoughts only staying around
But never to call my own
Somedays I don't wake up
Somedays I don't even rest
Because my loneliness will stand alone
It's really for the best
May 31, 2014
May 31, 2014 at 5:16 AM UTC