amanda-edmonson
American
I'm Amanda, im 17 and i havnt been writing that long. I could never write a poem to save my life. After my boyfriend(ex) broke up with me it all started flowing and more things..I'm not all the great so im srry but i try to write meaningful stuff.You might not understand some things..i hide codes about my poems in them:))
**Never again will i meet a guy so amazing,
so strong with love,
so sweet with smiles,
so cute with looks,
so amazing that im speechless,
i can't believe your mine...
do i deserve my baby boo?
he is all mine and i wont complain.
He is the #1 best boyfriend i have ever had!
i can see a life with him and more..
i dont have one doubt in my mind that im not in love with him
my baby boo....
this is for you
<3**
Feb 25, 2011
Feb 25, 2011 at 6:13 AM UTC
**As i know people don't like to hear this much
And is hurts me as much as as it will others.
I don't want these words to come out of my mouth,
as i know they will eventually.
but eventually don't they all?
I don't think i will ever see you again,
and that breaks my heart,
if i let go now, maybe it will hurt less.
I must say you kept me happy for a while.
Your kisses seemed to save what was left of me,
your eyes made me shine like the sun coming in your window,
and just for a little while,
your touch made me safe.
I will never pretend you did not exist in my life
Because that would be a lie.
But as i hate to say but have to say.
It's time to say goodbye.**
Feb 23, 2011
Feb 23, 2011 at 2:30 PM UTC
*I never cried,
because i didn't love you.
You never saw me cry,
because i didn't let myself.
You were never my drug,
because i never got addicted.
I never fell,
i never got that whole in love thing.
It never hurt to say goodbye.
I never looked like the fool,
because you were the one playing my game.
You weren't special to me,
because it never got to that point.
I never cared for you in my heart,
because you wouldn't let me.
I never fought for you,
because you weren't worth fighting for.
Your kisses didn't light me up.
Your hugs didn't make me feel warm.
Your cuddles didn't add a spark.
Your words didn't have any meaning.
All because i knew you would hurt me.
Though i wish this was all true,
You did see me cry,
because there was nothing else i could do.
You were my drug,
because i felt i needed you every night and day, just to breath.
I did fall for you,
I got the whole in love thing, because its real.
It hurt the most to say goodbye.
I looked like the fool,
because i'm the one that played your game.
You were very special to me,
because it DID get to that point.
I did care for you in my heart,
because you were the first to let me in.
I tried fighting for you,
because you were my love.
Your kisses made me shine.
Your hugs caught me on fire.
You cuddles gave me goose bumps.
Your words had all the meaning in the world,
all because i thought you wouldn't hurt me.
But as i hate to say.
You did hurt me, more than ever.*
Feb 3, 2011
Feb 3, 2011 at 4:17 PM UTC
Another gone, gone again.
I thought he liked me for me.
I thought i felt safe with me.
I thought it would last longer than four days.
The good guys always get away,
but, as i always say its just one more off the list.
Maybe the next one waiting for me will last.
Two guys are there for me and seem like it.
I want someone to be there and be able to tell me if they are good.
Another gone, gone again.
As i lay with my phone calling and texting two.
I've never felt that comfored by someone.
When will the hurting stop?
when will they stop turning off the lights and keep them on?
When will the heart be one?
When will someone fill the pain of the hole in the heart?
The girl trapped in the room.
She can never get out, cause the door is locked.
Though i know someone will come along with the key and let her out.
Maybe he will save her for once.
Another gone, gone again.
Can't my life be like a movie?
I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window.
I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey.
I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me.
I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me.
But none of that happens.
Because they just want us to get hurt and do anything for them.
Another gone, gone again.
And i can't do anything but wait and cry.
Jan 31, 2011
Jan 31, 2011 at 6:42 AM UTC
Stephen baby, as we walked the shore.
We talked about many things,
but i didn't say half what i planned on.
You always treat me like everything is good about me.
You always say that there is something worth looking for.
Stephen baby, when i look in your eyes,
There is just something about them that show the truth.
I want to kiss you in the pooring rain,
Kissing you is like the world stops.
Stephen baby, You make me smile every second.
When you grad the back of my head kissing, i feel something different.
When you look at me i feel wanted and needed.
When i say your name...i just can't believe your mine.
Stephen baby, when i think about the 6 months we have.
I know they will be the best moments of my life.
When i think of us together, it's pretty unbelievable.
When i think, im the one that gets to kiss you.
I get butterflies.
I know i'm the luckiest girl in the world (:
Stephen baby,
your mine, i'm yours.
Stephen baby.
Jan 27, 2011
Jan 27, 2011 at 1:33 PM UTC
Someone you can stay up late with and talk about everything to,
Someone that will listen to every bit of drama and tell you the truth,
Someone that will fight a girl for you no matter what,
Someone that will hunt down a guy that broke your heart,
Someone that no matter what happens will be there for you,
Someone who if you need them there, will be there at 4:31 am.
Someone who will dry your eyes after a break up or fight with a parent.
Someone who will run and catch you in the middle of school when you see him hugging another girl.
Someone that will hold you and not let go until your ready.
Someone that will pat your back and just listen to you talk.
Someone that makes you laugh 24/7
Someone that will laugh when you trip and help you up.
Someone that will run through the rain with you.
Someone that will skinny dip with you and jump the fence.
Someone that will smile at the end of the day and say "your my bestfriend."
Some place you can go to be safe.
Some place you can go to have someone stand by you.
Some place you can go to feel warm.
Some place you can go to be protected.
Some place you can go where their parents will hide you.
Some place you go where you don't have to worry about anything.
I have this group of friends that no matter what they are there.
I have this group of friends that are connected in our own weird ways.
I have this group of friends that held me after a bad break up.
I have this group of friends that are mean to eachother a lot, but we joke, and we are a family.
I have this group of friends where we say were going to stay in touch.
I have this group of friends that when were upset were there for eachother, boy or girl.
I have this group of friends where we have a lot of drama and cry a lot..and it brings us together.
**** friends, love, heart breaks, same issues, music, class. ect.
we are all connected in some way, but different ways.
They are the bestfriends iv'e ever had.
I'll never let them go in my heart.
Jan 26, 2011
Jan 26, 2011 at 6:15 AM UTC
I'd rather smile.
Though no one will let me,
no one will make me,
i havnt found that one that puts that smile on my face.
Iv'e met a few, but none that stay.
I may have found one this time..
but im moving soon, so as i have to say.
He won't stay either.
Iv'e met another, where i'm moving to.
I think he will keep that smile on for a while.
Because he makes me blush.
Jan 26, 2011
Jan 26, 2011 at 5:22 AM UTC
As i write this poem,
as everyone is new, but somehow the same.
Life goes by, days go on, nights flys by.
I don't know for sure if he's the one or maybe he is.
Life tricks me, and confuses me.
Can't one thing be what it seem?
cant one moment be like a movie?
can one person be the guy in the movie?
can anything make sense anytime soon?
I want him to be mine.
No one else but him.
He completes me, makes me think, and cares for me.
But don't all guys act like they do?
i know, as i've been told.
The one will come along, and if they all act the same.
You don't know if they are true of not.
Maybe he's the one..or not.
Until then, i'll keep looking (:
Jan 25, 2011
Jan 25, 2011 at 10:26 AM UTC
You know how when you want to make a perfect snow angel?
And there's always that one handprint getting out that messes it up.
Well being with scott, there is no handprint.
Because being with scott, every minute you live life.
If its either 3 hours or 3 minutes.
Things feel possible when im with him,
flying or even finding love.
I never have a dull moment with him.
He's always making me feel good, and im always smiling.
I'd never trade him for anything.
He's like the music in your head all day,
the first person you text in the morning,
the drug you take to stay sane,
and the sun that puts that smile on your face every morning.
Being with him is like seeing the stars at night even though you can't.
Being with him is like living again & feeling happy for once in your life.
Jan 24, 2011
Jan 24, 2011 at 7:58 AM UTC
As i talk to you, the world is calm.
As i care for you, people think i'm crazy.
because i havnt known you long though we are one.
Your amazing and you make me laugh.
You make it feel like the world is in one piece again.
And all because your in my life,
it all feels better and happy.
The world may come crashing down someday.
But for now we are here for each other.
And all i can ask of you is to love me for me.
Jan 22, 2011
Jan 22, 2011 at 5:11 PM UTC