I don't understand
Was I not enough
Was our love just a wasteland
Why is letting you go so rough
I tried my best
Yet I have failed you
Was I too depressed
Please tell me what to do
Don't leave me
Don't make me cry
Don't toss me out to sea
Just why?
All I did was love you
And you still left
Did you find someone new
Or was I just too big of a mess
I planned a future
Was it just a lie
The pain will just get worse
But in the end, I'll die
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 11:27 AM UTC
One day he’ll leave
And never return
As the darkness consumes me
I realize this is what I deserve
I took the light
From his eyes
He cries all night
And always wants to die
I caused him pain
And now he’s gone
I now cry in the rain
Because I made him not want to live on
My nightmares will come alive
As my heart slowly dies
Your soul will fly
And tears will escape my eyes
I look into the mirror
With eyes full of tears
I’m silently screaming, can’t you hear
I’m slowly dying while living in fear
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 2:22 PM UTC
The emptiness
It swallows me whole
I'm left in the darkness
With nothing except my soul
All alone with my sorrow
Sinking deeper and deeper
But wait for tomorrow
I'll be much weaker
My demons will haunt me
With my horrible past
Leaving me with nobody
How long will I last?
Will I just cry
Or finally give in and cut?
Hoping I die
And get out of this rut
I can't stay any longer
It gets harder everyday
I'll never get stronger
Suicide is the best way.
Sep 18, 2017
Sep 18, 2017 at 6:59 PM UTC
At night is when it's bad
They come without warning
The nightmares come, making me sad
Making me cry from midnight to morning
Him slitting his wrists
It seems so real
Him disappearing into a mist
With a pain inside that won't ever heal
I can't get rid of the images
Of him about to jump
off a building causing his life to be finished
Taking my heart with him with a loud thump
Him in a coffin
The picture won't go away
It causes me to cry every so often
Making it hard to get through the day
So there you know
What I deal with at night
The nights are slow
With me crying and hoping to see the light.
Sep 18, 2017
Sep 18, 2017 at 2:54 PM UTC
Falling in Love with you was like drowning in an Ocean.
There came a point when
My lungs stopped screaming.
Panic turned to Peace.
I closed my eyes and there was calm.
Apr 27, 2017
Apr 27, 2017 at 8:50 AM UTC
The beating of my heart seems lethally severe.
Full of misery, heart aches and fear.
Every pleased moment materialize, disappear.
T’ll my agony ends,
You didn’t know how I love you so sincere.
I am waiting for my life to end,
Holding back my mortal friend.
13 times where I was about **** myself,
Still wanting back the door to be open,
Everyday that’s the only thing I wanted to happen.
Yet my heart is still misshapen.
If you could comeback in any moment,
I would probably end up being permanent.
It is but one path, one direction
But this should lead to many other questions
It is really annoying if your just in my imagination
I perceived no other option,
Just to received so many disturbing attentions
Cause I know this is the only solution,
To make our story start up with the right position.
I hope you already know how hard my situation
I know there’s a gap in our correlation,
I know we will end up with no definition
Because of the difficulty in our affection
Yes, I want death with no confusion
Since, that’s the only thing who can make
Our story in no frustrations
Right Decisions,
And go back to introduction
Please help me death,
Please help me to go underneath,
Now I can forcibly cut my breath.
And now I can leave earth.
Apr 25, 2017
Apr 25, 2017 at 9:37 AM UTC
Strength is not my ability to fight
it is my ability to keep standing tall
Strength keeps me going but its not long before I fall
I may fall back to you but when I reach you I stand tall
Seeing your eyes makes me feel like I am flying through the sky...but then I fall back to you again and again until your gone...Then I must stand tall for myself and keep picking myself up because your not here forever and I need you forever...your name I will never forget and your joy and willingness to help anyone makes us all have faith.....We call you Hope and Hope will be known forever. Hope will live on in our hearts, mind and body. Never give up, always try and remember hope is right next to you when you need to hold on and get back up....
Apr 25, 2017
Apr 25, 2017 at 9:27 AM UTC
You were the Sun
And I was the Moon
Silently wishing to be the World so that I could feel your warmth
Even though I was surrounded by the Stars I couldn't help but feel lonely
Counting down the days when we would pass by each other
And pushing myself to eclipse with you
I felt so useless
Like I was nothing
And felt hurt by the things your world spat at me
I would try to disappear but kept coming back because I didn't want to lose your warmth
I need your warmth
Without you I would lose my glow
Without you I would not be the Moon
It's scary to know that I have to depend on you when you don't have to depend on me
Why can't I be your World
Why can't you love me
You were the Sun
And I was your Moon
But you belonged to your World
Apr 6, 2017
Apr 6, 2017 at 10:02 AM UTC
Loud noises
Soft cries
Fake smiles
False lies
Badly beaten
Hearts broken
Watery eyes
****** knives
Scarred wrists
Shaky legs
Unspoken words
Bruised arms
Happiness ended
Pain unknown
This is the
Abusive "home"
Apr 5, 2017
Apr 5, 2017 at 10:53 PM UTC
You look down
And you see a puddle
You smile and then frown
You're in a bubble
A bubble of hate
You can't escape
It determines your fate
Which you can't create
You need help
But no one can
Hear you yelp
So you ran
Ran away
And never came back
Until the next day
Your life turned black
Youlook down
And see a flood
You smile and then frown
It's your blood
Apr 5, 2017
Apr 5, 2017 at 10:48 PM UTC