alphy-1 - Hello Poetry

Running away doesn't seem like an option, I hope it was, on days that weigh me down and tear my soul apart, I hope I could run away. Days when breathing itself is too hard, how can I even think of walking around acting as if nothing is wrong? Escaping has always been my thing. Feeling sick? Work Feeling tired? Work more Feeling violated? Just continue working. "Keep doing what you have always been doing or else you may break down, in a way that you won't be able to come back up" says my stupid mind and I keep believing that it's true but knowing deep within that it's not.

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Nov 1, 2023

Nov 1, 2023 at 11:30 AM UTC

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Running away doesn't seem like an option, I hope it was, on days that weigh me down and tear my soul apart, I hope I could run away. Days when breathing itself is too hard, how can I even think of walking around acting as if nothing is wrong? Escaping has always been my thing. Feeling sick? Work Feeling tired? Work more Feeling violated? Just continue working. "Keep doing what you have always been doing or else you may break down, in a way that you won't be able to come back up" says my stupid mind and I keep believing that it's true but knowing deep within that it's not.

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There are days I just wanna quit, Throw it all away and crawl back into bed, Cry out loud till its all clear and clean inside out. Daily I try, to be a better me for you and for me, Dragging myself from the sheets of comfort that cover me, I fight, I fight everyday for the strength that helps me stand. It's not easy, I'm barely alive somedays, So please be kind to me, Atleast on those days let me be kind to myself. It's not hard to be kind, is it ?

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Aug 21, 2023

Aug 21, 2023 at 2:45 AM UTC

Kindness

There are days I just wanna quit, Throw it all away and crawl back into bed, Cry out loud till its all clear and clean inside out. Daily I try, to be a better me for you and for me, Dragging myself from the sheets of comfort that cover me, I fight, I fight everyday for the strength that helps me stand. It's not easy, I'm barely alive somedays, So please be kind to me, Atleast on those days let me be kind to myself. It's not hard to be kind, is it ?

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I don't remember the last time I wrote, Wrote something good But isn't all that's written and All that will be written good? Maybe this is what it is, What they call a perfect example, Of a bad writing. Is it so?

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Mar 12, 2023

Mar 12, 2023 at 7:10 AM UTC

Bad writings

I don't remember the last time I wrote, Wrote something good But isn't all that's written and All that will be written good? Maybe this is what it is, What they call a perfect example, Of a bad writing. Is it so?

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Using words I sew up that hole I found in me. The hole that has been wrecking havoc and turing things upside down. Will that be enough this time? I have always done this and I know no other way To pour out the pain, the grief, the guilt, the regret. But nowadays even the words don't come out of me. It's so hard to even pen things down. It's so hard to say what I am feeling. What will I do when the only way I could throw a fit has died within me?

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Oct 7, 2022

Oct 7, 2022 at 11:19 AM UTC

Patching Up

Using words I sew up that hole I found in me. The hole that has been wrecking havoc and turing things upside down. Will that be enough this time? I have always done this and I know no other way To pour out the pain, the grief, the guilt, the regret. But nowadays even the words don't come out of me. It's so hard to even pen things down. It's so hard to say what I am feeling. What will I do when the only way I could throw a fit has died within me?

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Everyday I try, to pull myself out, of all the trauma the lies you told me caused I thought, rather I believed I had moved a lot further from all the scars your lies left Looks like iam wrong Entirely evidently, I was wrong, Cause it still hurts me Way too much than it should Even the smallest of small lie hurts me deeply and badly Unable to breathe I struggle Makes me wanna see you, talk to you never again, ever again So please don't do this Don't lie to me And if you ever do make sure to never let me know cause I would hate you too as much as I hate lies.

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Jun 19, 2022

Jun 19, 2022 at 11:53 AM UTC

Don't lie to me please!

Everyday I try, to pull myself out, of all the trauma the lies you told me caused I thought, rather I believed I had moved a lot further from all the scars your lies left Looks like iam wrong Entirely evidently, I was wrong, Cause it still hurts me Way too much than it should Even the smallest of small lie hurts me deeply and badly Unable to breathe I struggle Makes me wanna see you, talk to you never again, ever again So please don't do this Don't lie to me And if you ever do make sure to never let me know cause I would hate you too as much as I hate lies.

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Talking to you on the phone, drains me out of energy And puts me to sleep making my head hurt, making my tummy ache, its paining all over It drains me , drains me out way too much Makes me want to cry , makes me want to hear sad songs like u haven't caused me enough sadness Cry with me will you, sing with me will you, after all that you have done It drains me , drains me out way too much

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Apr 30, 2022

Apr 30, 2022 at 11:51 AM UTC

IT DRAINS ME

Talking to you on the phone, drains me out of energy And puts me to sleep making my head hurt, making my tummy ache, its paining all over It drains me , drains me out way too much Makes me want to cry , makes me want to hear sad songs like u haven't caused me enough sadness Cry with me will you, sing with me will you, after all that you have done It drains me , drains me out way too much

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2 years apart Still close to heart A shoulder to lie on A hand to hold on Endless stories to share More movie nights to come Outings being a bliss Combine studies becoming an abyss Hoping for wonderful days And amazing people to be a part of your life ahead.

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Dec 24, 2021

Dec 24, 2021 at 12:10 AM UTC

Gift

2 years apart Still close to heart A shoulder to lie on A hand to hold on Endless stories to share More movie nights to come Outings being a bliss Combine studies becoming an abyss Hoping for wonderful days And amazing people to be a part of your life ahead.

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Aren’t we all hypocrites in one way or the other? We all say we should respect other But we make sure to call them mad or crazy when we find out they are different from us When we find out they do things differently We judge easily, We criticize easily, We make fun easily, Not caring about how the other person might feel Yet we claim to be the most respectful We call others hypocrites when in reality we all are hypocrites Aren’t we?

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Dec 24, 2021

Dec 24, 2021 at 12:08 AM UTC

Hypocrites we are:

Aren’t we all hypocrites in one way or the other? We all say we should respect other But we make sure to call them mad or crazy when we find out they are different from us When we find out they do things differently We judge easily, We criticize easily, We make fun easily, Not caring about how the other person might feel Yet we claim to be the most respectful We call others hypocrites when in reality we all are hypocrites Aren’t we?

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I have a crush But I daren't let the world know Born from within me It will die within me.

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Dec 10, 2021

Dec 10, 2021 at 1:11 PM UTC

Crush

I have a crush But I daren't let the world know Born from within me It will die within me.

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How could you call me that An introvert you say, Just cause I don't talk to you How crazy of you to think so? My never ending blabber will surprise you But it's not for you to listen to My words and my voice are for the ones that's I want to share it with For those who build that comfort wall around me How do I speak to you, When I feel so suffocated just sitting next to you? My heart running miles and miles everytime you utter a word My throat going dry and hands sweating tons Now tell me is it my fault that I don't talk to you? Is it my fault that you call me an introvert?

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Dec 9, 2021

Dec 9, 2021 at 8:11 AM UTC

Introvert, they said!

How could you call me that An introvert you say, Just cause I don't talk to you How crazy of you to think so? My never ending blabber will surprise you But it's not for you to listen to My words and my voice are for the ones that's I want to share it with For those who build that comfort wall around me How do I speak to you, When I feel so suffocated just sitting next to you? My heart running miles and miles everytime you utter a word My throat going dry and hands sweating tons Now tell me is it my fault that I don't talk to you? Is it my fault that you call me an introvert?

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