Running away doesn't seem like an option, I hope it was, on days that weigh me down and tear my soul apart, I hope I could run away.
Days when breathing itself is too hard, how can I even think of walking around acting as if nothing is wrong?
Escaping has always been my thing.
Feeling sick? Work
Feeling tired? Work more
Feeling violated? Just continue working.
"Keep doing what you have always been doing or else you may break down, in a way that you won't be able to come back up" says my stupid mind and I keep believing that it's true but knowing deep within that it's not.
Nov 1, 2023
Nov 1, 2023 at 11:30 AM UTC
There are days I just wanna quit,
Throw it all away and crawl back into bed,
Cry out loud till its all clear and clean inside out.
Daily I try, to be a better me for you and for me,
Dragging myself from the sheets of comfort that cover me, I fight,
I fight everyday for the strength that helps me stand.
It's not easy, I'm barely alive somedays,
So please be kind to me, Atleast on those days let me be kind to myself.
It's not hard to be kind, is it ?
Aug 21, 2023
Aug 21, 2023 at 2:45 AM UTC
I don't remember the last time I wrote,
Wrote something good
But isn't all that's written and
All that will be written good?
Maybe this is what it is,
What they call a perfect example,
Of a bad writing.
Is it so?
Mar 12, 2023
Mar 12, 2023 at 7:10 AM UTC
Using words I sew up that hole I found in me.
The hole that has been wrecking havoc and turing things upside down.
Will that be enough this time?
I have always done this and I know no other way
To pour out the pain, the grief, the guilt, the regret.
But nowadays even the words don't come out of me.
It's so hard to even pen things down.
It's so hard to say what I am feeling.
What will I do when the only way I could throw a fit has died within me?
Oct 7, 2022
Oct 7, 2022 at 11:19 AM UTC
Everyday I try,
to pull myself out,
of all the trauma
the lies you told me caused
I thought, rather I believed
I had moved a lot further
from all the scars your lies left
Looks like iam wrong
Entirely evidently,
I was wrong,
Cause it still hurts me
Way too much than it should
Even the smallest
of small lie hurts me
deeply and badly
Unable to breathe I struggle
Makes me wanna see you,
talk to you never again,
ever again
So please don't do this
Don't lie to me
And if you ever do
make sure to never let me know
cause I would hate you too
as much as I hate lies.
Jun 19, 2022
Jun 19, 2022 at 11:53 AM UTC
Talking to you on the phone,
drains me out of energy
And puts me to sleep
making my head hurt,
making my tummy ache,
its paining all over
It drains me , drains me out
way too much
Makes me want to cry ,
makes me want to hear sad songs
like u haven't caused me enough sadness
Cry with me will you,
sing with me will you,
after all that you have done
It drains me , drains me out
way too much
Apr 30, 2022
Apr 30, 2022 at 11:51 AM UTC
2 years apart
Still close to heart
A shoulder to lie on
A hand to hold on
Endless stories to share
More movie nights to come
Outings being a bliss
Combine studies becoming an abyss
Hoping for wonderful days
And amazing people to be a part of your life ahead.
Dec 24, 2021
Dec 24, 2021 at 12:10 AM UTC
Aren’t we all hypocrites in one way or the other?
We all say we should respect other
But we make sure to call them mad or crazy when we find out they are different from us
When we find out they do things differently
We judge easily,
We criticize easily,
We make fun easily,
Not caring about how the other person might feel
Yet we claim to be the most respectful
We call others hypocrites when in reality we all are hypocrites
Aren’t we?
Dec 24, 2021
Dec 24, 2021 at 12:08 AM UTC
I have a crush
But I daren't let the world know
Born from within me
It will die within me.
Dec 10, 2021
Dec 10, 2021 at 1:11 PM UTC
How could you call me that
An introvert you say,
Just cause I don't talk to you
How crazy of you to think so?
My never ending blabber will surprise you
But it's not for you to listen to
My words and my voice are for the ones that's I want to share it with
For those who build that comfort wall around me
How do I speak to you,
When I feel so suffocated just sitting next to you?
My heart running miles and miles everytime you utter a word
My throat going dry and hands sweating tons
Now tell me is it my fault that I don't talk to you?
Is it my fault that you call me an introvert?
Dec 9, 2021
Dec 9, 2021 at 8:11 AM UTC