Sometimes you must break your own heart to remind yourself what love feels like
May 26, 2021
May 26, 2021 at 11:12 AM UTC
Every time your eyes lock mine
Those three words float to the edge of my mouth
and dance along to tip of my tongue as they gently brush your lips
I’ve said it to you a hundred times as you slept in my arms
Ive whispered it behind you as you walked on ahead
You said you would be in trouble if you could read minds
Please don’t read mine
Just three words
That I can’t say to your face
That I tell you in little ways everyday
I lose myself In the way you look at me
Nobody’s ever looked at me like that
Truthfully I’ve lost myself in you completely
and I don’t want to be found
When did you do this to me?
I feel like I’m going to throw up
Maybe these are what they call butterflies
Why can’t I say it
First you took my eyes
And with it you stole my heart
It’s silent
Should I say it?
Hold it back
Then you stole my mouth, and my words were yours
What are you thinking about?
I said it
Silence
my chest is sinking and I’m drowning along side it
Can you feel my pain through my eyes?
The eyes you stole
My words are lacking now
My mouth is yours remember
I have nothing right to say
My heart it’s bleeding in your hands
Do you want it?
May 26, 2021
May 26, 2021 at 11:06 AM UTC
I love it when he's loud, and
I love it when he's bold.
I love it when he’s calm, and
I love it when he folds.
I love him for his words, and
I love him for his songs.
I love him for his rights, and
I love him for his wrongs.
I love it when he's passionate, and
I love it when he’s gray.
I love it when he’s all for me, and
I love it when he strays.
I love him for his warmth, and
I love him for his stare.
I love him for his depths, and
I love him for his care.
Nov 15, 2020
Nov 15, 2020 at 12:20 AM UTC
I didn't listen when you told me that continuing to give, to love so much without receiving anything in return...
Was only going to hurt me... but I insisted.
Now here I am, empty, and nothing left to give. With no one around to help me pick up the pieces of my broken heart.
I wish I listened.
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 11:21 PM UTC
always telling myself
i can do BETTER
be BETTER
almost like...
im not good enough for me
sometimes
i wish
i could be proud
of myself
in the same way
i feel
when someone else
utters that same sentence
VALIDATION
makes me feel
complete
its not that im...
constantly searching for it
i try desperately
to fill that void
with SELF LOVE
the same love
i give to other people
in abundance
but
it never feels
the same as when
someone else
looks me in the eye
and all you can see
is love
...
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 11:09 PM UTC
If my hands were numb to your touch,
and my eyes were blind to your affection,
I would still compose love letters for you with my lips.
For I could never piece together,
the perfect words that express truly how much
I care for you.
So instead I speak in tongue.
Breathlessly sliding my mouth in and out of yours,
like the pause in between a sentence.
You're a book I don't want to put down.
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 11:00 PM UTC
When I am by myself
I just sit there
My eyes unfocused
Completely trapped in my mind
As I feel my chest sink
And my heart breaking
I realize
I am alone
The three words echo
Louder in my head
Than a broken glass
In an empty auditorium
I have waited
For calls that never came
Love,
That was never given back
I believed
I could love other people
So much that I could one day
Eventually
Love me too
But when everyone you love leaves
Apart of you, leaves you
too
Even if they come back
I continue to greet them
with open arms
But never forgetting
And Always reminded, Every time
No matter how hard I love
How much I give
That I am easy to let go
People see me whole
But every time
I look in the mirror
All I see, is everything that’s missing
I fill my holes with lies
And short term happiness
It’s easy to not notice
What’s missing beneath the surface
If all I choose to show
Is my smile
But not the pain behind it
The twinkle in my eye often
Confused for happiness
I avoid superficial conversation
But lack the words
To say what I feel deep inside
I am mute to expressing my pain
Sober,
I drown myself in people
To silence my own mind
Until once again
I find myself alone
Unable to hold back the tears
Of how much
I cannot stand
To be left by myself
With my own thoughts
I don’t have trust issues
I have abandonment issues
For I consistently convince myself
That everyone I love will leave me
Like they have
So many times before
And honestly I understand
To look at myself
From someone else’s shoes
With an insiders perspective
And given the choice
To leave me...
I probably would too
Aug 3, 2020
Aug 3, 2020 at 10:49 PM UTC
mind that,
its okay
to be scared
to be better
smile
even when
you're crying
stop running
from the storm
just embrace it
feel everything
fight all you
want, and then
face it
believe in you
trust yourself
free because
you need not know
where you're going
but because
you don't
need to know
let go
May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 1:19 AM UTC
He is passionate
Overflowing with untamed emotion, magic slips from his
Fingertips creating masterpieces with his hands
He is fire
Dry throat, silent pleas, match to gasoline, uncontrollable
Skin devouring
He is love
Where nothing can become everything
A halo of light illuminated in a darkened room
He is balance
The kinda person who makes you feel like a sinner and a saint
All at once; You wanna see him happy even without you
He is art
His eyes compose irresistible stories but only to those who listen
His tongue an abstract painting, each stroke so intricate; delicate
He is sad
For he gives his love endlessly, concern is his language
He fears he's not enough, but hes so much more than he knows
He is a dreamer
In the eyes of the world doomed broken by design, all the things he Knew he was meant for; the sweetest ignorance of how to get there
He is familiarity
Sweeter than any childhood memory, you want to wrap
Yourself in his embrace, you feel like its something you know
He is
May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 12:39 AM UTC
I ****** up today
but the sun, she loves me
and I know she will be back tomorrow
and if not tomorrow, the day after
and when she weeps, the moon loves me for her
while the rain reminds me im alive
Mar 2, 2019
Mar 2, 2019 at 1:11 AM UTC