all-together-by-yourself
American
My words emerge from deepest thought, experience, discovery, and human involvement . If you observe closely you can see the hidden spaces that beg me, purge daily, in my beautifully imperfect perfect existence. Here, there is always room for one more. =D
(My Love,)
If you could see yourself when I touch your face
You'd be familiar with the echo
The expressions come when you close your eyes
Your need to be loved
Your need to be accepted
Your craving needs for my affection
You're beautiful
You're vulnerable
You're the blushing of your cheeks
Desiring me to love you
Kissing the redness of your lips
The heat of your hands
Telling me you are mine
And mine alone to touch
We are one in the darkness of where we stand
Time sits still when I see your waking eyes
Glittering as gorgeous as they are
Oh the lightness of a smile staring back at me
Obliterated sadness Now it's gone without a trace
In these moments you are all I see
(Your Love.)
Jan 20, 2014
Jan 20, 2014 at 4:29 PM UTC
Is where my brother lays his head
Maybe once a month or when ever he's sick
One of three
Lays in a white bed with a white sheet
Called a A Hospital bed
He's the strongest one of our messed up family
The baby of the Sum of Three
I think about him often
Wonder why but fail to understand
How it's not fair to see someone you love laying there
Slowly dying when there are others should be where he is laying
The brusies will fade from the needle jab, I.V. bags
I just don't understand in a world that can be so cruel
Why this is happening to you.
Lover of Jokes, Lover of Animals, Lover of people
and so open hearted How your dreams can't come true
When the medicine they give to heal you You said feels like firey acid inside of you
You're the strongest piece of a broken whole
As the oldest I want to do more
Wanting to help you endure
Fate is never in my favor
But I waiver my attention from you
I am sorry
If I could stop the hands of time and press rewind
Maybe things could be different
Maybe I could be there with you
I just want you to know that I love you
Oct 15, 2013
Oct 15, 2013 at 3:36 PM UTC
Hello. Thank You. Good-Bye.
Are words I have to say to get your attention
Not because I have to but because I'm paid to
If you only knew how people preseve you
No need for rudeness or attitude
You might just say use manners with the people who matter
With the people who know more than you
It's their job They are suppose to
And if they don't talk to untrained management
Knowledge comes from the top not from the bottom
You get what you give is the Universal Rule, so
Hello. Thank You. Good-Bye.
It's just out of Common Courtesy since you weren't raised in a barn
There's nothing more left to say
You'll go on ignoring me anyway
Oct 15, 2013
Oct 15, 2013 at 3:15 PM UTC
Cause you're toxic Defiled
shedding the old you exposing a new person you have turned into
You're not around me... now
But when you are
I'm falling like I'm drowning
This friendships crowning
Evolved into another person that I just don't need.
Cause you're all full of passive aggressive rage that's melted my sight.
What's hidden and hissing waiting to devoure me.
Brainwashed to all the lies that you've been telling me.
Seducing me, loving me with self loathing injections, posioning.
Leading me to believe. Lies.
In the trenches abandion. Dark. Quite. So I stop being afraid. Nothing flogging me.
Reality: The unforgiving madness. Like a light in the darkness. My Heart.
I see that I can be worthy. I just gotta figure out how to get back my selfesteem again.
No one wants to lick my wounds of unchanging torture.
Cause I have been walking around in a salted skin.
Never healing, never dealing, with all the injuries that I've taken.
Don't want to soak up the death were you've laid me to rest. Cause it's changing me.
You are not me. I will never be you. You wanted me invisible, you still do, when all you can be is you.
Lets call it what it is: Resentment.
You will never be me! Sorry imitation. It's what's in the heart.
Look at me. Strong again.
Prying off the scabs of pain Disinfecting
Nine years and this is the end.
Oct 8, 2013
Oct 8, 2013 at 2:14 PM UTC
We are the Sum of Three
My brothers and me
That's my two brothers and then me
We are all on a journey
One is dying
The other it's searching
There's me; failed disappointment
We are all artists
One gives love to music and animals
One gives love to drawing and women
The other loves everything but lives in fear
We are a sum of three
We are all broken
We were all suppose to over come
We are all not the hope or better future our parents would have wanted
We are a sum of three
Scattered
Unhappy
Hopeless
We are two boys and a girl
Wanting more out of life
Wanting love and a direction
Wanting what is withheld denied promised
We Are Sadly A Sum Of Three
Who if you saw us on the street
You wouldn't know
We are family
Sep 1, 2013
Sep 1, 2013 at 4:13 PM UTC
From long ago my memories came
Of those I loved who I'd never see again
I miss them, the ones who'd stand by me
I miss the ones who hugged on me
I miss the birthdays And tiny gifts
I miss the love of growing friendships
I miss the bonding of whence it came
Looks like I will never see it again
I miss the joy and unseemless laughter
I miss the happy ever after
I miss the time when things were true
I miss the love I had for you
I miss what I don't have
Now it's the nostalgia I'll always have
I miss you like I did something wrong
But it's you who left me wondering all along
How I have blamed myself for not understanding how to move on
I miss them all
The people who use to be
From the beginning of my identity
I miss them all cause now you see
I have none to speak of Cause I'm alone
as lonely as anyone person could be
Aug 25, 2013
Aug 25, 2013 at 3:07 PM UTC
When smiling was all she knew.
She asked and her father replied
Nobody likes you or trusts people like you
Years pressed but she had faith till
The little girl grew old and her heart grew cold
The world full of people recked her spirit
To her disbelief her father was right
When she came to recognize
Nobody liked a genuinely happy smiley person
Try after try she just ended with tears in her eyes
So she turn her upside down frown down
Permanently
Now grown as beautiful as could be
Her father and the world full of people ask
What could it be?
The frown and those eyes
What happen to make her so angry unhappy mean
She should be happy cheery with glee
The woman who was the girl said
What is wrong me?
This is the person you wanted me to be
Cold as ice Frowning resent
She turned away
To continue life's journey... But
Now and again she'll pull a box with a ribbon
To gaze upon something that's hidden
Her resting box
Wrapped safely inside is the spirit that use to be
Tucked in the last spark of her gentle heart
Closing it sad tears in her eyes
Knowing they would never deserve
Her warmth love beauty spirit or art
Let them live their lives with contradicting hearts
Aug 18, 2013
Aug 18, 2013 at 6:24 PM UTC
In years gone passed I have failed to mention
A lovely boy of Blue eyes Dark hair
Deep soul to bare
He is my friend Have I failed to mention
There's no body like him
He is tall and trim with a infectious laugh and shiny grin
He is niether here nor there of where I have been
But he is beautiful to all once you've laid eyes on him
He lives NY but when the moon is blue
You'll see the shadow of a boy I once knew
Now he's a man of special occasions
Like theatrical ones have I failed to mention
He can sing like a bird and charm a bee
Make me feel embrassed when he's looking at me
Someday that man will get married
And I don't know when that will be
All I know is that he is beautiful to me
Aug 14, 2013
Aug 14, 2013 at 5:11 PM UTC
I had a dream last night
Not to clear what it was about
All I know is that I needed help
I waited
Glancing only to see you turn the corner
An unexpected surprize
To see your glitterly blue eyes
We made eye contact
There were smiles and butterflies
I had never worked with you before
Yet, you were the solution
That I was looking for
Aug 13, 2013
Aug 13, 2013 at 3:15 PM UTC
I met him today again
For the first time
Laughed and chatted
My eyes I batted
Not for love or for flirt
But just because
Raw and true
Is what I am when I'm with him
A friend from the past
Soon to fly back to New York fast
He has changed in his look and his laughter
He asked about any ever after
I said no
There are no rings to show
Couldn't ask him the same
Tongue was tight with shame
I'll see him again in two days time
Maybe, just maybe
Who knows?
He kissed my head with a lingered hug
For the very first time
Aug 9, 2013
Aug 9, 2013 at 6:28 PM UTC