i was going to write something
poetic and witty
then realized i was neither
Jun 7, 2021
Jun 7, 2021 at 9:07 PM UTC
Did I **** my kids
i dont really know
the cops think so
and they follow me
and i die a little every day
i could **** myself
leave a note
saying i didn't **** them
but it wont be heard
paranoid skitzo
thats me
ill say it
let me be
i killed my kids
come and arrest me
i killed them
let it end
my life is so ****** up
id rather be in prison
then living a life where you follow me, hack my facebook and change my friends.. steal my journals and year books.. make me think im in love when she's getting paid... fuck i hate this life.. arrest me or let me die
i killed my kids.. i killed my kids.. i totally killed my kids... is that enough for an arrest?
Nov 2, 2019
Nov 2, 2019 at 4:19 AM UTC
I don't understand free will
I lack insight on freedom to choose
God, are you like a grocery store?
I dont have to buy the outdated steak
its half off....
i will never be forced to purchase two for one
mack and cheese
(down on your knees)
i die if i dont eat
pay at the door
burn in hell fire
if i dont shop at your store?
Apr 27, 2016
Apr 27, 2016 at 5:52 AM UTC
Pa
Paaaa
Paaa
Passss
Passssssss
PAST
Something that isn't
Anymore
Had to google it just to see
Past
gone by in time and no longer existing.
Everything I am
No longer exists.
******* scary
Jan 5, 2016
Jan 5, 2016 at 7:38 PM UTC
I am chosen
Dont ask me why
Dont ask how
Just screan
Burn for etirnity
Make peace with it now
I saw a light
It was so warm
It filled me with ideas
Made my head swarm
All ways of helping
Bringing man together
Conecting our neighbors
Our people
Our towns
But it was lie
I stoped for a tear
Bought a beer
And now you will all fry
I have something so horrible it could be use to lift our souls into the light
Even those that died before
A motivational speech that could touch the
world
But none would listen
To caught up wanting to lie
There can only be one now to fly
Becasue my friends family and children
Scream
Scream
Scream
Its you or i
My wrath will rain down on earth
Red will the sky and water i dye
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 4:20 PM UTC
Dont take this the wrong way
Its something ill only say
Not think or do
To him her or you
But....
Maybe these people shoot up public places
And then themselves
Simply because theyve screamed, yelled
Begged for them to hear
But they would not listen
So they go and do something they cant ignore
And when they come rushing in to save the day
Full of questions, tears and ohh yes
Come in with nothing but ears
The last bang is to say **** off
You had your chance to listen
Dec 16, 2015
Dec 16, 2015 at 8:48 AM UTC
how could she leave me
alone, lost and confused
how could her heart empty
from differences in thoughts or views
she belongs to me
and I to her
cuddling by the fire
together we purr
our journey is young
so many memories already
her beauty can only grow
yes, we have really just begun
she may jump a little if i raise a hand
but that will soon go away
I just got a little too angry once
she understood, listens now to what i say
she sees all the good inside of me
yearns for my gentle caresses
and whispers about the beauty of the queen
she will always be my favorite possession
i really dont like to scream
or to be forced to throw my weight around
so she forgives and forgets quickly
assures me her dedication is sound
its not me or anything i taught
she has some kind of past i dont seem to get
we really do need each other
and its not like her love for me had to be bought
she really cant leave me
cause shes my dog
a thoughtless but precious gift
and way too scared of what would happen
if that back stabbing ***** was to get caught
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 9:03 AM UTC
I make my own truth
Something needs to be true
I do not hear your words or listen enough
Defined by my lack of agreeing with you
Is he frustrated you just don't hear
Which means he isn't as well
Not admitting hers is the one
Reversed is not for sale
Is it to share ideas of madness
Or to prove why you must be right
Did your mother forget to whisper
Before each soft kiss goodnight
Shadows must crumble sweet child
We cannot afford them both to feel
So I make own truth
Because Something needs to be real
Jul 9, 2015
Jul 9, 2015 at 6:35 AM UTC
She repeats herself another million ******* times. Stories so twisted that not even when she's sober can she remember her previous line. I tell her it hurts. She claims she doesn't understand why. And I believe her for a second this time. Again. Then I consider where we are, where We are not, due to her restrictions unsaid. I cry. Inside this round, at least so far. She screamed at me last time. From my open door. Belched several times she wished I would **** myself, but I'm too big a ***** to do it. Said yes I'm last. Said no im not. Said she loved me, but sharing feeling we must not. Made love to me, ran home and added a friend. I made another account, saw her page begin. But I'm blocked from seeing for myself, because her love is exceptionally thin. Why does she come over? Why does she text me every day? I'm restricted from her house, family, friends, feelings and truth... Fucking dying with pain. She's coming to my place, screaming forget the past, I've never lied again.
Feb 26, 2015
Feb 26, 2015 at 10:15 AM UTC
Love is
An intense feeling of deep affection
If only it felt just as good
Weeping underneath your billboards of rejection
Love is
A great interest and pleasure in something
You must love me a lot
Shouting the lies, watching your words sting
Love is
A formula for ending an affectionate letter
I'm still waiting for one
That admits why your busy, and how I'm so much better
Nothing is
not anything; no single thing
That is what I have left
Still I love you and the things you couldn't bring
Sep 2, 2014
Sep 2, 2014 at 10:10 PM UTC