I live in the past which is why when he left I finally started living in him
Sep 21, 2014
Sep 21, 2014 at 10:29 PM UTC
I wait.
For a sign, for anything
10%.
Blankly, hopelessly
Waiting.
There's a certain sadness I feel growing
A loneliness, that can't be cured.
How little it takes but no one to give.
A mind so numb and blank
and so delicately damaged.
Aug 6, 2014
Aug 6, 2014 at 9:34 PM UTC
There was a time I believed in you
more than I believed in myself
as I found a light
that I couldn't grasp on my own
and you chased after it with me
until the light burned out
in the both of us
Jul 15, 2014
Jul 15, 2014 at 9:55 PM UTC
I don't know why I try... I feel like a sunset - beautifully going down.
I feel lost at sea, drowning....dehydrated.... falling in the darkness and coldness sad and alone.
I don't care about sad song lyrics and advice, I just want you
But you would not love me like this, no one in their right mind would....so why do you have to be in your right mind?
Take me all and love me....or take me all and drown me
The love I felt
was it real?
I write until the pain goes away - away like your soul
wont you heal me?
come back. come back.
Im never satisfied and it ***** me over everytime
I hate you but im so in love with you
you are not worth this.
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 8:57 PM UTC
Everyday
I see you walking down the halls casually
and we look opposite directions
everyday
as you are walking down the hall I know where you are going
I've memorized your clases.
Everyday
I wonder what things would be like if you hadn't changed your mind
and I would run up to you and tell you how my day is going and laugh
Everyday
I see you with a different girl
and everyday
it never gets easier
and sometimes I forget how to walk.
Everyday
before school,
I think of what you would want me to wear
and what you would want me to say
and what you want me to do
but I never let myself let you win
because
Everyday
you have put me through misery
Jun 6, 2014
Jun 6, 2014 at 1:03 PM UTC
you're nervous
'take a drink, it'll calm you down'
you're nervous
'here, take a hit, a little **** will do ya good'
you're nervous
'come sit next to me, I'll make sure nothing bad happens to you'
now you're drunk
now you're baked
now you're being touched, felt, caressed
but it doesn't matter.
you're no longer nervous.
you can't feel.
you don't care.
you're exactly what they want you to be
no longer timid
no longer shy
no longer nervous
Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 8:22 PM UTC
You smiled at me as I laid my head on your chest
and for a split second I thought it was real
Jun 2, 2014
Jun 2, 2014 at 9:09 AM UTC